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Well, maybe you're just early in this process of self discovery. Things might clear up along the journey. But if you're not excited about much, i don't know how much of what i can say would be of help. I'm a very passionate individual, so that makes it almost easy for me to come up / find a life purpose. But maybe more difficult to relate to your situation in that respect at least. At the same time, you say you have many things that kind of interest you, so that's good! Maybe exploring some of that will eventually lead to a point where you're clearer about your LP. There is this idea by cal newport which he calls "career capital" which is basically that the better you become at your chosen field or domain of mastery, it will be easier to find / come up with a mission. And a sense of mission is really a core aspect of LP. And so if you explore a few things, like let's say for the next couple of years maybe you distribute 3000 hours of skill points over 3 things. Maybe 500 1, 500 in a 2nd thing, and 2000 in a 3rd thing you ended up being more drawn to. At that point maybe you'll find like 'wow i'm starting to get really good at this shit', and then you might find that a mission will arise for you organically. But if your issue now is mental health and you find that is maybe what's mainly getting in the way of finding any genuine connection with a passion or potential purpose, maybe you need to sort that stuff out first, insofar as you haven't. At the same time, i suspect a lot of people are depressed precisely because they are disconnected from their values, main strengths and any meaningful creative outlet (essentially life purpose). But it's kind of a chicken and egg thing, you know. Like which one came first? The depression or the disconnection from creative outlet / LP? Maybe it's a bit of both. In that case maybe you'll find that you'll start feeling better as you become more and more aligned with your higher values, as you improve at things that uses your top strengths and as you work towards contributing towards something you care about (even if it's only that you care only a little bit at the beginning). Maybe by healing others you'll heal yourself. Healing through existential bliss is beautiful, so maybe giving that gift to others will be giving that same gift to yourself Are you giving that gift to yourself by the way? And about the mental health thing. I can't relate to the depression part, but i can relate to some extent to the social stuff. While i wasn’t bullied, i have social anxiety for some reason. And there was the adhd stuff as I mentioned. That's really all I had to say about that i guess lol Anyway, just feel like also giving like a disclaimer since in part i was offering some guidance or tried to say a few hopefully helpful things, I'm not an expert or anything, just a friend or fellow self-actualizer sharing my thoughts.

"Its just seems that there pretty much isnt anything I deeply care about atm" Is there anything that deeply excites you? "That comes from my semi depressed vision" Semi depressed vision of what? "What the LP course unintentionally highlighted was how mentally unhealthy I am." Do you want to share more about that?

It's cool to meet someone similar to me here! Depends on how you think of "doing allright". I wouldn't say i've achieved much in terms of conventional success yet. There has been a strong resistance to everything that hasn't been exactly what i have wanted to do. Between 2016 and 2019 i aquired a good knowledge base in personal development theory, myself and reality, on a theoretical level but also on a spiritual, existential and metaphysical level. And from 2019 until now, i've developed skills, abilties and career capital related my life purpose which is centered around philosophy. i haven't manifestated that into more concrete material success. Adhd might have played a role in this, it may have made a traditional time line harder to follow, but i feel like I'm on an unconventional but meaningful path. And where i'm on that path right now i have a fucking really good base to stand on for the future in terms of more material success. I feel like this is the direction this are going now... especially since having recently started with medication. I really resonate with your description of being on medication. i feel like I can manifest myself into the world, being more concrete than abstract. I feel medication will help manifest mental and cognitive development into more concrete, material sucess in the world.

I'm ADHD (inattentive) 27 also have critical thinking as one of top strengths. In terms of application, you could use it for lots of things. For your LP, maybe not as straightforward or immediately obvious. Personally i apply critical thinking to reasoning, philosophizing and debating really really well. As those are my domains of mastery. You mentioned you were studying philosophy, and critical thinking is obviously applicable to philosophy. You can reason better, understand things in that domain better and generate new insights with strong critical thinking abilities. But maybe philosophy isn't your domain of mastery or related to your LP or you're not super passionate about it. it sounded like it mostly wasn't, or at least i didn't get that sense. But with ADHD i think it's especially important to follow your passion! Of course, that's what you're trying to do already, but it's important to emphasize insofar as there’s more self discovery to be had & more alignment to be done. Trying to force yourself to do things you don’t genuinely want to do is probably not going to work in the long term. We (ADHDers) thrive when we're doing things we care about, so with people like us it's especially important to align our career goals with our passions and strengths.

