I have a dilemma.
I just watched a video about why embracing chaos into your relationships is something good for someone to do. The argument was that you shouldn't focus on sustaining order in your relationships because it can be a form of conceptual controlling of someone's identity in order to know where you have them as friends, family spouses, etc.. To me this really hit an inner conflict for me. For instance, I value Truth and integrity with people and if I can not see a pattern of people being truthful and having integrity I really do not prefer to be around people who don't possess some kind of truth to their word. My question is.
Am I operating under the basis of fear or love when I want people in my life to always speak truthfully and have integrity? Am I the problem because I am trying to bend reality to my will and not embrace the chaos of the inevitable relationship into my life? I am confused about what to do here.
Edit: I can also see that truth is subjective and therefor who really decides if you have integrity. It's just that what should l do then? Not have preferences?
I don't know, it seems like I have a hard time accepting reality as it is. On the other hand. Why try to awaken and help people to truth then If can't have a preference towards Truth? It seems kind of contradictory if I don't neglect chaos, So I guess the question lies. How can I embrace the truth without having a preference towards Truth and not chaos?
I can, of course, embrace the chaos of life. It's just that. To me, embracing chaos in my own backyard consciously seems like a big-time consumer and energy waister. Any thoughts on this?
I appreciate all the advice I can get on this.
DoubleEdit: Ofc I contradict myself again here because if you fully embrace truth you also need to embrace chaos. AHHHHHH PARADOXES. What to do..
TrippleEdit: I also noticed that if I do embrace chaos in people I tend to people please a lot. And it makes my truth and integrity fade away to a point where I lose touch with my vision and reality. At the same time what I want to give to this planet through truth/Love and integrity.
