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Falling in love is amazing, I am happy for you greg! My advice would be to set clear boundaries and don't let yourself get carried away too much in the beginning. Listen to your emotions and stay true to them. Read 'the way of the superior man' and generally learn about women/relationships. Also like you already said take your time and contemplate about it.

do the whole thing you'll be fine

Hermann Hesse. His books made me feel undestood

Really?? I keep trying his videos, but he's so boring to me it's annoying..

Yes, it's good to notice that you are not your thoughts, but before doing so, you can also contemplate why those thoughts are coming into your mind. Why do you think you have that critical voice in your head? What is his job? Try to do it in a loving, compassionate way, and if you can see why the critical voice is there, acknowledge its existence, be thankful for its service and then let it go.

There are different ways. It's best to do some research and pick something that resonates imo. I like IFS therapy because it involves spirituality and is very practical. Also you can do a lot on your own with it, or even do it on psychedelics. Leo made a blog post about it: https://www.actualized.org/insights/ifs-therapy-for-trauma-healing Yeah you already have a good basis but healing from childhood trauma takes time and a LOT of work, at least for most people. And I don't think this will sort itself out naturally. I can see it in my grandma she is 86 and it only got worse. You don't have to solve the whole thing right away and do nothing else, but I think it's good to become more aware so that eventually it will kinda sort itself out because you are so aware of all this all the time. Exactly... Same here, that's why I'm posting. Sometimes when I read your posts I think I could have written them lol Same. Sex and weed are the main things I use for that too.

@ivankiss Okay, I said that because I already recommended healing your trauma in your last topic. What needs to click is that you need to understand that you have more trauma than you thought. And then you actually have to do the ugly work of unpacking that shit and heal yourself. Even a 10 year break from sex wouldn't change the core issue, you could fall back into that behaviour anytime if you get triggered bad enough.

If you want to do something about it, learn about addiction. You can use these triggers in relationships to see where you have more work to do. It is important to understand why you are behaving this way. I recommend looking into the work of Gabor Maté and Richard Schwartz.

Psychedelics have affected and improved my life in every area, before I started doing them I was lost. They are like a compass for me to navigate through life.

No, my last two gfs tasted amazing even if they didn't shower. My first gf didn't taste good, I was very happy to find out that this is not always the case, I think it has a lot to do with the diet.

Yeah psychedelics make me horny af. Either I masturbate before the trip or on the peak so I can go deeper into the experience, it can be really distracting at times. Sex on psychedelics is something else it's like fucking with god as god.

No I also follow you

Yesssss! LSD and THC are the best For me, waiting at least 3 hours with the THC after injecting the LSD works best. Ketamine + THC is pretty damn amazing too. THC generally interacts very well with most drugs. I just don't like mixing it with N-N DMT as it makes my trips foggy, but Leo says it works great for him.

Calm down bro it's alright You're only 22 that's nothing man I think Leo said he started pick-up when he was 27. Try not to put so much pressure on yourself, you have plenty of time to find a gf and right now you gain experience so thats good. What's important is to keep going for the long term.

Maybe the medication you're taking has something to do with it. Talk to your doctor if you're concerned about this, but it doesn't sound like a big deal to me.

You need to realize how insanely awesome the truth is. Yes, you are God and God is absolutely alone and that is perfect. Imagine if there was something restricting God, wtf? So realize that God = Love, then you will see that eternity with yourself is pure bliss. Basically, your realization is to shallow you need to go deeper and face your fears to see that they are just illusions or misinterpretations of the ego and not the actual truth.

Take Leo for inspiration, he should make you extremely curious. Don't believe anything other people tell you. Think for yourself, you should be your own authority figure.

The last girl I dated went through some shit too. Abused as a kid by a guy from the church and later got addicted to heroin for a year or so and stuff like that. With her it was, as you said, "playing with fire", very intense and dramatic. I also thought it's the depth that got me hooked because it seemed so interesting. But I found out that it was a trauma bondage. As on a subconscious level, I am addicted to feeling intense emotions and she triggered me like no other. It goes very deep, but basically you will attract people like that until you heal your trauma. Maybe it's similar for you..

Almost sure it was in 'The Way of the Psychonaut Vol.1'. I'll see if I can find it in the coming days.

It's a risk I'm willing to take, and I've never met anyone who has been seriously damaged by taking psychedelics. However, the deeper I delve into them, the more I see how potentially dangerous they are. I like how Leo once said it "treat them like a loaded gun".

5-meo is just very direct. In the beginning, low dosages weren't comfortable for me either, you have to work your way up slowly.

thats looks like mdma