What's CS? Cognitive science? Or perhaps computer science more likely. What's the impact you want to have with your work / life purpose? Have you understood reality yet? My LP is related to philosophy, as philosophy or philosophical debate is my my domain of mastery. Haven't (yet) studied any math beyond high school level but sense that there’s something deeply interesting, something philosophically interesting to realize in understanding certain things about mathematics.

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I understand your dilemma. The life purpose course helps if you haven't taken that already. Also as you gain more experience and develop more skill, a purpose will become more and more clear.

Sure i'm up for that! I don't really know how to do that though. Can we dm from this forum or do we have to give contact information?

Ok, so your mission is sort of to make the history is sort of to make your country less ideological and more truthful in their sense of history or in how that history is derived? Can you say which country youre in, by the way? I mean since the aim is to become a professional philosopher, i'll have to do a phd i, guess. So first step is to get into desired philosophy program/course at university. Thinking in terms of degrees isn't enough, though. I think in terms of getting really really good. I won't go into too much detail on that to not risk giving away too many details from the LP course. I'm actually currently corresponding with a professional philosopher, where we are having like a metadiscussion on what exactly is the hard problem of consciousness. And from that discussion, I'm in a process of generating pretty strong critiques of how it is was originally phrased and how it's commonly interpreted, i'd say. I suspect some of these critiques are original critiques. And I don't have any degrees yet. I'd also love to here more about the process you're going through with your LP.

Nice. Do you have an idea of what impact you want to have ultimately with this life purpose? i don't have any degree. I'm self taught so far in what I've learned, which there's still plenty left to do of course. But plan is to get a degree or a couple degrees, yeah, but also just to get really really good at this stuff, as presumebly that will lead to the best opportunities and satisfaction in the career.

Thank you, and that's awesome! So you're going to be a historian?

I am deeply passionate about philosophy and critical discussions. It's almost all I think about all the time anyway and I'm annoyed by some of the idiocy that passes for philosophy these days. So since i've managed to pick up a few skills here and there by just impulsively debating and thinking about philosophy so much as the ADHDer i am, i thought i'd go in and try to clean up some of the mess they've created in academic philosophy. Through getting dragged into philosophical discussions on the internet and listening to various philosophical content and debates on the internet over the years, i have developed strong abilties in Methodological reasoning conceptual clarity critical thinking But also some things like wisdom and love of learning. So my strengths already align with the abilities you need as a professional philosopher anyway. And more than that, i'd say that in my own assessment, i have already developed a bachelors level understanding almost entirely on my own without any formal education in philosophy. Although some of the abilities and understanding i've developed go beyond what can be captured in terms of any degree. In a sense i don't feel like I have a choice. This path has chosen me, even if it sounds corny. Currently my main target is consciousness, the hard problem of consciousness and various philosophical ideas about consciousness, but eventually i also want to address political and societal issues and affect deep change on like a systemic level. Any tips or advice? Of course, l should improve and get a phd in philosophy but besides that general advice what do you suggest i do to ace this LP?

Some of the most common debate tactics i see are attempts at distortion and evasion tactics, so misrepresenting the other side and dodging their points / questions / arguments, also known as straw man and red herring fallacies. Begging the question is also very common. I can go on and on about common dirty / misleading debate tactics. However i suspect much if not even most of the time it's done unconsciously. Theyre not aware theyre doing it.

Make ideas and beliefs illegal. Is this a joke?

I dont wanna listen to mature bald guy! I wanna listen to the immature bald guy! The mature bald guy is boring. I wanna listen to the immature bald guy and integrate the good things he says and say fuck the immature toxic stuff he says. (i do want to listen to the mature bold guy but it sounds better if i said like I did above)