MAYA EL

And true awakening is realizing that both of those are just figments of the imagination

Yes I've even failed at giving up before Haha I've surprised meself as to how far down rock bottom really is

You need to be what you were made to be . Don't copy others only take what they say and view it as just that there perspective.

I never had a teacher. It is hard but it's the only way to grow in understanding. You my fail over and over and want to give up and may even actually give up a few times but fail at even that. These are all good signs that you are progressing. Remember a birth is not a easy thing it's one of the hardest.

You think it's important cuz it's beat into your brain with social media and the things you pay attention to. Something you won't understand until maybe 10 years from now but you're only 23 your brain might be a lot more stable than it was it 18 but you should be a completely different person by 30 so much more level-headed and consistent with your thoughts and desires and you will look back at the time you were 23 and see how you struggled with that sporadic desire like a 2 inch barrel shotgun at a sniper competition. I will say though people that actually become enlightened did so without realizing they were on the path to enlightenment they did not have an agenda or desire for it it was a byproduct not a goal end product. Although with the way the human mind works you can trick yourself into thinking you've experienced Awakening and our enlightened and I've seen people stay in that state of fake Awakening all the way until they got into their 60s and 70s and that's when it's a lot harder to go through a true Awakening.

Bingo get this man a steak dinner

I found the link to my specific bloodline instincts/ akashic records And gained a level of knowing that cant be explained with words unfortunately. And I was left in a world with zombie like people where I watch the waves of trends and beliefs and styles sweep the world and see people fall for them and truly believe that it's there idea or finding and are being 100% honest. Its very disturbing.

Thats a no true scotsmen. Come on now Leo you know better then that . You should know that every single person should have a different awakening in some varying amount because are exposure from birth and are bloodlines are all slightly different. Now do people experience the same kind of awakening? Absolutely but unfortunately that is because of spiritual and mental planting .

Brings a tear to my 3rd eye when I see someone who can truly think for themselves ?‍????‍♂️ in proud of you lol But seriously that's what I did o even went so far as to not listen to any religious or philosophical audios I did not watch movies or TV I only checked my social media when I had two for work and stayed completely blacked out from all news and everything for the first 5 years. When I came back it was to a brainwashed world

At some point in your walk you will have to transcend language if you want to continue to grow in understanding

That is because you're struggling to accept a concept of something that you may or may not have experienced personally but it goes against reality. Yes I realize all the non duelist are going to bash me for this but I don't care. The world is not Duality the world is not non-duality it is the Third Way. No I will not tell you what that way is you have to find it yourself but accepting and believing non-duality is spiritual suicide not to mention the fact that we only exist because of duality so unless you've seen a baby bird get back in the shell and then crawl up the mama birds butt in order to be Unborn then there's probably no point in wanting to return to source and "becoming one" . And even hypothetically speaking if non-duality were true it still would be pointless to even Ponder on it because the fact is you are in Duality right now in this realm that's how we exist so why would you make yourself/ God make you just for you to try to get back to the way you were before you were made it's kind of like quitting your job or holding your breath not only is it pointless but it's a waste of time and a bit of an insult to the higher power.

I think the most important one would be the ability to really and truly think for yourself

It's called a healthy lymphatic system

If God is everything but the concept then he would not be Limitless. With love you do lose some get broken hearts some get killed by the stronger guy that likes her more than you and some Nations crumble because of a fine piece of pussy that convinced the emperor to do something bad. And when you do good sometimes you get bad And sometimes when you do bad you get good life can be unfair but life can also be fair. God is still a concept

You should be fine as long as its actually what they said it was . RC's are notoriously bad when it comes to consistency and purity

Because as part of the imagination we created the concept of God for self mystery and entertainment.

Integrity and understanding I think are two very important things. The understanding that people are going to be different than you and just like you hold your ground they will hold they're grounded also and not to expect them to change especially if you wouldn't and that your opinion is no better than theirs. And personal integrity to wear regardless of what somebody says towards you or towards somebody else you are not worried about your own personal integrity you are going to be who you are regardless of if there's no one left on the planet or There's 7 billion people on the planet because who you are is not swayed by other people therefore you're not worried by somebody attacking your epistemology or something along those lines. Just my two cents

Have you done research on where the name "God" comes from?

It is true that if you had something into body that it normally produces on its own but it will become co-dependent and reduce its production and eventually stop producing in some cases whatever that hormone is however I'm looking at the situation from the viewpoint that hormones continually decline past 25 until the day you die so in some instances where HRT is needed and a guy in his 30's has testosterone levels under 300 he is most likely never going to start making 800+ levels again and so because they're declining rapidly and have no signs of stopping this kind of negates the viewpoint of suppression bean side effect

I enjoyed this quite a lot ?

What I mean is that you are the god of your own life and beliefs. But this concept of the ego being like the problem child that's part of you yet your capable of perceiving it and analyzing it and that there's a transcendent part of you that is the real God and what not All of it is still part of the game we play with are self and is a game are (meaning all of you) ego plays with itself (all of you) . See you can't separate from your ego and see how how it's been controlling your life because that's just you (as your ego that your not aware of) playing a new game and no matter how you try you will still have a part of your ego that you don't realize is still there calling the shots because the ego is the thing that makes us different then a monkey or any other animal and unless you get a frontal lobotomy (still may not do the trick idk) and kill off the part of the brain responsible for contemplation and imagination your still just entertaining yourself with a game to play . But to think that you are the original creator of the cosmos is not only pointless but ridiculous.

Although I understand exactly what you're talking about I prefer to take the stance that that is part of the ego justifying its actions

Well I crushed T5 T6 T7 and had a BPI in C6 C7 and was paralyzed in both arms so bad that it took 30 minutes to brush my teeth and about 45 minutes to put my shoes on in the morning and that's going from being able to incline dumbbell press the 100's for 12 reps without a spoter and Hammer curling a full size plate while twisting the wrist up and down with each rep keeping the plate directly in front of you and it took 2 yrs to fully recover but I did no surgeries no walking apparatuses I don't use a cane and I don't even have a limp . So yes I know about rejuvenating the body and unfortunately the key for me at least won't do you any good if I tell you but if you want to know I'll tell you

You have literally only served to torture yourself by starting multiple different Lifestyles and ending before they've even had a chance to manifest even the slightest bit of results. I meditated daily for a decade before getting an answer to some questions i wanted answers to. I've also eating a ridiculously strict diet that made it to where I had to pack all my meals every single day I was not allowed to eat out or anything I did that for 10 years and because you've tried everything you can think of does not mean everything's been tried there's a reason there are experts in fields concerning the body. And I highly recommend you commit to a lifestyle change for a couple of years because if you screwed your body up just take how old you are and reverse that and that's how long you're going to need to become the opposite of what you are. Not literally but it should give you an idea because let's say you're 30 and you've not cared about your body for 30 years well do you really think in three months you're going to fix 30 years of abuse? Not very logical.