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@Serotoninluv well if you looked into my mind you would see that there are multiple entities that are fighting between each other, you could call it collective ego doing it's work. Sure from a non-dual perspective I'm the ego and I'm not the ego also I'm God and I'm not God to add up I'm the difference between the two and the sameness between the two. But from dual perspective God me dictates to the ego me and sometimes the ego becomes God and starts dictating the God which became the ego. It's crazy.

@fridjonk Thanks I'll take that to consideration

@Pudgey Okay so then the ego is my physical body the human form, and the God part is everything around that human self including the human self

@Inliytened1 Isn't that going from one side to another from being selfish to being selfless, from being with form to being formless?

I hear people talking and All I see is a relation with my belief system. It mostly very vague vut it's like I can see into future events and be consious of the conditioning of my mind

@cetus56 I don't know anything about these fortune cookie numbers, but the "if you can shape it in your life you can find it in real life" looks legit cuz I've seen many of my thoughts manifest but at the same time some of them didn't

I get stuck in conversations where I just start to ask a lot of questions without talking anything about myself I just dont know what else I can do in a conversation besides asking questions

@Thewritersunion can you remind me of the 80/20 rule? I think it's like this 80 percent of work brings 20% of results. Or is it vice versa? So if I ask a lot of question that won't bring me lots of results, I have to balance it with saying statements aswell as sharing my thoughts, any thoughts whatever they might be.

I saw it, I got excited about it, it's genius and stupid at the same time.

@Dylan Page Time is relative and is only a concept. What is time? If there's no bound to time then everything is happening now at the same time forever. All these infinite universes are just a different points in "time" that are happening simoltaneously.

@universe Probably I don't want to accept my gay side. The feminine, sensitive, loving, caring side of myself

How to overcome neediness? I seem to get attached to quickly to someone else I bond with. Even on tinder i either go to one or anothe extremes: neediness and non-neediness what can I do about it? Do I need to find a middle ground between the two?

@whoshearts It's basically the same.

@universe is there too much love? It's like you give yourself so much love it's starts to annoy you so you start to hate yourself

How to overcome neediness? I seem to get attached to quickly to someone else I bond with. Even on tinder i either go to one or anothe extremes: neediness and non-neediness what can I do about it? Do I need to find a middle ground between the two?

Yes and yes, ofcourse it's still a duality God and Devil always fights with each other but if you look very closely they are actually working together. Light and darkness fo example can be seen in the at night with a moon shining some of the world with light

@Bridge to Infinity yeah yeah

I can only imagine having a transexual women metaphorically or literrally. Can someone explain the christian standpoint of men and women relationships? I don't consider myself a christian but Iam being around christians ehich influences my view of sexual relationships. What if I want to be gay? What if I want to be bisexual? Or even Straight? Who knows what I want?

@ben_pte @Dlavjr Thank you for replying!

So let me bring you some background. I've done some LSD trips also had done a lot pf weed habitually and ecstasy pils plus MDMA. All of these drugs could have done some inpact on my consciousness and beliefs. After doing these drugs for a while I came to the bottom in my life. I fell literrally, had to come back to my home country from England when my Mom and Dad picked me up from there. While I was high On acid I told them that I'm using it. It was a rough conversation. Back in my home country I smoked weed a couple of times did LSD and ectasy once after those trips I became crazy. My mind was creating all of these insights and conceptions so frequently that I couldn't even work or do any house chores. I was only laying there, talking to myself all the time, ofcourse with some movement in the house which was out of ordinary. It was like moving with people across the world talking to them through my mind, controlling them etc. when I created the concept of THE BRAIN which is basically a cult. I went on talking and talking I geard so many voices, I "spoke" with Trump with Leo with Putin with my parents, relatives, all of which were imaginery. I experienced these clicks in my brain the rewiring a lot of it which still happens to this day. I had insights that Actualized.org is Iluminati and I had to battle with it, I was battling for the ownership of the world I was battling against all of the world to be on top if the hierarchy, I moved there so fast day by day and became the leader of The Brain with 6 other guides that helped me, I was the Ultimate leader in my mind, so everyone had to obey me. And the way they did is by thinking, I controlled their mind by using my own mind. It's been awhile since I had any insights regarding The Brain and I kinda miss it. The question is How all of this is related to Reality? Why did I get these experiences? Ofcourse I could speculate that it is all Real and I can control others with my mind and I'm on top of the hierarchy of all humans, but it's seems very off putting.

