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I spend time preparing for it, think different scenarios through and go ahead with it. BUT when I'm there in the present moment a lot of idk feelings/emotions bubble up and just hit me, which take away my concentration as I'm now forced to focus on them and not the actual conversation & the other person. What can I do to work on this? I'd prefer to stay calm but it just happens unexpectedly and I can't practice it because I only get to experience them in these rare cases. So my questions are: What can I do to stay more relaxed the next time I'll have one? & If they do bubble up, what can I do in the present moment to deal with them so I could also focus on the other person and not say/do things I would regret?

Leo I have a question for you (or anyone else who directly experienced this state of consciousness) You're a great/smart guy! And definitely contributed to my life, thanks for that! Now that I experienced similar states of consciousness (multiple times) I understand what you mean which is why I'd like to know your perspective on this. Surely when you reach highest state of consciousness where you're TRULY 1 with everything (God) you would know that life losses its juice, unpredictable becomes predictable. Very scary state to be in. As Alan Watts once said "A completely predictable future is already the past. You've had it! That's not what you want. You want a surprise.", there are no surprises when you're the Absolute. No one wants to accept that they're God, that's why me and you and everyone else are still playing this game of life :3 It seems to me that you are forcing onto other people that they're God, is that a wise decision? God refuses to fully accept that he is God, why can't you accept that? I'm sure there can be a more creative and wiser ways to convey your message to other people than directly saying it over and over? Whether you're playing this game in your normal state of consciousness or drug-induced one (higher state) won't change the fact that you're still playing. Which is great and fun c: All I'm saying is that rushing it seems unwise and definitely suggesting your viewers to rush it with substances (and keep on taking them again and again). Life flows naturally and doesn't require you to be in the highest state of consciousness to experience the full beauty of it, which could be the reason why you keep coming back to your 'normal' (natural) state. Perhaps I'm missing something? What do you think? <3

Hey, I am seriously planning on setting up a morning routine habit. Here's a little draft of how I'm planning it to look like: 1. wake up earlier than early 2. drink a glass of water 3. write down any dreams I had 4. exercise 5. shower + brush my teeth 6. eat a big healthy breakfast 7. meditate 8. read Would love to hear your suggestions of anything important to add/remove from/to my list; whether or not I should re-order some items (like push meditation higher in the list); any tips from people that already have a morning routine. Thank youuu <3

Lets assume that everything is God, which means that you are God, you are in some way everything right? By 'you' I mean that one that has no boundary between itself and everything around you. So when you're "God" no matter what you do it will always be what you desire. There is only one which means you can only be selfish, even if you don't want to feel selfish that's still selfishness because you want that. There's a general idea that the devil is selfish.. so you could say that God is selfish, no? How would something selfish become not selfish without it being selfish? Is that even possible? I can see how it could be possible but that would require creating a separation from the everything. I'd like to know your perspectives on this.

On some occasions in the past I would cry at night because "i had no friends" or how "pathetic" my life is, after some time I figured out that I'm crying not because I felt that myself but because that's what others opinion would be of me if they were in my shoes. I was caring too much on societies standards and how I'm not good enough. The best advice I can think of right now is: Don't worsen the idea of yourself and invest in yourself. Well... what do you want? "If you don't know where you are going any road can take you there" – Lewis Carroll

A couple of times now when I took psychedelics I get this insight which makes me feel depressed. It's like there's a trick to it, you can be/do everything (nothing) but to do that you have to let go of everything you currently have (all your illusions). Illusions like: that you exist, that you're something, that you have family and friends, that you have control, that there's people/things other than you, and such... And it feels like killing yourself and others but somehow you know that you don't exist so there's nothing to kill, yet you cant let yourself believe/do that because if that's the case well... it just feels wrong, very wrong and I FEEL it. Kinda like a concept: just shoot yourself in the head and you'll wake up, but you don't know whether or not you're actually dreaming because it feels so real. It feels real yet you have intuition and start seeing that it's not.. and then you just feel bad about yourself not letting yourself do it but knowing that you probably should (not literally killing your organism, more like comprehending and seeing the truth which is killing you) Like the feelings and thoughts are not synchronised and you have to pick sides what to believe in or what action to take. And you know which side you need to pick but you too big of a pussy to do it because it would kill u. And when I don't choose to do it I just see how ignorant and stupid I am (like im a crazy person who saw that he's crazy but chooses to stay crazy to feel normal, isnt this crazy hahaha) Probably sounds like a mind fuck.. Maybe anyone could suggest me something helpful, or tell a story... I would greatly appreciate that <3