Grateful Dead

Dude that's amazing!! So happy for you

Awesome! Yeah I also think it's very healing but you have to be a bit careful because it's addicitive. Did you like 3-meo pce more then ketamine? I never tried it. I recommend this playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6EBtnrgLRXUI0mrvgyJVLc?si=f71cfaae7b3542e3

Yes, it's so crazy. I can't imagine taking even 10g, my high was 5g and I see no reason to take more than that. Kilindi was something else, I met him once at a festival and he was different from any other human I encounterd. His presence was so solid, like standing in front of a mountain, but a mountain from another dimension, his energy was very alien. I remember when he looked into my eyes I felt totally naked. It felt like I couldn't hide anything from him, he saw through all my bullshit and penetreted the core.

Interesting, thanks for sharing. I heard ketamine is good one when you're on antidepressants.

I love it

The complete opposite of the current Chancellor ?

Check out Meister Eckhart and David Hawkins

Depends on dosage but I don't remember it being particularly good for music or movies but same goes for 5-meo for me so maybe it's different for you. For me, DPT is something like a combination of LSD and DMT, very pleasant body loading and beautiful visuals, overall a healing experience. For music or movies, LSD or shrooms combined with weed are the best in my experience.

My ex's name was Allison. Always reminded me that all is one

@Leo Gura Did you read the trip report? This person does not come across as a "deeply immature, irresponsible degenerate." Also reads like he knows something about spirituality and such. I think so too but also it just takes time sometimes.

His trip wasn't even really bad. What he is describing is just what the integration process is like for some people. It can take years to heal and integrate everything.

Switzerland has a pretty solid psychedelic scene.

This is the way, the deeper you realize it's all you the more authentic you are going to be.

This can happen with any psychedelic. If you go that deep it will unravel your whole psyche and you don't know yet what you have buried there.

I meditated on it and I can see what you mean. If it works that good for you then go for it.

I practiced trataka for about 6 months. It's important to hold the imagine directly in front or a little above the eyebrown centre. If the image moves up or down, or from side to side, observe it and try to stabilize it.

Feeling good isn't always an indicator that something is good and working for you. Taking meth will make you feel more alive than you could ever imagine, but obviously it's not healthy for you to do so in the long run. Plus, eating so much meat is bad for the planet.

Falling in love is amazing, I am happy for you greg! My advice would be to set clear boundaries and don't let yourself get carried away too much in the beginning. Listen to your emotions and stay true to them. Read 'the way of the superior man' and generally learn about women/relationships. Also like you already said take your time and contemplate about it.

do the whole thing you'll be fine

Hermann Hesse. His books made me feel undestood

Really?? I keep trying his videos, but he's so boring to me it's annoying..

Yes, it's good to notice that you are not your thoughts, but before doing so, you can also contemplate why those thoughts are coming into your mind. Why do you think you have that critical voice in your head? What is his job? Try to do it in a loving, compassionate way, and if you can see why the critical voice is there, acknowledge its existence, be thankful for its service and then let it go.

There are different ways. It's best to do some research and pick something that resonates imo. I like IFS therapy because it involves spirituality and is very practical. Also you can do a lot on your own with it, or even do it on psychedelics. Leo made a blog post about it: https://www.actualized.org/insights/ifs-therapy-for-trauma-healing Yeah you already have a good basis but healing from childhood trauma takes time and a LOT of work, at least for most people. And I don't think this will sort itself out naturally. I can see it in my grandma she is 86 and it only got worse. You don't have to solve the whole thing right away and do nothing else, but I think it's good to become more aware so that eventually it will kinda sort itself out because you are so aware of all this all the time. Exactly... Same here, that's why I'm posting. Sometimes when I read your posts I think I could have written them lol Same. Sex and weed are the main things I use for that too.

@ivankiss Okay, I said that because I already recommended healing your trauma in your last topic. What needs to click is that you need to understand that you have more trauma than you thought. And then you actually have to do the ugly work of unpacking that shit and heal yourself. Even a 10 year break from sex wouldn't change the core issue, you could fall back into that behaviour anytime if you get triggered bad enough.

If you want to do something about it, learn about addiction. You can use these triggers in relationships to see where you have more work to do. It is important to understand why you are behaving this way. I recommend looking into the work of Gabor Maté and Richard Schwartz.