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@Schizophonia You need to be more humble. It can send u in hellish realms u cant even imagine. It can also show u god and traumatize u hard. Be careful, with ur doses. I had some profound awakenings over the years and im still scared of higher doses. For me it s the most powerful stuff out there.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSHjJmXve_Y&list=PLJMhwXfIQ9qQZ7dCtOjjf_GE8_Kl3Pu0H&index=7w Do the invitation, very powerful :-)

note to myself: never watch this while tripping !

Wow great explanation again, i got it theoretically. Now its time to get the realization. Do u recommend some exercises to internalize this knowledge?

Yes i hope truth will feel different.. I try to discover truth for years but im not that good in it.. I had a god realization so shockin and terrifying i cant put in words and at that time it was absolut truth, but soon after the trip its just some blurred memory and life goes on ( but with more and more mindfuck).

So when we have a life conversation u are not conscious, just me?

When im playing with my daughter, i play with an empty zombie but when i look in her eyes she looks so conscious, so alive. Thats heartbreaking.

wow that is the saddest thing i ever heard.. im struggling with solipsism for weeks. Thank u for reply u explain so well.

I am watching my wife and my 2 year old girl playing on the ground right now. They are so alive and happy. I am fully conscious of myself right now. Are they conscious right now?

Be careful what u do on lsd! After starring in my eyes for about 10 min straight i dissociate and was in hell.. I had no thoughts, no mental activities. I felt like i killed myself forever and ever. It was absolutely terrifying.

-I am feeling -I am panicking -I am.... Who is watching this? Who feels the anxiety? Are u the feelings, thoughts, sensations, or is it being watched?

Wow, this post could be written by me (it is actually..) I had god realization few days ago. I tryed to write it down but the mind is not capable i guess. Im still trying to stomach this, its the most terrifying, radical experience possible. I think the only way to stomach god is to let go of every everything (every mental assumption, every condition, everything). The biggest mindfuck was that im every teacher i ever looked up to. I feel so fuckin alone now Be carefull with ur trips, it almost killed me

beautiful, thanks for sharing.

I plan to travel to india for self development. Has anybody experience with the osho resort? Or other recommendations for spiritual work in india?