PepperBlossoms

We should be building psychedelic stores all over the world instead of military bases and drones.

to switch over from a human lens and start viewing from the infinity lens, or oneness lens, or whatever lens you want - whatever you identify as - and make up that story/perspective/meaning yeah I guess its all a bunch of stuff popping up that we see and it just keeps on popping up but the stuff that is popping up is me.........and me is noticing...

It is funny to look at how us humans have been operating and to see how serious we take ourselves. Being human may be a relatively new thing in the vast expanse of a potential infinity You look at someone with the fancy clothing and the fancy home and how they act and all the social norms - it is like being in the bubble of - oh this is normal - this is how things have always been - - when it hasn't necessarily- we have been making it up but so many people act certain ways and we've seen the human way of operating so much that we feel it is all "normal" - - we manufactured the notion of what normal is and continue to do so - - the state of normal is constantly changing Operating like - I am a human and only care about the human perspective yeah there is no recollection/story of "us" before "human birth" so that may add to the perspective bubble it is funny though because we are CONVINCING to ourselves that this way of behavior is some sort of NORMAL humans may have only existed for like a blimp of infinity that is basically nothing and yet we are acting like it is EVERYTHING and make our world seem as such But then yet all weird in terms of oneness and the unawareness that goes along with everyone/thing being me

How often do you find yourself imagining everything from notion of person in body you are seeing from versus imagining the perspective of the other person, dog, tree, rock, cup, mountain, etc.? I find it is easier to do with dogs and bugs but A - no social repercussion to study them, B - less intimidating, C - they will still interact with you, D - they are similar enough to what you claim to be familiar with I tend to put myself as the center stage of the imagination for reality but there has to be some imagination about the other otherwise I wouldn't imagine the other so seriously (which I have programmed myself/been influenced to take seriously)- - one has to basically decide to put an effort in of operating from the perspective of how the other person is operating but yet at the same time, one has to keep on operating as self and it is hard to multitask - - everything is kinda all just happening on its own though

What do you tolerate and what do you say absolutely no to in relation to consciousness for in relation to your career? Most common careers can unknowingly be harming the environment but it is so normalized that it is done without question. Or the people do it because it gives them money and they care more about the money than the impact on the environment/long term impacts. You could look at a career like architecture, civil/mechanical/electrical engineering, construction, chef, accountant, software engineer, truck driver, human resources, project manager, surveyor, environmental engineer, clothing designer, computer builder, cashiers, janitors, teacher, doctor, lawyer, real estate, etc. and say - oh these are fine positions with no concern for consciousness. There is nothing wrong.. but then when you look at what they are allowing/building/nurturing/enabling - - fast food chains, gas stations, factories that produce plastic, oil & gas lines, cruise ships that emit lots of pollutants, auto mechanic places that fix gasoline cars or dealerships that sell them, meat packing plants, militaries with guns/bombs, tearing down forests/undeveloped land and turning into concrete paradise. Someone had to design/build those places, someone has to manage those places, someone has to provide education/medicine/therapy to the people to be able to grow up to design/build/manage/work at those places, someone built the search engines and computer software and computers for those places to aid their work, someone built the wardrobe for those places to wear, someone designed/built the road for the people to get to the office at this place, someone designed/built the homes to house these people, someone grew the food to nourish these people So do you then A - find a company that does not contribute to this - does not directly say design gas stations? (but what if you still have a gasoline car and so you just rely on other companies to take on those projects but you say no to them? do you get an electric vehicle? if you are still driving a gas vehicle - then you are still hurting the environment even if you aren't the one doing the design/construction of the gas station) B - do something to stop it? C - find a city where these industries do not exist so that the taxpayer money for the infrastructure is not aiding the survival of this business - as that business will use the city's water/wastewater/drainage/roadway/electricity/currency/laws/police/fire fighters/residents What about how employees are treated - what do you let slide and what gets you to leave? If your workplace was not transparent, had bosses lying to your face, various verbal abuse, did not have a mask requirement in response to covid, would you take/stay at that job? Are there any jobs that can avoid this as best as they can? What have you found? It is interesting how even something like something in banking or even excel or microsoft word - those developments are aiding this stuff If you are a teacher, the students you teach could grow up to work at those places and cause destruction. If you are a therapist, you could make them feel better about themselves to then do better at their jobs and continue to cause destruction (but one would hope not) Yeah sure you could legally try to work with psychedelics or write books or go into public policy to try to change things - - Even if what you did was to aid in the safety of oil/gas - you are still contributing to that type of product. Even to just build a roads - you are taking away habitat from the other animals/bugs. To even work in a country that you have to pay taxes in - you may be supporting a government that is bombing other places or doing things that you do not agree with but yet you are forced to pay taxes to - do you leave that country and go elsewhere? do you write about it? do you go into government to change it?