That's a limiting belief you have there, everybody has dicipline of some sorts. One might have the discipline of eating junk food everyday for the whole week, others have a discipline to meditate etc. Now how you get discipline? Depends on you, if you're a lazy fu** and don't want to study or work well bad news you will have a bad time in the future. You need to have some ground where you can be lazy and where you can't if the exams are important to you than prepare for them. Now work ethic yes it's important and you have to have it no matyer where you work even if you're digging a whole, you have to have a pace while working cuz if you don't your job will take a longer time. To have discipline you have to practice discipline instead of thinking of how bad the job is, start getting into the job with more of your essence. Yes the job is not the dream job, but you still get into it with all your five senses. Smell the food, feel the touch, the air the heat, if you have a minute, admire the work other people are doing. Now you're only 18 and having encounter the reality of being bossed around is a bitch to handle, I experienced the same. To say the truth this is how the world is like. Everyone is bossing each other around some less some more. The good thing is that you can be a boss as well. It just takes time and practice

And isn't denying is just a statement of Truth if you remove the negative part. For example: "I'm not spiritual" does it mean I'm spiritual but I'm just denying that I'm spiritual. And if I speak in a sentence "not because of this or that" maybe it is because of this or that. Like it's the same with "I'm not in a cult" but really I'm in a cult. In lithuanian language we have all of these "no" attachments to the start of the word and sometimes I see trhough them. It seems like inadequate is adiquate. Irresponsible is responsible and so on and so forth. Isn't yes really no and no really yes? what difference does it make if I answer no or Yes to the same question? There's a slight difference and it depends on the situation. I'm not saying that there's no difference between yes and no? Or am I saying that there's difference between yes or no? I'm not implying that talking about this seems weird and paradoxical and awesome? Or am I?

I have been getting these weird brain shaking whenever a certain thoughts appear it's like reprogramming your brain but with special effects so you really now it's true. Also whenever I get thoughts on being gay I rage and have this almost like seizure movements. Crazy. I've been begging God to stop them but they keep coming back. Even as I'm writing I can feel my brain tensing up and doing all sorts of movements it feels weird and is kinda enjoyable at times. It's like I said kind like a program is working and the brain tissue reacts to it. Also I'm talking to myself and have these jumos between emotions from rage to laughter to sorrow... It's like the devil has corrupted me, but who's the devil? In my eyes I'm the devil itself. My shadow is always coming on me he just does not stop until he gets what he wants- a dick in the ass... Should I be getting an egcorsist? ? Crazy laughs, crazy talk with the voices in my head, all is crazy, I'm a crazy mofo. Can't deal with this shit no more. I'm in rehab and all I want is to ger high on LSD so I could forget about the problems I had before I got into rehab although they still would come back so atleast I would try to solve them. Anyways I'm the real Devil only God can make me pure and still I think God is the Devil himself? ?

@PlayOnWords The sex part is the bad part, it would be gross to kiss a man aswell

So I remember this when I was a child very clearly, I even fell of the bed when the grannie opened the door it's scared the shit out of me. I've been thinking on how that could've affected my sexuality and forward relationships in life especially sexual. one time I went camping with two girls just a three of us, and this one girl was flirting with me, getting on my side while I was laying and telling me to lay on my back and I stupid me declined... I felt like it was something wrong with it now later that night with the same girl we were laying together next to each othe it was cold so I started getting closer to her boobs touching her etc. I started rubbing her vagina through her panties and humping her as well. She didnt touch my dick though even when I moved my hand towards it she pulled her arm away from it. now later we continued I came she came and that's it for that part. What happened next is that I decided to lay away from her and slept through the night. Then the next morning we were going back home and I was running away from her with guilt that I did something wrong last night, we splitted off and I walked alone the rest of the way home. any thoughts?