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yours maybe, mine tries to be a culture, mostly, but let`s not split hairs over it. although in europe are really less cults because some religious sects wouldn`t be allowed here as oficial churches so they exist but much less. we have of course some street cults but not so much in a spiritual sense like what you would call spiritual (probably). but of course there is body cult and object cult (some are more fetish than cult) and so on. and a lot of people like us movies and of course netflix. but we also have a really good channel, they have some content in english (and it`s for free): https://www.arte.tv/en/

i`m absolutely for starting a commentary to introduce a commentary field where people can evaluate which cult one is belonging to. then it would be out of the discussions. so we could maybe apply ego or devilry or like in this example (sorry to use you as example bro) the bro cult. (women excluded. just for the sidenotice) it`s a reference about how thick two guys are because of their gender. next time i will talk about the brlo cult - we also have to step up the game.

maybe there is no black and white here but multiple shades of cult behaviour and tendencies. we were not talking about the taste of the art. maybe that`s sometimes also a trap. watched it and find it very informative especially in the section where eckart tolle and teal (wanted to write tilda) swan are mentioned. maybe we are a pancult. what makes it pretty difficult because we never know what exactly that might be. pancult would also already have some negative connotation as pan could easily be confused with the greek god, but i meant pan as the greek meaning of pan (in sense of you never know which cult is speaking to you at the moment exactly).

well yes, even an atomic bomb would probably not work on that kind of bugs.

i love you you know the fractal oftentimes is just an image of reality, although the forum claims to be more elevated... the development in purple and red is still mostly underedeveloped. the good tone sometimes doesn`t serve the purpose. if we only learn to develop our minds and the upper chakras we remain monkeys with a polished speech.

sorry i had a self agenda with that. and for this self agenda i didn`t care what anybody might think about me. everyone has from time to time, and no one is completely immune to that. and i didn`t just quote him, i changed a word that can mean so much. there is a lot of toxicity to this forum i agree with you in that, and there are always phases where it undergoes awakenings to that as a group. detoxing from social media, including actualized.org is probably one possibility to leave that non self inflicted part behind. wish you good luck if you really decide to go - so much potential in you, super creative mind and your heart is also where it belongs. if you can`t hear it maybe you can buy a stethoscope, i just thought i should do that.

bretharianism is only in so far possible as you only do that for a limited amount of time and not overexagerate it. there is a case of a guy in germany who hungered himself to death. it`s a myth, or it`s the decision to die willingly not living on the cost of the earth, therefore it`s like a hunger strike until physical death.

are you teflon to your own recommendations?

i dare you, so you could give an answer, instead of hiding.

sorry to chime in nothing against you - i know a couple where she is much taller than him, it doesn`t matter, just see it that way if it`s a problem for the woman, she`s not the right one anyways. so tall or not it doesn`t matter if you find someone aproximately your age. not true i even know more than one couple.

well sometimes it`s better to not imagine probably, as imagination would be to threatening to ones perception of what love really is. sometimes truth and love and the absence of that what we could still call conciousness are separable. sometimes we must admit that conciousness, even if everything seems to be conciousness and love, doesn`t mean that it can`t be absent from a space, then truth is the only way to keep us sane. then love=truth but love is not the absence of love. no thing is prior to nothing.

some of them would start pulling the sticks out - and snarl.

if it`s a specialisation being a generalist, i`m giving my best. thank you, i enjoyed dipping into this memory.

@JustThinkingAloud it`s ok to make a link to current thinking. current thinking is also intertwined with memory. although for me this exact topic has more of a fascination touch to it, than a personal - while that probably is personal as it is something i have a memory towards with a good feeling to it. so identification and abstraction are not really disconnected but as the memory of it spanns over a long period of time i`m able to see it more abstract, while i asked you to follow me with feeling into it, what will of course interfere with present identifications, if you go through some spiritual work right now in that direction. but it can also help you find out about some emotions or images of yourself - so identify and then disidentify. maybe like that .

@JustThinkingAloud yes, if you even go deeper into the fractal of a brain/body (even if leo will say it is an illusion) you can see a thought is made up of bioelectronic impulses and transmitters there is no thought without an emotion, a thought is made up of emotion and transport of information, they are not attached to each other, they are that. although feeling is more a sensual phenomenon.

@JustThinkingAloud in sense of physiology/biology/chemistry, what is a thought? what is it made of? so then tell me what is the difference between a thought and a memory? and what is a thought made of in the spiritual sense? sorry, maybe a little confusing, what i want to point at is i`m not sure about the attachment, i think/feel the attachment is not an attachment but the source itself, what we need to get detached from is not the thought/emotion but the meaning we assign to it, if it blocks us from being a more fullfilled and radiating being. sometimes i even think it`s important to add some meaning, and then the emotion gets a complete new quality.

careful wit this as well it`s correct regarding definitions in the classic way, but doesn`t say what it really is and brings distortions if you start studying something about how all of this works in a more biodynamic setting. all i would say now about the differences between them is: a thought happens mostly in the head area but it is not percived from there. a feeling starts often diffuse in the areas of sensation but it`s not percived from there, until it localizes in an area connected to emotion (or thought) and radiates from there, a thought is an emotion. you can`t say a thought is absent of emotion, it is not. but on the other hand there are thoughts that are absent of feelings. so bringing together thought emotions and feelings has much to do with localizing them, although a lot of people would not understand if you point towards some place and say it hurts there - you need to define for yourself what that means for yourself or another person. vision is prior to word, a line or dot is prior to a sign, being is prior to all symbols.

