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A powerful melody in all its simplicity and repetitiveness, but listen to this at your shroom come up/peak while watching at a patterned wallpaper and I tell you, there is a possibility that those patterns will present to you such an incredible dance show that they will catch your soul and they will together dance to a whole different realm so beautiful that it is hard for you to fucking get a word out of your mouth while almost drowning in your own tears of joy ❤️

When this one came out I started watching it but soon realized that it's going to be a bomb, so I stopped watching and decided to leave it for the possible future moment when I REALLY need that ability ❤️ Great to hear that I have an ace up my sleeve!

How much have you read Orange kind of literature? I personally find myself expressing more healthy Orange traits when I have a book like that in a progress. That action comes much more naturally when I am working on something that's from the same plane, and reading a book is one example of that. There are some really good classic healthy Orange books with some Green vibes. Stephen Covey's The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People is the most fundamental one I've read, because it kind of lays down a healthy foundation that kind of advocates Orange ends with Green means.

Wow, that's unbelievably beautiful! And rare indeed! Thanks for sharing the clip.

Why do you think you should integrate more Orange? Where does the idea of doing that arise from?

Don't be too analytical about it. Visualize yourself as having attained all your goals. In your mind, become THE PERSON you want to become. Try to deeply feel into it.

Oh, okay, so you have taken a deeper look at the model then. Well, with me even though I know Orange is not taking me to where I'm aiming towards, I've learned its importance in my life, especially because I still have Orange survival components in my life. I kind of need to keep a portion of that ''chasing cheese in a maze'' effect active, to have the correct balance to properly function in life and also for the sake of healthy development. At the same time that I'm pushing forwards, I see the need for that cheese getting thinner and thinner and I intuitively know it's going to vanish eventually, but I let it do so naturally. What kind of aspects your life or ''survival'' is made of? Do you have situations you are involved in that are mostly in Orange or lower domains? Like work, entertainment, friends, family, sports? If so, those will have an effect of keeping you down. It might not seem that way, but if you interact with those people or activities, they certainly have that sneaky effect and it shows itself sneakily in your psyche, when you're trying to evolve. You can do 2 things with them, you can either eliminate them (which might cause an ego backlash) or you can learn to find a place for them for the time being and with understanding and intelligence cope with them in a proper way, in a way they don't get a too big of an edge on you.

The key is to just simply exhaust the MEME within you to really internally see its limitations. While you're at it, make sure you keep yourself open for the next MEME to awaken, but don't force it. We can't rush through stages too quickly, even if we understood the model perfectly. Development doesn't really care about conceptual understanding in this regard, it cares about direct experience. We can although use the conceptual understanding to choose the right action steps to fasten the process, but the stages really need to be experienced well enough and widely enough to be ready for the next stage. In theory there are specific life conditions that need to be in place to be ready for transformation. Unless those conditions are not in place, you are most likely to experience ''The GAMMA Trap'' which we can describe as your inner demons or shadows that will test your readiness to move forwards and they will kick you right back to where you came from, if you're not ready yet. When we learn about SD we tend to have this willingness to improve and move up the spiral as quickly as possible. I would suggest you to read the book. It really helps to understand the model better with all its nuance, and with more detailed understanding the change process becomes more natural.

Wow! Someone please inject this man with a Spiral Wizard syringe.

I would say it's great that you're interested in spirituality and would also encourage you to keep at it, but only to the extent you are comfortable with it. Maybe make it a hobby, just like the other language you're studying. It's crucial that you are prepared that you have huge limits with it, as you are young and in a process of putting your basic survival elements in place. Spiritual stuff can get overwhelming, and when that happens, it's important that you acknowledge your priorities -- school, money, independence, relationships, etc. -- and you release the pressure spirituality might put to you. I wouldn't yet be too concerned about any serious spiritual concepts, but e.g. meditation is a practice that can be highly practical in a conventional sense and also deeply spiritual, so it would be a good practice to start enhancing your skills at. You can now use the benefits to your performance at school and in other areas in life, and after 10 years when you might have more room for spirituality, you are already a badass zen wizard with a mind as calm as the sea to make amazing spiritual progress, if that's what you want

Go with that for now, if it suits you best, but I wouldn't plan my future too much within those frames. The problem is, if you do your self-improvement work effectively without falling for ideologies or other serious traps, you start gaining consciousness and waking up to the fact that you can't keep wasting 40 hrs/week to something shallow and meaningless. You are going to want to chase your dreams and passions that your higher-self has presented to you, and 6 hrs/day after 8 hrs of peeling potatoes is not gonna cut it. It's good to remember that e.g. bootstrapping a new business or taking action on your free time to chance career path can also be consider self-improvement, and I think it's really considerable, if you want to live a good life.

