Grateful Dead

I did twice, once in Germany and once in Colombia, but I was on psychedelics both times. Still, it was a very different experience than the usual visual effects you get during the high.

True. I think Leo once said in a video that at one point he had to take a year off psychedelics. And now everytime you do 5meo you awaken? Or do you still go to the void sometimes? It can still happen on psychedelics. But it's different, as you said, I'm more curious now and try to observe what's going on.

I am here with you brother! Your latest post how mental illness sticks hard hit me deep. I appreciate you sharing this and I'm glad you are getting out of it now.

Same! I empathise a lot with you. It's better to let at least a week in between doing dissociatives, better two weeks or a month.

Yes I went through that too. I remember my first thought was, "Oh no, my whole life was a lie, I'm forever alone in the darkness," and I wanted to get escape the experience right away. After that for about a year every time I relaxed, this existential terror would creep in and I would have panic attacks, it was horrible.

Learn to stay conscious during your trips. Practicing meditation and concentration helps

@Jowblob Don't you think that loneliness could also be something you imagine that keeps you from truth?

When you merge back into Source you will not be disappointed. You are at home and there is nothing but total freedom in which there is absolute peace. Perfect neutrality, no loneliness at all. When you come back, it's like you've been kissed by God's grace, you have received the greatest gift and want to share it with the world. At least that's my experience

Dude that's amazing!! So happy for you

Awesome! Yeah I also think it's very healing but you have to be a bit careful because it's addicitive. Did you like 3-meo pce more then ketamine? I never tried it. I recommend this playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6EBtnrgLRXUI0mrvgyJVLc?si=f71cfaae7b3542e3

Yes, it's so crazy. I can't imagine taking even 10g, my high was 5g and I see no reason to take more than that. Kilindi was something else, I met him once at a festival and he was different from any other human I encounterd. His presence was so solid, like standing in front of a mountain, but a mountain from another dimension, his energy was very alien. I remember when he looked into my eyes I felt totally naked. It felt like I couldn't hide anything from him, he saw through all my bullshit and penetreted the core.

Interesting, thanks for sharing. I heard ketamine is good one when you're on antidepressants.

I love it

The complete opposite of the current Chancellor ?

Check out Meister Eckhart and David Hawkins

Depends on dosage but I don't remember it being particularly good for music or movies but same goes for 5-meo for me so maybe it's different for you. For me, DPT is something like a combination of LSD and DMT, very pleasant body loading and beautiful visuals, overall a healing experience. For music or movies, LSD or shrooms combined with weed are the best in my experience.

My ex's name was Allison. Always reminded me that all is one

@Leo Gura Did you read the trip report? This person does not come across as a "deeply immature, irresponsible degenerate." Also reads like he knows something about spirituality and such. I think so too but also it just takes time sometimes.

His trip wasn't even really bad. What he is describing is just what the integration process is like for some people. It can take years to heal and integrate everything.

Switzerland has a pretty solid psychedelic scene.

This is the way, the deeper you realize it's all you the more authentic you are going to be.

This can happen with any psychedelic. If you go that deep it will unravel your whole psyche and you don't know yet what you have buried there.

I meditated on it and I can see what you mean. If it works that good for you then go for it.

I practiced trataka for about 6 months. It's important to hold the imagine directly in front or a little above the eyebrown centre. If the image moves up or down, or from side to side, observe it and try to stabilize it.

Feeling good isn't always an indicator that something is good and working for you. Taking meth will make you feel more alive than you could ever imagine, but obviously it's not healthy for you to do so in the long run. Plus, eating so much meat is bad for the planet.