Grateful Dead

I dated a 9 for a while and she actually picked me up lol

@GroovyGuru Going out to clubs can be amazing! It's one of the most meaningful things in my life and i'm not really an extroverted guy. Dating apps should only be a side thing that you can't expect anything from. which kind of music do you like?

I do not think so. I've opened up to women and it turned them on, but as @Globalcollective said, it depends on where it's coming from.

Beautiful, thank you! my loves goes out to all of you just keep going

Kurt once said that if he had enough money he would buy a lifetime supply of heroin and just do it to the end.

Much healing is happening these days. It feels like something beautiful is rising out of the darkness. 2 days ago I entered a new depth of god realization. Just WOW! It came out of nowhere and the uniqueness and aliveness of this experience completely blew me away. So raw and true I can still taste it.

Turning off all electronics and just sitting with yourself for a day is a good idea I think.

What do you want to know?

Amid all the chaos, I had a cool awakening in the ice bath. I became conscious of the untouchable nature of consciousness. Basically I realized consciousness cannot destroyed or harmed in any way. No harm is possible, it is perfect.

omggggggggggg

@eggopm3 Saw Dead and Co twice in New York in 2019, great times definitely recommend. Next year will be their last tour with this line-up, so don't miss it. I can't afford to come to the States this year and probably won't see any of it. At the Europe shows there were only about 300-500 people at each concert and you get to know a lot of them after a few shows. So I felt completely safe there, like everyone was watching my ass, it's really like a big family in a way. It's like the older folks are holding space for the younger ones there. And yes, this music will never die, infinite possibilities are yet to come! I've also always been put off by the alcohol culture. I mean, I don't mind people drinking and getting loose, but it really kills the vibe when most people just drink. For example, at psytrance festivals, a lot of people still drink a little, but not a lot, and everyone also takes psychedelics, so the vibe is still amazing.

Okay. For me it's better when I have eaten something that day already and then wait 4 hours.

Same! Although when tripping I love '69 too. Live/Dead or Dick's Pick 16 are great for example. Have you been to a live dead show? Dark Star Orchestra (Grateful Dead cover band) did a Europe tour this year in honor of the original tour from '72 50 years ago and they recreated the shows with the same setlists etc. I saw 7 shows and dosed at 5. Best time of my life so far! Many people who have gone there have been following the dead for more than 30 years and have done tons of spiritual work. They also dose at those shows and everyone dances together. Had my deepest God realization on the last show. Definitely some of the most conscious people there I've ever met. Saw him twice this month in Berlin and Cologne. He is so freaking good it's crazy, but the crowd there is very different, it's mostly people who drink.

Interesting thanks for sharing! I always get nauseous when I vape 5-meo in the morning. Do you eat anything before?

this but even better if you do acid + weed

What else is there to do but live? Death is not the end of life, you said yourself that you know that. In my opinion, if you end it with suicide now, you will traumatize yourself so much that it will be even more difficult in your next life. Try to accept and work with the situation you are in. There is no magic cure for those problems and we all struggle with them to some degree. Maybe try psychedelics or ketamine therapy if you're open to it. Take one breath at a time and relax into your body. If you try your best in every moment, the universe will take care of you. You could also keep a journal and do there what you did here. Just let it all out and slowly banish that negativity from your mind. Or do an art form like paint what you feel or whatever. This is something where you can really be yourself and it's not dangerous at all. Basically, you need to find a way to manage your emotions in order for your thoughts to be changed. Life can be very tough at times and it is much harder for some people than for others, but if you manage to survive these times and allow yourself to grow, you will become a very wise and compassionate being. Think of the people we look up to. Most of them have been in very difficult situations, but somehow they found a way to take control of their lives and that made them who they are. Other than that, they're nothing special so you or anyone else can do that too. Hopefully something of that resonates.

In my opinion it is. I got higher from weed than from lsd at times.

@Brivido

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I'm really starting to understand why so few people actually grow up and become real men - it's insanely painful.

Peripherie Black Mirror

I love myself for loving so fearlessly with all my heart, even though I know it will all blow up in my face. And I'm thankful that I have friends I can talk to about anything.

I'm trying to keep up my healthy routines and not fall behind too much in my studies during this darkest time of my life so far. In a way, I know that all of this is happening to break me open so I can reach new depths of love/consciousness, but yeah, it's really fucking hard. It feels like I've lost everything and I'm slowly dying in every moment...

I'm proud of myself for being so vulnerable and open with my girl and all my friends. I used to keep most things to myself because I didn't want to bother others with my problems. That motivates me to go even deeper into it. Just reminded me when she told me how sexy my vulnerability is.

It all boils down to loving yourself. That's where my focus will be. Just loving myself more and more. ?