Thanks for asking. It's so far been stuff related to career, motivation, making decisions, relationships, emotions, maturity, guilt, depression, anxiety, thoughts, past experiences, etc. Therapy can be great when we are developed/mature enough to want to do it. There is so much one can discuss and the sessions are always too short haha. I've asked for 2 sessions a week on the weeks I feel I am really struggling. It's almost like needing someone to hold your hand so I guess one gets out of therapy when they are finally strong enough to fly solo.

To take the test: https://www.truity.com/test/enneagram-personality-test I am curious if most of the people on actualized are type 4 (introspective, self aware) and 5 (love of learning, scientific) and if there is a theme. 5 because people on here like to learn and discuss things, 4 because we are not satisfied with out current understanding of reality/being and so we keep on going back to actualized. Can look up what the personality types mean for free by googling it such as here - https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-4 I'm type 4 and 5.

Anger is a new experience for me. I haven't experienced it for a few months now - one can't feel angry if one is feeling scared, depressed, anxious, guiltful, shameful, lowly, apathy, fear, etc. Anger requires some level of self love, self confidence. To say - yes I am worthy of anger. I am deserving enough, I am strong/powerful enough. It is in a way uplifting to feel some sort of anger - in lieu of previously when I was suicidal, depressed, or hyper anxious. When previously I felt I needed to hide in a cave, anger kinda makes it seem like - no I don't have to hide. I am not even sure where the anger came from - maybe from seeing that I am upset at how I have handled things in the past/past decisions - not sure. Will have to take a look at those leo videos on anger.

Thanks for sharing. I have been going for therapy for 3ish months now as well. I was initially feeling pretty horrible after each session as well but I think it is getting better. I think that my dad contributed to some of my destructive thinking patterns and I also talk most of the time as well. Super glad to hear that it worked pretty well for you and that she was able to help.

If he/she lacks skills, you could feel sorry for them and try to help them grow - be a friend on their path of development - a lighthouse in the dark. Why do you care so much about whether this person is developed or not? Why is it inspiring hate? Take it a step further and look at how they see you and come up with a bullet list for that. Come up with a list of the things that you personally need to work on as well and not just them. Everyone is at their own level of development and one of the things to learn is to notice where everyone else is and accept where they are at and be grateful that the relative you is past that. Maybe you still struggle with some of those things in the list you gave and so that is why it bothers you that they are how they are?

What do you mean by people that are shapeshifters? Like you feel like you don't know the real them and they are just putting on a show of whatever is going to serve them in that moment? Sometimes I consider myself to be a narcissist. Interesting point on soaking something with emotion. Can you give some examples for that? I can see that when someone is trying to hire me and they are using lots of emotion there, I question that; or when talking to someone and they are really excited, I may question that. Or someone trying to sell a product and being excited about it or being all excited when talking about how great their company is. Sometimes it is easier to just falsify the whole thing so as to not put more projection/meaning onto something and just move on. There are an infinite amount of ways to put projection/meaning onto something and it is all relative and based on what other projections/meanings that we have already come up with/been exposed to. Interesting point of the no memory of how memory got created. I didn't fall for that one!

