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Yes it's ridiculous to suggest sex an hour after getting a number from girl you met during run. Lol.

@Raze Attraction and mating requires some manipulation, but there are degrees. Also, those are examples of manipulating to attract (or fail to do so), but I think there's way less need to do that when you are in a relationship. Dynamics change between attraction and relationship phases.

Can you give examples of what you mean? Like in practice, what kind of manipulations are you saying would be okay for you? Specific scenarios.

The most effective way you learn is through foolish actions, suffering and paying for consequences. That's when you realize deeply your own wrong ways and the urgency to change. You saw directly what porn watching habits can do to a relationship, that knowledge is invaluable. I saw it too, that's how I learned that I can't be intimate with someone if my head is filled with porn images constantly. That lesson was learned the hard way but it was necessary for me to have a possibility and ability of constructing healthier relationships.

Yeah couple friends who read Red Pill books (probably their 2nd book that they've read in life after high school) and were trying to convince me that those ideas would change my life. It's so easy to make money off of young guys with targeting their most basic survival needs. The ideology gets into their head very easily when they are not used to questioning. When I look at Mike Tyson's interviews where he describes his 5meo trips, he looks genuinely changed, he mentions rebirth and transformation experienses that changed him fundamentally. So maybe there's chance for Tate as well, maybe he'll get less egomaniac as he ages and thinks of his death more.

Andrew Tate saying he is from another dimention, that he is Morpheus and is here to save young guys from the Matrix, is just so ridiculous. How is anyone so gullible to fall into that? I guess the answer is need for sex and money. People's need for sex and money is so great that they blindly listen to these fools. These Red Pilled guys would look at Actualized and say it's a cult, and then turn to Andrew Tate for advice for getting out or a Matrix, LOL. It's so backwards. I've tried that, and I have to say your signature speaks the truth I've given up on that. Yeah and since nobody explained the psychology of identity and the role of belief systems in their epistemology and the importance of it, they just defend it blindly. I want to see Andrew Tate taking 5-meo-DMT just to see how his behavior would change He'll probably double down on his bullshit.

Lol. I read reports where Jesus was seen during trips, confirming the validity of christianity. But Jesus is seen during sober mystical experiences too as I've heard. That's why stage blue mysticism is a thing, when a christian mind interprets the absolute it might get a vision of Jesus or something.

That's tough, kudos for doing that. Did you hide it for a long time?

@CARDOZZO Sometimes all those green new age girls are so brain washed I'd just rather date a normal girl who isn't into anything woo-woo. But the fantasy that my girl should be into spiritual stuff is there for me as well. But I think that's just it, a fantasy. But on the other hand if a girl is very ideological, doesn't care about growing up in some way and doesn't appreciate your efforts to do so, what's even point of that kind of a relationship. Also, being single isn't that bad either Especially after you get some relationships and see what's all the fuss is about.

Cut the carbs to 50-100g a day and you'll get that. But if you also want to build up the energy to have it to exercise, I woudn't recommend it. You see, going for "quick" ways when dealing with weight loss will always backfire in one way or another. Prefer more long term approach. Continue building up to 30m/day exercise and eat 300 to 500 calories in deficit.

Yes sure, research into that field can be meaningful. I was just interested to know how would this trip would affect his life purpose. I was thinking maybe it would show him the illusory nature of the self and that he woudn't be attached to prolonging it so hard. But it seems that contrary has happened, he seems to be doubling down.

Yes buy he doesn't seem to realize that. I was hoping he'd see more of that after this trip.

@PolyPeter Yeah I was confused by his conclusion. On the one hand he seems to have experienced ego-dissolution and becoming pure existance, and on the other he continued talking about how the existance is the highest priority thing but meaning the egistance of himself. If he meant existance for itself, then isn't his whole endevour meaningless? Maybe I misunderstood.

There is actually a synthetic artificial caviar in my local markets that's less expensive than eggs But eating that will probably kill me lol.

It's been a week since my last post here. I've still been relapsing, but I found a solution now I think. Let's see how it goes, I'll post again after a week.

