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@trenton I saw your other posts in other threads about God Realization and spirituality. Doesn't that help? I mean, you seem to have some spiritual and existencial understanding of reality, how does that change an experience of breakup if it does? I mean, doesn't that help shift a perspective from self-centered to a bit more objective, thus making coping with suffering easier? or maybe that's just my fantasies about spirituality speaking.

@theleelajoker yea, thanks man. Exactly, my dad passed away last year and I wasn't able to cry, I am not sure why because I loved him very much. But now I went to his grave and cried my eyes out, and that felt really good, it felt like I emptied a year or pented up emotions in 30 minutes. Even if she did, I would refuce to get back to her because I can't trust her no more. And for me trust is very important in a monogamous relationship. Yeah of course she has her set of problems, I had mine. I try not to blame either of us because that was the point of maturity that we were on at that time. Maybe if I met her older, I'd be more mature to not do stupid shit that I did. But it was what it was. Thanks for the advice

@TheGod I can't unfortunately, and lots of places that we hung out are still around, so I have to deal with the memories all the time. Yup, I already started / resumed. That's hard to hear, but it is what it is. Thanks

@vinc3nc Yeah but there are some objective traits that you appreciate in another human being (especially as partner) then others, right? But I guess the point made is that those traits can be found in other people as well, and thinking that only this one was a perfect case for it is silly. No, I don't want to be framing any of my actions as "revenge". She replacing me is a type of evolving that she does. Sorry, but these quotes just reinforce the biases of just one side. This is a quote I really liked that helped me emotionally:

@Leo Gura Hey Leo, can you check your PM? I sent you a message regarding a technical help with a forum username. Sorry for off-topic, I just have no other way to reach you. Thanks!

https://www.amazon.com/Essential-Ken-Wilber-Introductory-Reader/dp/1570623791

@Leo Gura In what way?

@Leo Gura Have you felt effects so far? like actually feeling energy rising up and down along the spine. How many pranayamas are you doing?

@Leo Gura Was that before psychedelics or after? I haven't done any psychedelics nor experienced mystical states in any sober way and I plan to work on my dream consciousness, making myself more and more aware inside of dreams. So you're saying that can be used as a legit way of experiencing God?

@Leo Gura Isn't having a no sense of self required to be aware of God? Is it possible to still have a sense of ego self and simultaneously be aware of God? So you being aware that your default state is God doesn't require loss of your sense of being "Leo". Is that correct?

@Leo Gura I guess I better get to work then. Thanks for the answers. https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/44321378-lsd-and-the-mind-of-the-universe This is a great book I've read just about that, I found it after watching the interview you posted a long time ago of an academic guy who did like 70+ high dose LSD trips over 20 years or something. He documents each of those trips and it's clearly visible how he goes through the layers of first his persona, then the collective stuff and then higher and higher, and the suffering he goes through. It's a great book for everyone interested with these questions.

@Leo Gura Does psychedelics boost that work as well? Or maybe a traditional therapist or breathwork or something can be more effective. So what if I don't have an access to psychedelics (yet) and I want to Awaken, and I'm not much genetically gifted spiritually, I guess I have to work with what I've got, and as you mentioned elsewhere, the second most powerful thing can be weeks of meditation nonstop. But still, if I envision to have access to psychedelics (maybe afford traveling in a few years to places where can I trip), how can I prepare (clear up the confusion, emotional baggage, trauma, wrong beliefs, ideology, etc) without them? My answer to that is basically do the epistemological work that you (and maybe Ralston) teach, question everyting, contemplate a lot sober as well, clean up information intake, make the body as healthy as possible, have some manual spiritual practices even if they don't change the state that much day after day, etc. What would you say?

@Leo Gura A question regarding your states post: So as I understand, there are many non-ordinary (non-human-default) states that we can access through meditation, contemplation, yoga, psychedelics (different psychedelics with different states), breathwork, lucid dreaming, astral projection, etc. But as I know you mean a very specific state when you say Awakening, where you realize yourself as God (or maybe as separate first, but still). Is that right? and if so, what are the best ways of accessing that specific state that you call Awakening, and why does it take so long, meaning that why can't just a random guy have a state change with one method with one try, why do we need many iterations of psychedelics for example.

@Leo Gura What do you think about dailiy 1-2 hour meditation?

@Leo Gura What do you think, how can Lucid Dreaming be used for metaphysical work?

@Leo Gura Can you share how? What changed?

@Leo Gura But didn't you say that psychedelics are the most effective tool? What are the other tools that you plan to use to access higher consciousness without psychedelics? Are you planning to return to practices like meditation or yoga?

@Leo Gura Isn't Awakening increasing the baseline ability of happiness / ability to accept reality as it is?

@Leo Gura Or you lack the practice of the techniques maybe? So if you did exercises of inducing OOBE for example, it won't happen, you know that for sure?

@MarkKol Unrelated to your question, but what's your diet like? What food categories have you eliminated so far? And do you eat 100% clean?

@Leo Gura Like what? Give us some examples

@Leo Gura What do you consider as spiritual work these days? More tripping?

@Leo Gura How can we avoid it on our own spiritual path? How did you avoid it? If you did.

@Leo Gura What do you call consciousness work these days? Same thing as Ralston calls? Because the term "consciousness work", I've mostly heard from you and him. So, basically, meditation, yoga, contemplation, psychedelics?

@Staples But I can't just change jobs at the moment. In your experience, how much progress can be made in Blender for example by investing a couple of hours every week, in a year? I might consider changing my career from software development to this, or somehow integrate the two, or keep the software career and develop 3D skills on my free time, and maybe create some kind of YouTube videos as part of that.