Watch a movie, know it isn't real but keep on forgetting and thinking it is - then react with empathy for characters during movie Wake up from sleeping and tell myself its Tuesday and look around as if it is so and then say, oh it is still Monday and then look around as if it is so There is no truth - there is only appearance. Stuff appears to be true just like stuff appears to be false. It keeps on appearing so until the appearance changes and then it appears as something else. Such as - see it as true until the form is different and then see it as a different way of now being true. Know that social norms are all made up but I keep on falling for going along with them anyway Know that I am all part of reality but then I still walk around at the gym like I am a person who walks around like how others walk around (even though I could walk around however) What do you find yourself being gullible for? How do you catch yourself/notice and then what changes after that?

I guess one thing is that with the relationship wall, it was probably more of not having a durable wall in the first place and then I built one and the experience of not having one was so bad that I made it kinda like - the experience of sleeping outside all night can be so dangerous that we make homes so the experience can be so bad of godness that we go back to human with a wall around us it is almost as if the wall is indeed physical as we shun things. we physically keep away as if the wall is keeping us away. like how a value system builds a wall and shuns other things out mentally but also because it does that it physically shuns them too BUTTT I could also easily tear the wall down or put up a door and walk through the wall - the wall could be flimsy in a way - not much keeping it together (if that is how I imagine it)

When in a relationship, we may imagine a wall of the things that we now can and cannot do because we are in a relationship but the wall may be imagined and not actually there. The same could apply to human vs. god consciousness. We imagine a wall that isn't actually there that is separating us from god vs human consciousness. Walls even though not there but we believe them to be there so we act as such. "Oh I will not do xyz because that is what the wall requires." I made up the wall and I pretend it is there. However, walls can be useful techniques and can then get you to behave a certain way - such as a wall of - oh I won't talk to other guys as I am in a relationship. So the wall you have which seems to be working is to eat a lot, have bad posture, etc. which seems to be working well but yet having some problems on your health. It can be hard to keep walls up but one can do it especially if having a super bad experience when dropping the wall. If you drop the wall and go into god mode, could you build it again and go back and forth kinda like going inside and outside a house or focusing on the inside thoughts versus outside environment.... could you architect the walls? - like put up windows or make it of various transparencies? like a chain link fence or a glass window - of which would have varying access between human and god mode or create a map so you can find your way back to human mode - which it looks like you have done that by focusing on food, posture, thoughts

@Carl-Richard I read your posts. Wow. What is the thing that allows you to stay in human mode and not god mode? What does the god mode feel like and how does that compare? What kind of "walls" do you have to imagine to keep god mode out and stay in human mode? For instance, if I pay attention to the stickiness from the sweat on my body and the way the clothes feel and the way the human body feels against the floor and the thoughts are all on perspective of everything in relation to human version me, then I can see being in human mode. How does that compare to god mode for you for the times that it has started to happen? I have had glimpses of god mode while on psychedelics and I guess it is just this notion that I am everything and there is no wall or boundary between anything - but yet I keep staying in human mode.

That then brings up using epistemology to describe how we got to where we are and how we have no memory of being born - also like in a dream no memory of how we got to the dream - or thoughts and no memory of deciding to start thinking a thought other than being deep in thought @lxlichael Definitely interested in being on team illuminati.

