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@Aakash you are confusing me a little bit. but that`s probably my own interpretation of other projections that start to take place. i`m trying to return to more simple magic at the moment. the one that is graspable. there is still a long way to figure out where the travel really will go. for now i`m still here, it means i`m not yet done or over with whatever brought me here.

don`t know if i get what you are pointing at exactly. but maybe you tell me not to overthink what i can`t figure out by myself?

heads is what brought us where we are now. you can see that in a positive way but also see the other side of the medal. it`s not about choosing one alone but to find out what is serving the situation, if your answer is heads it`s serving itself.

heads or heart?

people, health, creation, suffering, now, finding a way, understanding, nothing, everything, life, experience, intuition never just one thing, mostly it was trust that time will reveal a path. i`ve never been dogmatic to anything in particular, i`ve always tried to eskape dogma. even what you try to push on me here i won`t allow to feed me up. it´s the problem of it all, that we can`t admit what is truely guiding us. self bias, we cannot overcome that completely except if we accept everything that is given might contain truth.

yes you are not?

it`s the same for them, we are all on a karmik journey even the spiritual seekers. karma doesn`t stop, not in this life. but karma can be changed, already in this life.

it shouldn`t, it`s the moment where you can`t discern the trash from the bin anymore.

mostly because their hands are too full or too empty probably. disconnection from themselfs and others, disconnection from the body, disconnection from the source, our "programms" are not running in a natural way, influence of maya/matrix since we are supposed to live in the "information age" there is too much toxic maya surrounding us everywhere. too much trash not enough food for the formless, the formless becomes trash.

a path is formed through the roads you take it´s a pathless path, choose the roads wisely and it will always lead you to what is the core of any teaching. but it`s about the emptiness of hands what formed all minds.

do you think there is so much separation? buddha took the path through yoga and meditation he was a hindu not a buddhist. also the hands are roughly part of buddhism we have to look for other schools there, for example what is the emptiness of hands?

no - the heart was created by love and interaction in my case. where does the mind actually begin or end, you could also say: where does the heart begin or end.

there are so many more body parts

the mind is the formless untill it takes form. you could also say conciousness is the formless untill it takes form. the heart can be formed much to easy to be formlessness.

yes, and emptyness = form

the mistake you are making here is that you say, that it is interpreted by a mind. wherease i say a mind is interpreted by a heart.

i thought you where talking about the truth of the last video. it`s an assumption about what made you discover the pointlessness of truth. for me it was about the brutality of what love is. so i figured pointlessness is brutal, because thats not what life is about, it`s about itself. to find itself in itself.

aakash it`s not like everyone else thinks the same about truth as leo presented it in the last video. what do you think is one of the most brutal situations in life? you already managed to overcome that, if you wouldn`t have you wouldn`t be here!

ok, misunderstanding. yes i guess you are right - i sometimes feel i`m not even solid in beige do you think someone needs to transcend all stages beyond first? or can we be in different stages, not really solid in any of them? because if i start to learn a little bit here and a little bit there, i sometimes am blue (what is a real struggle) or sometimes feel green, then i think i touch orange or yellow from time to time - also when strong stages are projected on me, i learn in that stage, and get lost in that stage sometimes by trying to fit into the stage to a certain degree. it`s the same with expression. the language i use starts to change after a while, when i encounter the stage in someone else. i mean on a personal level now, not on a business level. i have more an atomic model of spiral dynamics than the spiral. i used to push and feel responsible for what i identified with or what i was pushed to identify with, now i only try to take responsibility for what i am pushed to identify with. it`s a little unfocused situation learning. not really selfdetermined. that`s why i said it feels pretty beige or maybe i`m in denial about beige.

@Yog create a day to day scedule, work outside, maybe in your favourite cafe or library or whatever you can afford. at least leave the house in the morning, reconnect with life outside - it`s possible to stay at home for half a day very fast, as your home doesn`t give you the right signals it might feel too much like relaxation, every space is connected to habits, throw out all your games and gaming utensils. work on manipura not only the solarplexus part but also the navel part. work yourself through the chakras.

because everything comes back as a boomerang, and doing that is trying to hunt a leopard with a boomerang that eventually hits one on the own head. and i`m tired of throwing boomerangs that don`t really come back, i`m running out of boomerangs. the hyenas are lurking everywhere and the lions and elephants are just a beautiful story. male chauvinistic structures are hard to overcome.

would mean we would have ingrown into this place. our roots are somewhere else though. we can not outgrow the world if we just create an image of the world, because what we need to outgrow is to outgrow its toxicity through outgrowing these structures. as long as we stay here and the structures of here are not different to the structures of the world as we got indoctrinated into, we won`t outgrow anything. as we will just create a holographic image of what is instead of creating a holographic image of what we really could do. the real battle is not inside it`s outside.

@tsuki @Zigzag Idiot thank you for the once again useful conversation. i get what`s toxicity and it`s this forums structure. there are some people who work really hard on making this place a communicative and healthy place. obviously that`s impossible if someone isn`t aware of what`s going on in the forum while being part of it. or maybe it`s denial about it, who would know. i know what i need to let go of. toxicity is the structure not the nature of this place. it`s also unbelievable that there is talk about politics and how politics should be organized and calling oneself god when the own spiritual business is running in a suppressive and dictatoric way. @Charlotte what position? read what we where talking about, please. i won`t research the single occasions where you where sexistic against yourself and any other women on the forum and i won`t research the occasions where others asked you what you got your position for. because really charlotte you where not worth the time. bye its´s a sad story this forum.

i mean sorcerers/psychics/manipulators/shamans have power but if they are too toxic usually they/we turn around and go or we try to teach the other one something. also the rule of attraction lets people create aliances and help each other out of simple heartfelt connection, that`s when people start to teach each other something. of course i mean the moderators as the moderators create attention through their position. not through their deeds in the firstplace. that only comes after a while. too late if the ego is a trapp. attention forms a positive feedbackloop if it`s for what moderation action is about. of course moderators get some more love and attention for being in the center more present. that`s normal, that`s also exactly what can corrupt the ego. it`s not good to take on a position if the ego is extremely selfdeceptive, it will deceive others. it`s against what is the common sense of truth. even giving this kind of love right now is more than i would give her if she wasn`t a moderator. THATS WHAT THIS POSITION IS ABOUT if someone can`t handle critque, can`t solve conflicts WITH OTHERS themselves, then why that position?