I understand why you're feeling this way and I'm sorry to hear that you've had to experience that, and even though you know what she said isn't true, it's still affecting you. I still want you to look at the truth once again, from a different angle. Imagine you were born in a healthy and loving family in a healthy society with all the healthy growing functions around you. Your parents kept telling you every day how beautiful you are, how much they love you, how lucky they are to have you. They kept supporting you with everything you authentically are and everything you authentically want out of life. Growing that life would've made it easy for you to create an amazing life, a life you are meant to live. Think about that Preety and also the Preety who grew in India. What's the difference between those two? It's conditioning that affects on the surface. Nothing else. Both Preety's are exactly the same from deep down. Not one is better or worse than the other. They are exactly the same. Now, what Preety_India has that Preety_HealthySociety has not? She has life experience, she has inner strength that she's been forced to dig from deep down of herself. She has emotional abundance and most of all, she has desire to grow. Those skills and attributes she has developed has come with some scars, but those scars can be fixed, and when they are fixed, the Indian Preety can become more that the one growing in the healthy society could. You have all the power in your hands and although you think you've been unlucky, actually you've been lucky. It's not easy, and lots of work is to be done, but I can tell you that It's the conditioning that has shaped your mind and situations and circumstances you've had to experience as growing up and other things that are still essential to your surroundings and society, which are clouding your thinking and makes life look a bit greyish to you, which it is not at all, like Preety_HealthySociety would assure you. Don't let it fool you. When the scars are fixed, you will see all the strength that came with them. Keep slaying the demons and never give up to them! The beauty from deep down will start shining more an more as you keep going and going and never giving up.

That sounds good! Sessions don't need to be long, as long as the habit is consistent. Yeah, well I was doing some other practices as well and was really progressive with my action so can't say for sure how big of an effect it had, but there are tons of literature about the power of visualization and people have researched it to be a powerful tool in achieving whatever goal you have in life. Key is to be certain and precise of what it is you want to accomplish.

If you're into carving your mentality to become most effective and ready for action (and also to enhance your action over time), maybe try visualization? Do daily visualization of yourself being great with women. Make it as detailed as you want. I used to have that as one tool when I was doing daily improvement work especially on my social skills. I think it had a big effect.

Great to hear that and I wish you luck with your self exploration process!

Oh, okay. I've had something like that myself too, especially when I used to play video games and was addicted to scrolling social media. I fixed the problem of feeling guilt/not getting progress through the process of hitting my head against the wall again and again. I kept avoiding that guilt and pushed myself to do progressive work, until I experienced big ego backlashes which got me deeper into my toxic habits. Supporting those experiences with understanding of some important and relevant concepts, I learned to see the balance that is necessary for me to do productive work effectively. After all, it's laboring to do personal development and the ego will resist the change as you've probably noticed. The excitement to improve can sometimes be so big that it drives us to burnout.

I totally feel you. You should rather be worried about what you're investing your time into, instead of being worried about being lazy. There's nothing wrong with laziness per se, it's natural. Maybe try thinking it in the way of ''how is watching TV helping me to get closer to objective X? Does it have a function there?''. With that it helps to have some sort of sense of where you're heading to. You said you get the feeling that you should put your time into more productive things, but do you know what things really are productive to you? Sometimes it's exactly not being clear enough and so not trusting the process enough, that gets one to slack off and give up to resistance. Maybe you're at the moment in a process of trying to find out what's productive to you, in which case it's okay to feel a little guilt. It's there to move you to the right direction, and it will pass and move to something better, if you are seriously working on yourself. After all, listen to your higher self.