For the past few years, I’ve been struggling to stay consistent with myself — with the promises I make to myself, with integrity, and with discipline. I’ve examined this many times and identified some fundamental issues that I’m working to fix. This journal will serve as public accountability while I build the foundation for the next phase of my life. I’ve just turned 30, and I now realize how little time I have and how easy it is to waste most of it. I need to take much more action than I did in my 20s. Currently, I’m struggling with addiction, I’m overweight, I do the bare minimum at my job as a software developer, I don’t exercise much, and I deal with some anxiety. I know how to fix all of it — and more. I know what to do to make my life unrecognizably better (at least to try my best), and inaction only makes me resent myself more. I know what to do. I just have to do it. This thread will help me stay accountable. I’ll be posting every Saturday with a report on the previous week. This is how it will go. Phase 1: 3 Months I’ve been overconsuming pornography and engaging in compulsive masturbation. Since I’m single and somewhat isolated, I need to control this habit. I will abstain from both to reset my dopamine reward cycle. I’ve been slacking off at work, so I need to refocus and concentrate more. I currently work in 45-minute blocks, then rest for a few minutes, repeating this 2–3 times a day. I want to increase this to at least 6 blocks. Work inconsistency has caused me to sleep very late or work late into the night. As I fix my work habits, my sleep habits should improve as well. My goal is to sleep at least 7 hours, from 12:00 a.m. to 7:00 a.m. I’ve gained a lot of weight. I’m currently around 105 kg and eat a lot of junk food. The plan is to build muscle and lose fat simultaneously until I reach 72–75 kg. Eat 1,800–2,000 calories with at least 160 g of protein Weight train at least 3 times per week Jog for 30 minutes at least 3 times per week Cut out junk food at least 90% of the time I work as a software developer, and the industry is changing rapidly. I need to keep up. I will invest at least 1–2 hours per day in studying, building side projects, or diving deeper into AI. Read books for at least 1 hour per day. Summary of Phase 1 No porn or masturbation No social media Limited YouTube/Reddit for recreation 6–8 daily 45-minute work blocks 1–2 hours of study 1 hour of reading Fixing sleep routine Weight loss: 1,800–2,000 calories 3x weightlifting, 3x cardio weekly Cut out junk food Phase 2: 3 Months On top of the foundation built in Phase 1: Add spiritual practices: Mindfulness meditation (breath-focused) and Kriya Yoga pranayama Add therapeutic practices such as shamanic breathwork, TRE (Trauma Release Exercises), and self-therapy journaling to work through unresolved trauma and issues from the past few years Continue weight loss and exercise — likely reaching target weight by the end of Phase 2 Continue reading and studying Allow masturbation at most once per week after the first 90 days, since more than that negatively affects my life Phases 3 and 4 I can’t say much about these yet. I imagine strengthening spiritual practices, making them more focused and prioritized, socializing more, and possibly starting to date — though dating may be too distracting at the moment, and I don't want it honestly since I've recently got out of a LTR. Phases 4+ Getting involved with psychedelics More socializing More dating experience Starting to work on additional income streams aside from my job Working on creative projects Traveling Meeting new people Exciting things — but first, the foundation. That’s the plan. I won’t plan further than this because planning is a trap for me. Planning gives me a false sense of accomplishment, but it isn’t real progress. Real accomplishment comes from daily execution — day in and day out. It’s that simple. I’ll update every Saturday. 52 updates total. Let’s see how far I go. See you next week.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-464 Life feels much more mystical and spontaneous in childhood, then we get used to it. @Leo Gura Is child more connected to what you are referring or did I misunderstood? Somehow it feels that life got much less exciting once I grew up and survival pressure increased.

I experienced same thing with KFC wings and burger. Once I had to stop all junk food for couple months due to medical issue and once it got resolved, I thought I'd eat some KFC and ordered it. I literally vomitted everything, my body just rejected that shit. But interestingly, after days and weeks of eating and getting used to junk again, it got normilized and I wasn't feeling negative effects much, till I ditched it again for some time.

Depends on frequency. None, if I do very rarely like once every other week. But if I do it daily, it mostly affects my sexual performance very negatively, also I get desensitized to a real life scenarios which makes intimacy with a real human very hard. That's mostly it.

Love it, but this shit is so expensive, if you eat this daily you must be a millionaire

Did he do it? How did he react?

I think that junk food is a perfect analogy because it's obvious that over-consumption causes issues. But notice that some people eat junk food and don't experience negative side-effects because of it. Maybe it's genetics thing? Trump comes to mind as he famously eats McDonalds daily. Maybe porn works like that too I have no idea. Also notice that over time you get desensitized to a normal food, requiring more sugary, salty and exciting processed junk to satisfy the tongue and taste receptors. And when you ditch junk food and return to healthy eating habits, senses are being reset and you are back to normal in couple weeks. If you are lucky you can even reverse your bad health with it. The compulsivity and lack of self-control is a problem here, not porn itself. But porn is designed in such a way and tickles a part of the reptilian brain (so to speak) in such a way that it's very easy to lose yourself in the rabbit hole of it, especially when you are a teenage boy having nothing better to do.

This has some nice VFX.

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