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remember remember the ninth of... @Flowerfaeiry where exactly did you read that quote?

i‘m not sure if the us is coming for iran - i have a gut feeling that this is an exemplary execution to show that you can have some kind of cooperation but then there is a line that’s not to be crossed... of course happenings like that can dissolve in warfare and well both sides are probably very aware about what tension this produces, i sometimes ask myself what would have happened if there wouldn’t have been a wall between east and west germany - but in some sense this is not about iran it is about irak and probably syria as well. maybe if that does not get muddled up too much... but i see different boarders in these countries i see different boarders running through families - and even through peoples own minds - the boarders are ideological, cultural, religious. i‘m not sure if it was an act of destabilization or an act of stabilization - we will see.

i don`t know could be that your tummy will have to adjust to the new form of food, but overall it will make your tummy more stable against problems after a while, because the more structured food is like sports for your intestines and can prevent a lot of illnesses in addition. be aware of the supplementation you will need after a while, like vit b12 and b6 (i`m also using a toothpaste with vit b12) and letting your iron levels and also other vitamins, minerals and vital signs be checked - there are special lists what is good to be checked for vegans. i aslo guess eggs once in a while can`t be bad - i also eat eggs but i always buy organic, regional and from free living chicken. i guess if it is mainly for health and shape reasons you could make exceptions when out with friends - but in the bigger cities most restaurants have vegan options and you could also then choose the places you go accordingly.

it`s def an interesting topic. but the topic is much bigger than that single occurrence - only pointing towards the us is also very onesided. in a time where warfare is so much manipulated through ideologies you could also point towards iranian warfare methods and say the same.

what helped me to keep my weight: going almost vegan (i never succeeded entirely with milk products) - a lot of it raw stop drinking wine here and there (alcohol is really worse than chocolate) do yoga and or some sports you have fun with doing what archi said, or only eat when you really are hungry choose the meal of the day you prefere and take that but leave the others or one of them. if you are still hungry, a fruit is a good option.

but it`s probably more a belly button than a reset button.

@Justine did you know that l-theanin is serotonin reducing? so it`s kind of nice to use it to get a calmer mind but it may resolve in an emotionless state, a little too head centered and clean for women sometimes. it worked well for me to stop smoking though. i don`t have experiences with microdosing lsd, so i can`t say much about the effect of that... you could try substituting lsd with raw fermented cocoa beans. for more emotional stability instead of the l-theanin against depressions i would recommend to try rhodiola rosea. for women there are also so many more things you could keep an eye on, like your menstrual cycle, hormones and everything connected to that. i`d keep a track of that related to moods. and if you lost your children over these issues i would also search professional help - if you want them back or want to stabilize you need not more visions you need some serious deep work that is custom fit. although do a really good research for a thereapist who is also understanding child and family dynamics.

but it also means for people who do tight rope walks and teach that to others they would not let them dance without some kind of safety net. of course it`s still dangerous and everyone does it on own risk, although it`s kind of irresponsible to think some topics can be touched without then supplying some kind of professional support. if the community is strong and can carry that your luck but if not who will catch the child falling?

is it about this? https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-50478821 let`s stay aware that the business with talking suicide is maybe suicidal. we can talk a lot about why people are magnets for other people - one aspect is probably the will to flee self-inquiry or some shadows of what life created as reality for oneself. spirituality as a business concept is of course a self deception, if the bubble never bursts. of course if anything is too smooth and edgeless i`d always wonder. teal swan is much too purple and that without her feet in the mud... if our head sticks too much in the clouds, how can we see where we walk - falling sometimes might seem like flying. it´s the fools card. being foolish with topics like suicide is not tarot it`s poker.

there have been some videos that deal with confronting actualized.org forum members or video junkies with their relationship to the content and identity to gurus or group ego - like the cult psychology video. one problem of people who build a massive spiritual ego on actualized.org is that they have not gone deep enough into shadow work - this only shows where there is still work to do. the how authority works video is also really good to confront oneself with how dangerous in general the overidentification with one group or another is. independent thinking is not born overnight - i think the identification might be an important step towards that and can certainly reach dimensions which are or are almost toxic. although it mostly reveals some toxic traits of the ego and maybe is only a reaction like a backlash towards the feeling of finally finding a missing link towards what feels true. it`s not that this is a new ideology that should replace some empty spot. although of course the fascination that draws people towards actualized.org is the same as every cult deals with. collective ego. (it`s such a paradox isn`t it) the danger is not actualized.org but the cultural dynamics and programs that run people underneath. the forum is here to discuss these phenomenons openly - but what is prior to talking about it is some form of awareness. and awareness is probably part of a better self-inquiry practice. maybe the problem is that it`s difficult to heal with the same methods the problem was created with - but as there is only one consciousness, you might spot the dilemma.