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thank you for asking these questions, they make me aware of one of the traps - i fall into the green trap quite often recently and realize how i don’t invest enough time into really transforming my everyday life more into green, instead of feeling the bitterness and sadness and sometimes hopelessness that can overcome people in green. somehow green remains like an open wound and i feel i also want to tab more into green in the future with certain aspects of my life - for example green means for me also to be more informed about certain aspects and disbalances in life and a critical attempt on how to solve these problems in a more attentive way to my surrounding. at the moment i‘m going through some painful green emotions, so that’s probably where i am at mostly, even though i sometimes still am in orange and in some aspects already work on yellow. the moment (well my interpretation. might be not the case) when you start leaving green into yellow is the moment where you realize you can’t change a lot by just holding this perspective and understanding it and seeing that’s how it would be if it was fair, if all people would think green. either you then start to become active in green as activist or you start to become someone active in yellow because you want to change the world with the abilities you already have, from the point in life you are at, without having to distance yourself from society too far, yellow is usually a constructive colour in my perception. yellow is understanding that green tries to fix too many problems always in the same way, oftentimes almost lost causes and understands that yellow is already part of green - it’s not greens perspective that makes you move on, but the methods to handle green problems. part of that is to understand more and more where others perspectives come from and how to influence people into changing perspectives or just letting them be and accept them. for me that is more easy when a person is in front of me than in a forum for example, or when i read about people in a newspaper. that is because i usually then have much more information about them, their life story their background their status, how open or closed up people are. although in some situations i only wear green glasses because i can not otherwise, maybe yet. maybe it’s because there are so many red to blue incidents around at the moment. that was quite relieving...thank you!

it’s not just a shame it’s a human rights desaster every firewall which was installed to interfere in broke down what shows that we are indeed not able to learn from the past - the kurds are a playball between turkey, russia and syrian regime. on turkish side there are radical islamic militia who execute in street justice, they executed a female politician out of her car at the beginning of the operation „clean up peace“ sorry that’s sarcastic. the last thing she said was: „don’t shoot him he is just the driver“, he was executed as well. during the military invention isis fighters where able to flee from an unattended prison the kurds kept them in because they couldn’t maintain the presence. there are hundredth more kept by the sdf (syrian democratic forces) they are kept imprisoned to get a trial in front of a court (notice the absurdity of the situation in comparison to how the kurds in general are treated by the turkish militia), if these isis people who in sdf prisons would come free it would be a desaster for the west and the whole region there aswell. the real desaster though is that we are not only to be ashamed we are guilty of subsidy.

exactly, letting go of the stress together, massage maybe meditating together, going to watch a musical or theater play if she likes that or if she likes sports well it could also be kind of romantic to go watch some sports together, it`s not even about sweet talking so much but can be little gestures. the same way it comes out of the bedroom it goes back into it. i would be careful with buying her anything you don`t know if she likes it, if she feels strange with the wrong things it won`t really work - if you want to buy her something nice it`s better to go with her and buy it together, she will feel more herself with that. i know the overall surprise effect would be gone and if you both are in orange that will probably work, but unless you are really safe in taste and manage to match hers it`s saving you both some money gambling on expencive stuff she might then only wear once. chances for that are high if she never wears these things. or at least figure out what she likes first, before you buy something, women are often extremely picky. she might feel not at all the way you envision her to feel, just that about recommendations strangers give you in an online forum. four females here and everyone of them have different ideas.

whew, ego bells ringing. don’t think he was talking about toxic femininity.

i‘m not sure about the feminine masculine polarity part to be so important, well of course that might be one aspect. but making a woman feel feminine is not only triggered by your masculinity, it’s also about how the woman herself would dive into femininity, it’s her spiritual practice to connect to her senses and body. it’s also about moods and feeling. i suppose with more feminine we are speaking about an aura of care, softness, vulnerability, trust and mood a woman transports. i also suppose there are differences in how „feminine“ she is depending on the time of her cycle. taking the lead doesn’t have to be masculine.

who says you need to make noises, in the end you might be so focused on making noises that you can not let go. if there is a noise it will come out on its own. you are probably cramping about the expectations you want to meet in the other person. your attention is more towards the outside appearance of yourself in the act than what it really should be for yourself - sexuality should not be a show you put on to keep the attention of another alive. it sounds like you fear more about the disappointment of the other than your own. you can`t be a goddess at the first time, you might not even orgasm for the first twenty to hundreth time. sorry to take you this illusion, but better to get the pressure off from yourself, that you have to or have to play something you are not. if you would orgasm during first intercourse you would be the first female to talk about, but if you like your ex then have sex with him, if you feel you can`t expose yourself to him, then he might not be the right one. part of it is to expose to him what you think is ugly about yourself aswell and realize, that he might not think the same way. start to get interested about his body and let him be interested about yours, if you don`t like it don`t do it. or do you say you already had sex but end up tense during sex? he`s your ex so either you drop it or you start to enyoy it, if he`s not the right one for the second, maybe the first would be the wiser choice. there are also some basics i would check first, if you are really uncomfortable being physical intimate with boys, did you ever kiss a girl and check if you might like that more?