It's very personal. You need to contemplate your relationship to that habit and also to be aware of the psychological affect TV-shows tend to have on human psyche. Then you can make the conscious choice whether or not, or to what extent, you are OK consuming TV. What makes all the difference to that process, is having clear sense of your values and what you want out of life. Then you'll have reference base to make your choice. You said you enjoy spirituality and self-actualization, but to what extent? Are they just a hobbies or do they play role in a bigger vision? Those things tend to affect every aspect of your life, when done seriously. I also want to promote life purpose here. If you had a life purpose, you would a) probably be too busy to watch TV-shows, or b) you would know what's important to you and how much TV is okay for you to still be able to do your thing effectively. So what I'm basically saying is that having a life purpose solves many common life problems, from which this is one. In summary, TV-shows are not bad per se. They could be harming to you considering your psychology and agendas in life or they could be just perfect balance for all the development work you do. The key is to examine your relationship to it, to be honest and wise about it. If you don't consume them like many hours per day, you are probably doing just fine.

Your mind is stuck in a rut at the moment. Your mind can be tuned, and so it must, to start making any sense of the things you are trying to understand here. I know it's hard to understand that understanding or even making sense of something can be very different and have many levels and dimensions, and that to make sense of different things require different ways of making sense. Well, it's crazy, but that's how it is. It's not about taking psychedelics or meditating to understand something. It's to tune your mind to a frequency where it can find different channels to approach those phenomenons through. Proper spiritual work tunes the frequency, and if you're lucky, you might hit the right one. Don't force yourself to understand. Take your time and be gentle with yourself. Raise your consciousness and flex your mind to have more mental room, and I tell you, miracles will happen.

Of course, take your time. Thanks for sharing that.

Don't leave us hanging here man! Give as some updates!

I like the clear points and perspectives of yours. You make inclusive arguments that are easy to read and relate to. I find them valuable, even though I don't really interact with you. I'm sure many feel the same. It's not always the effort that gets the most approval and visible attention that is most influencing although it's good to use this forum and people here as feedback information for your future endeavors.

@Vagos I totally feel you. That toxic Green ignorance is a bitch. Most times it seems like the best alternative is to explain and rationalize Green to take a more holistic view, but as you've probably noticed, it doesn't work. It's like trying to tell a fundamental christian that 10 commandments isn't the absolute truth or a elite capitalist that there is more to life than status and money. They are just simply unable to play around with ideas outside of their comfort zone and identity if they are in CLOSED state of spiral change. Like Don Beck and Christopher Cowan describe a person locked in CLOSED state: ''Psychological blindness keep the person from seeing alternatives, either in the past or future ways to be''. You can always try to carefully and gently plant a seed of a bigger perspective to a Green person, even if he's CLOSED, but it's not up to you whether the seed starts to sprout or not. I have some friends with strong Green and I've had so much frustration with them, while on the other hand I've got love, approval and sense of unity. What I've learned is that the frustration is not just a negative aspect, but it's an important -- even maybe necessary -- aspect of development. It's a emotion that shows you what triggers you. Then it's your job to contemplate that triggering to see where you come short in your understanding. I think as you expose yourself more to Green, you start understanding the Green nature more so that you stop demanding certain understanding from them. The triggering can also imply of your own insecurities. You might have a need to make everyone agree so you know you are right. As you develop you start trusting yourself more, despite what other people think or say. So I wouldn't be too worried about that ''negative'' aspect of yours when it comes to dealing with Green, because it's part of development. Keep pushing yourself, but maybe take a step back. Maybe try having less contact with Green for a while so that your cup doesn't spill over. That's what I do when I get emotionally triggered with Green, and I've seen some real progress there. You can't force change and understanding.

Even though quality guys are rare on dating sites, there still are some. They are hard to spot, because they don't directly sell themselves as such, so it really requires you to go meta on it. You want to try to get in their heads. Think about what those quality guys might want from a woman. Make your profile such that it communicates those traits in you, that those men might be interested in, but don't do it too obviously, try to come up with a clever profile, that's what he's looking for, a quality man can read between lines. This quality guy has also done his profile well. He don't post pictures where he's meditating or tell in his bio how great of a man he is. He has hidden those things between lines. He has made his pictures and bio in a way that he knows, that if a quality woman sees the profile, it's a clear match without a second of doubt.

I read your other post on another thread and I got a strong sense that you might be fighting with ego backlash. During that time, old toxic habits, like addictions, tend to creep back. Getting rid of strong and long lasted addictions is really hard physically and emotionally, as you've probably notices, so I would consider directing more your personal resources towards killing the addiction. That means, getting time away from practices and habits that push you to your edge, and investing them into something easier. Meditation and yoga are mentally laboring practices, so adding a fight against strong nicotine addiction on top of that sounds to me like too much.