Pramit

I need to stop taking science so seriously. Rather treat it as play. Or as a hobby (if you watch OPM you'll know what I mean).

did you read that? It was a good book. The ending is interesting to think about. A society where people never feel sad. Do you feel pity for such a society? Or do you perhaps want to live in such a society yourself?

Is there really a difference between 10 days and 100 years? In terms of accumulated memories, yes, you will have more memories and may be memories of different kinds as you get older. You can say that the number of years you spend color your perspective, influence your present. But in terms of experience, you can only sample a given amount of time, say 2 seconds, to give the illusion of a continuity. Is there a difference between today and yesterday? tomorrow feels like today if you are at tomorrow. The past and present does exist, but not as we imagine it to exist. Thus, as long as death is inevitable, even if it is trillions and trillions of years late, your experiences have an inevitable end that will happen in an instant. You can collapse your time into a single dimension using any dimensionality reduction methods.

After googling the question, https://thethirdwave.co/famous-people-psychedelics/ You will have to check the validity yourself, but I hope it answers your question.

Something useless, best not understood.

Amor Fati Love of one's fate affection anger concern desire hope despair empathy excitement feeling fervor grief happiness joy love passion pride rage remorse sadness sentiment shame sorrow sympathy warmth affect agitation ardor commotion despondency disturbance drive ecstasy elation excitability inspiration melancholy perturbation responsiveness satisfaction sensation sensibility sensitiveness thrill tremor vehemence vibes zeal apathy calm calmness cheer dislike hate hatred indifference peace unhappiness woe depression lethargy quiet stillness tranquility physicality you get the idea. Would you be willing to go through endless repetitions of your own life? Due to some circumstances, I was feeling really down. Then I remembered myself and was back up. I think the green tea helped. I am still anxious and miserable, but I think I can come to accept it now.

My life has been an obsession with words. The words "I am meditating" hold more significance than the act of meditation. As a result, there is the natural tendency to put too much weight in the words, as if they represent reality. The map has become the land. I feel like the person that takes pictures after picture of lands exotic, yet they have never once been there. But in a more subtle way. My reaction against this behaviour is a manifestation of this behaviour. I am not in the words you read here. Who am I? The problem with this question is that I can only point out the person I am. But it is up to you to find out who that person is, and it is up to you to not confuse my directions with the place itself. Today I ended my meditative trance immediately after it begun. It was an act to signify that I am not reliant on the meditative high. But my reaction was again the very thing that I warned about. It is difficult to convince myself that I am already the buddah. The problem lies in using self deception to break away from self deception, the project is doomed to failure. Who is reading these words? Who is here? Who is this for truly? No one who reads this will go anywhere. One need not read this or anything. Throw it away. Everything I've said is false, it is a lie. I know not what I speak. I promise you that if you can throw away these words, you will reach enlightenment.

you should look into the no surf community in reddit. They deal with addiction to the internet in general.

*takes out popcorn* I feel like Deepak Chopra should go into entertainment buissness. The things he says are so funny.

Too broad question, but since this is the actualized forum, I've selected this quote from alan watts: The biggest ego trip is the attempt to get rid of your ego. All methods are gimmicks for strengthening of your ego. So how do we not do that? And you are still asking for a method.

I feel like I am starting to smell my own bullshit and it is driving me..well..not insane, but slightly disoriented. The words everywhere meant nothing. Everything that is true is also untrue. Refute my words and you will understand. Resolve my (mis)understanding and you will forget yourself. This is an example of bullshit. Stop speaking bullshit. Tear it all down to the roots. Break away from your opinions. Wash your bowl.

You may want to check out reddit subreddit r/stopgaming, it is full of people who are trying to stop playing video games, and full of good advice, like a list of hobbies you can do to replace your gaming addiction with

no I think the impact of 1 hour med is different from 30+30 on the psyche. That is obvious. 1 hour is more strenuous and you can be more or less focused in the second half. Don't know which is better. Whatever you prefer I suppose.

I am not as elightened as you seem to be, so take my words with a grain of salt. But this is my view - 1. You don't have to love it 2. continue being self-critical, there is nothing wrong with it. This is needed. 3. Yes its possible to wake up and still be dissatisfied. You are not supposed to become a stone buddah. 4. You have woken up enough. Now you should let go of whatever you learned.

LOL that would be good/interesting.

Thanks, I'll try that

reminds me of a quote "The great majority of readers and hearers are the same all over the world. I have no doubt that the people of your country. .. are like those I have met in China and India, and these latter were just like Tibetans. If you speak to them of profound Truths they yawn, and, if they dare, they leave you, but if you tell them absurd fables they are all eyes and ears. They wish the doctrines preached to them, whether religious, philosophic, or social, to be agreeable, to be consistent with their conceptions, to satisfy their inclinations, in fact that they find themselves in them, and that they feel themselves approved by them."

You guys were already enlightened from the very beginning. And here I was chasing something I already had and wanting to feel SPECIAL. How rude of you people to play a prank like this on me. I'll get you all for this, I swear. Anyway, you can stop deceiving me now..

I know I am special, just like EVERYONE ELSE.

Today I had the funniest meditation session ever. So I started meditating like everyday and at the end of the session, my mother started knocking on the door. I didn't answer because I was meditating, and she never ever has anything important to say anyway. So she started getting hysterical, and I still didn't answer the door. She started banging the door hard, and I was just observing myself in the process (a good chance to observe myself as I told myself then). But then she hit the door so hard that it opened. I got mad, like really mad. She disturbed my meditation, and for no reason. Sometime after she left, I had to decide whether to continue the session or start over some other time. I was still angry. Then I realized the rule I made for myself "Always continue the session unless you voluntarily decide to end it". So any disturbances that are unconscious or beyond my control are OK (that's how I meditate). And then it hit me. It truly was beyond my control. She was beyond my control. My experience of it was beyond my control. My experience of the experience is beyond my control. Everything is beyond my control. My mother is already a buddah. She was already enlightened from the very beginning. And subsequently, everyone is already enlightened. Why am I such a fool for not noticing such a thing? Why didn't anyone tell you? You guys don't have to take the prank this far. (I went through my old journal and it seems that I did realize this at some point but had apparently forgotten.) So I am done with my practice today. I've signed up for GRE, I'll be giving it on the 9th of this month. Its huge waste of money. After 3 practice tests I realized that I didn't even need to study for this exam (other than looking up 1 or 2 math formulas). So it was a waste of time too, I could have given the exam in november and nothing would have changed. I am feeling a little bit anxious about moving to a new city again. If the university where I am going to just provided me accomodation, that would have been such a relief. I won't even be making any money either, all of it will go towards food and the steep rent I'll probably have. But I am still glad to get out of here finally and go back to the lab environment, where I can finally have some agency in my life (and hopefully do something cool).

Hey, good luck to you. I'm doing 1 hour meditation too, but only in two 30 min sessions. An entire 1 hour sitting is too stressful for my legs and back.

If you want to get something done, and you want to hold yourself accountable to getting that something done, then the best way is to ask someone else to hold you accountable.

Of course you should, it'll save or improve someone's life.

I don't know IT has happened to me before (I think). Nope.

I think you are fine the way you are. In fact, I think its better that you are the way you are. Its rare to find individuals who pay so much attention to people around them. They should treasure you. Though sometimes I wish people were more honest, rather than trying not to hurt me.