Wow. That was deep! Like ocean deep and just like wow. Love the imagery. It can be hard in that what we see we say is truth and it isn't until what we see changes that we then say that the new thing is truth and the old thing is false and reality keeps on shapeshifting and so notions of truth keep on changing over and over again... I am so used to assuming the floor is hard for instance, that I tend to just assume it will support me. I guess one can write up all the ways it is well known for people to be gullible/tricked and then study those: Phone call/text message scams, person knocking on front door, various advertising/mail, the way someone responds such as how well they answer the question and how thorough/detailed the answer seems, the logic used and if it makes sense and matches up with the info you had, if anything every looks off/different - look deeper there to see why it seems so, looking around at one's surroundings, tracing back to what happened previously - epistemology and how you got to where you are now, be observant, etc. It is hard to not fall for stuff anyway like getting lost in thoughts, emotions, dreams - but that can be fun as well. I keep on putting meaning/personality on everything but I guess to just make an effort to notice constantly all the meanings/personalities that are getting applied and keep on trying to take them back to the most basic meaningless/personality less thing as it was before I painted it onto it so I(we) don't get stuck.

How far into the imagined future and past are you operating from? What kind of information are you holding on to from the imagined past in your present operation (like how many seconds, weeks, years back) and same with how far forward are you imagining as well (Kinda like how different video game characters have different range of vision of the map while playing). Do you imagine something five minutes out or zero seconds out? Are you considering five seconds back, zero seconds back? Is anything proactive or is everything just reactive? Unless something has been explored before and I can see where to take it, it is otherwise new every second and there is no proactive - just reactive. It is hard to imagine what isn't there if you aren't putting in effort to imagine in the first place. If the mind keeps switching topics, it can't stay on the same topic long enough to take it far enough. But one can make a point to keep going back to a certain topic to develop it further. But then even growth could be seen as just taking something and dividing it in two and keep on dividing to create more diversity and uniqueness. Divide the "now" into future and past to create diversity from states.

@soos_mite_ah I can agree with similar notions. There is lots of decontextualizing all the social norms and programming but both men and women I would presume would have that if they use that filter. The realization that reality is genderless, unisex. We created the notion of gender. Of women, of man. But yet the stuff that we have needs and urges for is impacted by the gender. The notion that women can be just as good as men - - it is tough when men tend to have the top positions at companies, we learn more about them in textbooks, they get more sports coverage, etc. The notion that the mother's opinion is worth listening to just as much as the father's - even if say father tends to try to make his appear like his matters more The notion that yes you can speak up regardless of age, gender, and race; no you don't have to agree just because you are female and the other is male

It can be dangerous to make too solid of a plan as that then closes off options for everything that isn't part of the plan. Example - plan to make all A's and do whatever it takes to get the grades but then not developing other parts and fail horribly in those Example - plan to be super into Christianity and spend all time in that but then lose out on if that is even something that should be pursued in first place or what else there is and have to look at other stuff and not just one thing There is so much to look at and not enough time to look at everything - the futility of, I as the person in this body will never be able to learn everything and stuff will be learned by other me's that I myself would have never come up with in my present form

The whole notion of "where do you see yourself in five years?" I can't even see myself a week from now, or the next five minutes from now. Sure I could say - oh I have been doing xyz so I may be doing either more of that or that may lead to something else. Some stuff seems to lead to other stuff with a link, while other times there is just random new stuff that just kinda seems "out of the blue" Yes we could get a general plan going but we tend to never stick with the plan. there is deviation when we see that the plan wasn't all that great and then try for something that seems like it could be better with a new plan - and the plan keeps on changing/evolving. One could either A - come up with a plan and then see where it goes and deviate or B - never come up with a plan but then may never go anywhere very far - but yet will still go places but it will just bump around more. Both can be helpful.

haha I totally believed you and googled the word. I am so gullible!!

We are not in the universe, we are the universe. But as the universe, as infinity, where are we? We are all that ever is. But that is weird as I keep wanting to put myself in something. Kinda like how I keep wanting to say that there is an I in this body or that there is a universe in place X. I just imagine myself the universe as this thing floating but it isn't floating on anything... there is no up and down... there is no backwards or forwards.. past or future, inside or outside, in or out. But then like WHAT. We are everywhere but yet there is where other than here but where is here other than relative to some other where.... Or like - if the past is all imagined... then is the present imagined too and why do I keep on imaging and I keep on forgetting that I am imagining/contextualizing