maybe there should be one that`s called men who run with the wolves

in my understanding the difference is the awareness and attention in the process. the automated process is a program running underneath attention and awareness like a separated entity. the inner artist is probably the child that wants to explore and play with these different layers of the artistic personality and or tool box.

hahaha no everything fine, sorry. hope it is not too bad! being framed alive is probably not the nicest way maybe better the blank wall

i didn`t want to criticise you for your warm feelings towards others. i just want to make you aware how dogmatic that is if you do it because you are told to, because it is the right thing to do instead of doing it because you want to - if you want to it is not a sacrifice. the problem about this view is that it is expected of women and some women then sacrifice because it is expected of them, and they fight a whole life overcoming that - you could ask yourself why is it not expected of men to sacrifice? alone the word sacrifice makes you one. but it is not the word it is what it stands for. you could be aware what you are really sacrificing if you are giving all authority to someone who seems to be stronger than you while at the same time you are competing against other women. i don`t think leo sees it so much as a sacrifice to die, he obviously likes it to let his ego die.

who says going deeper is not going higher? it`s a neglection and denial of the lower spiral colours that usually make people act on them unconsciously. there is a reason why freudian psychology was called deep psychology. although freuds psychology is a male psychology. if i would use the sex metaphor for that i`d say it´s deep sex with your psyche instead of a mindfuck.

@Matt23 i don`t think there is truely only one book on the heroins journey in the classical sense - you can read the edda and the niebelungen to get to the source of the dragon story and why it is a little twisted and why it is a villain story. red moon by miranda gray is one book which explains the meaning of the grail in a female interpretation and it makes some sense, why the grail is a female symbol. it`s a book that reconnects women to the female cycle and the moon symbol and with their intuition. going deeper into shaddow works of the forgotten power in women i`d recommend women who run with wolves by clarissa pinkola estes, it`s about self liberation through tales and in a sense also touches the nature of story telling as a psychological/shamanic tool in the healthy purple community. i have some more books on my list i didn`t read yet, most are more about purple communities than about the heroins journey. although i think that`s exactly what the heroins journey can`t miss to make it a true heroins journey.

would you prefer unframed on the blank wall?

@Meetjoeblack did you ever fall in love dude? or think about living together with people to not be alone? it`s all just about penetrating and impregnating someone else, how can this be all? did you never think about having someone to snuggle? just saying, by now i know a lot of couples who married with children from another partner, and are really happy. but if family is not yours... the thing with visions wishes and hopes is that they sometimes lead us to interesting roads. that`s why independence for women is important.

mhhh yes sounds like it.

better ask yourself who made her a whore.... i think jesus talked about communion... question is where did he get that from?

yes and what makes your understanding different than the one of a male? most men don`t care if independence is a fiction, most of the time at least. of course interdependence exists but it does not exist naturally under preset conditions. when you start into a new relationship for example the conditions for the relationship are set up like a contract and instead of doing that due to some roll models you can do it under both of your conditions. it`s also possible to change the conditions after a while if the situation changes - of course usually that won`t happen without some rough situations.

it`s just one part of enlightenment, for women it can not be full enlightenment until you have rediscovered that you are different and whole all by yourself and able to be independent. that`s maybe why i would recommend to also read other books which are not so much about relationships or male/female but more the yin yang aspects within you and more reconnecting women to their inner power which is equally formless. i really have a problem with always defining myself through the male aspect, women are life givers why do we need to be seed givers? although sexuality is part of the road to enlightenment - i guess - jesus did not talk about the mindfuck i guess

@mandyjw thank you - i like the last quote...it speaks to me

@Emerald emerald mentioned a heroins journey. i did not buy the book, so i don`t know. there are some really good books about reconnecting with the feminine aspects in ourselves beyond blue. not going back at least into healthy purple makes women disconnected from their inner power. clarissa pinkola estes for example is a south american story teller one of the bridge builders to the feminine. nurturing and caring are just two aspects of strong women leaders. i don`t really see the helpless shadow of a man as a female life purpose.

why do so many women have such a toxic interpretation about what their lifepurpose is? when i read some things i could throw up knowing that it is all indoctrination. one of the lifepurposes a woman should have is overcoming this nurture sacrifice shit. troyanising yourself and other women is not nurture sacrifice, it`s intoxicating.