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Not everyone has the psychology or life conditions for it.. And not everyone wants to escape believe it or not. Some people simply need to be told what to do and how to do it and for how long to do it. People cope in so many ways and sometimes although they hate their job and express how much they would love to be their own bosses, they spend zero energy to resolve their situation. Everyone is made up of different personalities and psychological make ups and some people excel as their own leader and some people need to be led. I worked with a guy who had his own business as a locksmith but closed it down to work for another guy, I asked him why and he said that he's 'much happier as a number two, than a number one'. He truly loves being a locksmith and the work of locksmithing, but he doesn't love all the stuff that comes along with being a business owner, for him it took all the fun out of his work. It's not that it's not possible for everyone, but you can't give people what they don't want.

Whenever I do psychedelics I feel like i'm in the future. Earlier this year I ground up my mushrooms and put them in gelatin capsules-- and there was a feeling I keep getting when I would pop a capsule in the morning before work, or before going to the gym and feeling like this kind of drug taking will be much more normal in the future. I love getting that warm feeling in my belly when the mushrooms were kicking in. I also feel like i'm in the past, a stone-age man, giving himself medicine, experimenting with his own consciousness and psyche. It feels empowering when I use plants and mushrooms in this way. I have a pipe I carved out of stone, and cannabis I grew myself, there is such a deep connection when I grab the herbs and load that bowl. It feels as if my spirit goes both forwards and backwards in time at once and I can see myself in the middle, in the same position all men have been in before me and in the same place they will be in after me, facing reality for the first time trying to figure it out and come to deeper understandings with it. And when we rebirth, again it will be the first time. In the future, instead of going to grab a beer with your buddies it would be normal instead to Microdose mushrooms or lsd. Our activities that we enjoy with each other will be things that raise our consciousness and encourage our unity rather than lower consciousness and further separate us.

Soapstone pipes and a stone head

ITs NOT A PYRAMID ITS A DIMARYP!

Just what I was looking for, thanks!

I've come across these new thought leaders like Neville Goddard and Florence Scovel Shinn about a year an a half ago. Through their lectures on YouTube and their books.. These ideas seem very attractive to me and I love hearing, reading and listening to them, but also my rational mind wants to deconstruct it and criticize it, because my mind loves these ideas so much is why I am skeptical. I'm skeptical my ego might be using certain ideas to maintain homeostasis, to avoid effort, change and actual doing --even though I've had my own experiences where situations have unfolded and problems have resolved themselves in the most unexplainable, serendipitous ways, in ways that I've used these methods and they've worked for me. In retrospect, we can apply any lens of perception and fit it to our past in an empowering way or disempowering way. I still want to find reason within this lens of perceiving the world. Im trusting in my own direct experience before all else, but just out of my own curiosity, I seek others perspectives on this and maybe your experiences too! How do you detect ego traps? ego desire vs being desires Im going to link two videos here in case you're not familiar with them.

“I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in the same place. But, it isn't my fault. It still takes me a long time to get out. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in. It's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately. walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it. I walk down another street.” ― Portia Nelson, There's a Hole in My Sidewalk: The Romance of Self-Discovery I just love this and want to share it. Describes the path thus far..

The more honest I am with myself and with others, the more happy I become with my life and with the situations I find myself in. Everything I complain about is my own doing. Everything I love is my own doing.

I will some daily for extended periods of time, up to a year, then take breaks for months and as little as week-long breaks. It's not so much a system for me but it's just how I naturally go about it. I will say it is quite hard to just stop after you've been smoking for a while everyday. The way I stop is just one day at a time, and get busy, fill up your day and be productive-- don't give yourself the time to load up that bowl and get high. This is the most helpful and it feels great to be busy with your goals and progressing on maybe what you've been slacking on. Also, maybe this can help you. Get some organic sage or better grow it yourself and dry it out, and you can smoke it along with cannabis to ween off of cannabis slowly, sage for me goes super well with cannabis and at times I will just smoke sage on its own. There are plenty of smokable herbs that are safe but you want to make sure your herbs are sourced from good places and its best to grow them yourself.

Try a book "so good they can't ignore you" it explores passion and how searching for passion is maybe a wrong approach to discovering meaningful work.

Over the last year and a half I've been applying to apprenticeships for trades in HVAC and electrical, well I finally got what I wanted, an electrical apprenticeship. I was excited after my initial interview, I interviewed with this small business owner for an hour and we talked and connected and by the end of it, I had an electrical apprenticeship, with zero experience in the trade or anything near new construction and trade work. I've been here one week, and I can see that my boss and I might be bumping heads a lot moving forward. He is the type of guy who times your break to the exact second, and if you miss your break by 5 minutes-- you don't get a break. If he sees you standing with nothing in your hands to work on he will berate you and lecture you on work ethic. He will tell you to slow down and focus on doing things right so as to not mess up and the the next moment tell you how you're not moving fast enough and money is just flying out of his hands. For the first day or two I thought maybe he was just having a bad day, but his other employees tell me this is how it is. I made it clear to him the I was completely new to the work and everything in it, so mistakes would be un avoidable, but my boss just can't handle any type of mistake and goes off. My conflict is, I want to work in this trade but I just can't put up with the disrespect and just plain ol' meanness of the guy. I've worked rough jobs with rough dudes before but this is the kind of thing that gives you a back ache just thinking about showing up to work in the morning. This sounds like a lot of complaining and its strange for me to be reaching out like this but I am. I'm also under contract for my first home, and I don't want to feel stuck in the job to the point where I feel like I can't quit and find new employment. What I plan to do is learn as much as possible from the trade and take my experience to another company, where I'd feel comfortable to stay longer until I can do service calls on my own and just keep my self back from clashing with him while i'm there. An interesting thing to note is that this personality type has continually shown up in my life, the personality that would be, the overly macho mans man with no depth. I grew up with it, my uncles, my dad at times, my older brother, kids at school, but it now shows up in my work life. I'm working to integrate this part of myself. Any advice is appreciated. Similar stories welcome too! Thanks.

I was rear ended in a grocery store parking lot, and given false name, and insurance information. I was leaving a Fred Meyer's parking lot and I approached a stop sign-- stoping. A moment later, I feel a big hit from the back of my truck, and looking in the rearview, I see an old man with a weird smile on his face in my mirror. We pull over to the side and I get out and walk to his passenger side window which was rolled down.. I asked him if he was okay and also said I had never been in a collision before then asked for his information. He said he had forgotten his wallet at home, gave me a name, and insurance information and I took pictures of the info and the damage done to my truck.. After calling my his insurance company, the number was actually some cable company, who said they've had about 10 or 12 calls about this same guy and his false insurance. I learned from this experience to not share what doesn't need to be shared, such as me never being in an accident before and distrusting my underlying feelings that this guy wasn't genuine, after I had seen him with a devious look of pleasure on his face in my rearview mirror- I had a feeling that he had done this on purpose, but gave the benefit of the doubt and was burned.

Great thanks for that one. Teal Swan is definitely one of the modern sages of our time.

This is for Leo and anyone who might be suffering from chronic fatigue. I resonate a lot with Leo’s struggles. I just finished watching one of Teal Swan’s workshops where a person with chronic fatigue was brought up and they explored the cause of chronic fatigue for about an hour. It was super good and hugely insightful to myself and I just want to share this to Leo and any others on here who it may also help. My girlfriend does pay for her website subscription.. so it’s probably only accessible if you’re subscribed, but if you truly struggle with chronic fatigue this is going to be worth it for you.