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@integral What practices led to that permanent state? Do you still have it?

[3/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses => oh man, the whole day was filled with triggers, but didn't act on them 18m meditation => felt aggitated in the end and stopped 6m pranayamas => starting slow, have to make sure the technique is correct first 1.5h reading Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study => I had lots of work to do and haven't found time for studying Okay, now the 4th day, it's been going fine so far.

I loved Mirrors Edge, the first one though, haven't played the second one. This was like a soundtrack for some part of my childhood I played it so much lol. Is sequel also good?

"Humans are gradually becoming less involved in the loop of recursive self-improvement. It's not fully automated, it may be end of this year, but not later than next year" - Elon Musk Bullshit hype continues? Or there is something happening that we're not aware of. Probably not.

You saw the aliens?

@cistanche_enjoyer How would you define a "real" friendship? For me, it depends. Sometimes when I just want to socialize and have fun, I don't seek out friends with whom I'd have philosophical discussions. When I want to talk about something deeper or share my own stuggles or hardships, there are 1-2 friends that I'd go to. Is the second one more real than the first one? I don't know.

But you have to start somewhere, right? People have different degrees of interest in truth seeking, and when you explicate to yourself that truth seeking is something you want to do, the motivations might not be pure initially, but the more you do it, year after year, it gets more clear if you do it right. I think nobody starts this journey with 100% pure intention, it gets developed over time. Along the way you discover all the shit you hide from yourself, even your egotistical motivations behind truth seeking, and that's part of the path, isn't it?

@Leo Gura Did you do more trips than Martin Ball? It's also interesting if he experienced some health side-effects since he has done lots of that stuff.

The hardest desicions was forced upon me that I had to just accept the reality of them and move on. One of those was when I was forced to provide for my family financially in my early 20s due to my father's unsuccessful business and huge depth, but it grew and matured me a lot earlier in life. Another one was unexpected death of my father, which happened just the time I was accepting him fully, forgiving him and was developing a more loving father-son relationship. He was pretty young, 54 years old, I was in my late 20s. I was forced to accept the fact that it was over, Another one was a breakup, as for many of you. It was one of the bitter emotions that I had felt in my life. It was awful. It was a choice that I was hesitating making but the other side put a nail on the coffin, and forced my decision. I'm sure I'll be having lots like these in the future to come, and I'm greateful for the old hard experiences that taught me very valuable lessons.

Lol. Come on.

[2/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses 20m meditation 10m pranayamas 1h reading 30m run Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study Okay, still going okay, again study was skipped because I postponed it till late evening and then I was too lazy and sleepy / tired to do it. I'll try to do it in the morning before work, let's see how it goes.

Take your time, it's a lifelong journey. Yes Arlond is one of the healthier examples of masculinity for sure. I also like that book. You can check David Deida's work for a healthy masculine perspective, also has some spiritual component in it. Also do your research and share with us what you find 😉 Maybe there are some books that's not as popular as Deida's but better.

@Leo Gura It's not that AI does software for you, it's that you use AI to assist you in building software more rapidly than you could solo. And that causes distress in many developers because before agentic coding assistence you had a feeling that you owned what you wrote because it was all generated by you, it was all done through struggle and hard-earned experience. Now even if 30% (it's much more then that) of the code is assisted by LLM model, you end up feeling emotionally detached from the work you do, and it's different in nature from the way you worked before. Maybe it just needs getting used to. There aren't any serious software thats made with AI, but all the software today is being made with AI's assistence. Even if you ask ChatGPT to help you with fixing error, thats AI assistence, it doesnt mean that AI does the software.

That 10x thing is a clickbait, but it is a fact that computer programming field is being changed pretty rapidly that affect daily job of developers so much that it causes existential questioning and meaning crisis, and it will continue to do so going forwards. No other field is being changed this much due to LLMs and agents. This was the easiest to affect due to the nature of a job and its relation to what an LLM does. I'm not saying it will cause insane productivity gains or it will replace anyone. I'm trying to see what's actually happening.

Good catch. Being distracted is also one of the reason that I didn't achieve what I realistically could in the past few years. Cheap dopamine addictions, emotional irregularity, yo-yo habits, perfectionism, focusing on too many things at once / wrong things, procrastinating and not planning my days properly, wasting my time in unresourceful relationships, etc, all contributed. Just make sure to not try to get focused on 10 things at once all of a sudden, just identify the core issues you have, commit and focus on them deliberately each day until you feel it's locked in, and then move on to the other ones. Good luck 💪

Ralston realizing Absolute Love before GTA VI I wonder if that's included in his recent deeper realizations. He doesn't mention it in any of the other books.

"I was a 10x engineer. Now I'm useless" => https://x.com/atmoio/status/2030289138126107074?s=46&t=efdKEjqLRXtLo5-P5HnZFQ I relate to this.

Thanks, just ordered it. Can't wait to read it.

@Starlight321 Theory is good, but focus more on practice. Train in various ways: physical, mental, emotional. Take up more responsibility in life, set goals and lead yourself into actually accomplishing them over and over again. Learn from your mistakes. Take charge of your life, also help out others if you can (your family for example). Learn a difficult skill that requires patience and discipline. Study history. Study how people handled hardships all throught the history. Study and work on emboding the following principles: responsibility, competence, strength, discipline, courage, leadership, integrity, emotional control. There are so many ways of practicing each of these, get creative. Have you been doing all these?

@CARDOZZO Jesus, my ears. Why is he shouting all the time? Is that perceived as more effective communication, or what? He's mocking Eckhart Tolle. This feels off. Haven't watched the whole thing. Does he actually talk about Truth and Awakening? What does he mean by awakening?

Small point regarding the humor post: I've always had a good sense of humor, especially since I've worked on my social anxiety after 20+ years old, and later when I watched that How To Be Funny video, I've realized that I was doing exactly that but somehow intuitively, and I also noticed that I liked doing that not only because I was getting positive feedback from outside, but also because it was fun. It felt really good. Just that. When you are able to be humorous in a social gathering, but intuitively, not in a cringy needy way, it feels very refreshing and pleasant. That one trait makes the experience so much better and fun, also social interactions much easier and resourceful even.

Oh this is interesting. Imagine after his trip he drops this longevity bullshit and becomes a mystic preaching God and Love.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-underworld-of-child-sex-trafficking Just finished listening to this one. First of all, WTF, I wasn't aware that this issue was that bad in modern world. I knew it happens a lot in China, but the numbers that this guy talks about is crazy. Why is nobody talking about this? Or at least I haven't heard much people talk about the severity of the issue. Also, I liked the last part when he talks about his transformative experiences with psilocybin-assisted therapy, the way they brought back love and deep feelings in their lives via psychedelics.

Good list, thanks. I'd add relationships to your list, most human interactions (intimate or otherwise) triggers certain aspects of your ingrained behavior patterns that's hard to notice solo. That also creates a possibility to observe what's true in your conditioned aspect of a self. Of course all those assume the care for truth and intention of actually seeing it.

[1/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses 20m meditation 1.5h reading 50m push workout Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study Yoga First day done, top priority things got done, I still have time management issues and that's why I could not do those two things, also I didn't prioritize them enough. Let's see if I fix that today.