Grateful Dead

I shouldn't have had the 3rd espresso yesterday... really love caffeine but it disturbs my sleep too much. I underestimated the effects after two weeks without it. Yesterday I was super productive, but today I didn't get anything done... is it even worth it then? I want to do coffee only on special occasion now like when I don't want to sleep early anyway. It felt great to help a friend out today.

None at all and I ate a good amount of it.

I tried it when I was younger and it don't recommend it. It was a bit euphoric but not really worth it for me.

I need to connect more often with that wild, hairy, ape-like man in me who's ready to kill and doesn't give a fuck about others.

I have done many trips while my parents were also at home. Do it at night when everyone is asleep anyway. How is your access to the toilet? Do you have your own bath?

It's good to be a little nervous before taking psychedelics, imo. Start with a very small amount.

Sorry that you did have to go through this but don't just dismiss it as delusion. Analyze what happened and try to understand, this is part of the process.

Well yes, there is always something hidden, but it will come out when you go for the obvious, imo. @Blackhawk better don’t use the internet until the peak is over, it will disturb the trip.

@Blackhawk Yes, your intention should be what you want most in that moment, so you can't fake it. If you want the truth then go for it, it will also be very healing when you recognize it.

Yeah that should be fine. The Grateful Dead for example: https://open.spotify.com/album/1E4MXxSYoAMN5qpy1y6aBm?si=ltHVNNk9RlyadaZGvmnfLg before the trip set your intention, best write it down like this: Intention: Healing other than that just lay down and let it work on you, try to let go in every moment

@Juan There is a huge difference between to much aya and to much 5-MeO

Then 250ug would be more than double the dose you have been taking. You'll probably still be fine, but I'd recommend increasing your dosage by 50ug until you hit your sweet spot. The safe and optimal dosage for any "medicine" falls somewhere between "not enough" and "too much".

If you got it from a certain dark place, the dose is probably accurate. 250ug is pretty normal in Europe these days..

@Ash55 check out this channel: https://www.youtube.com/c/KriyaYogaOnline/playlists what book are you using?

Very true! Once, when I was in deep suffering, I prayed to the Divine Mother and asked her what to do, and she immediately replied: Recognize it as Love that was the most beautiful recontextualization I've ever experienced

Yes, I take regular caffeine breaks to compensate.

Weed can be very useful, but it can also get you stuck if you don't outgrow it. If you are doing it every 1-2 weeks in a spiritual context with serious intent, I think this is the way to go. But it's not easy, at least for me, to regulate it that way.

Yeah listen to the podcast I posted. He is into psychedelics, mysticism etc., super interesting guy.

https://www.duncantrussell.com/episodes/2022/7/1/blake-lemoine cool podcast with blake and duncan!

Yeah I think you're overreacting, doesn't sound like a big deal to me. As your therapist said, this situation is a good thing for you to work on.

just chill with my family

Lemon Tek is best ime: Grind the mushrooms into a fine powder and squeeze 1/2 - 1 lemon depending on how many mushrooms you use. Mix the shrooms with the lemon juice and let it soak for about an hour, stirring from time to time. Add some water and then just drink it

10-15 ug is not bad for social interaction but sometimes I can't get out of my head on a microdose (maybe would be same without) caffeine in form of green tea or espresso works best for me

If you get confused listen to the music play I'll lock this topic since it's from 2018