Some time ago I ve noticed, that I was having more glimmers of self-awarness through the day and I was really a lot calmer than before ,but from 2 days I am bursting with energy.
Monkey mind at its best.
Can't get my thoughts together nor I can concentrate .
Do-nothing meditation does not help (previously it was really calming).
But what's interesting that my creative thinking suddenly has waken up and is delivering me a lot of insights for example:
- ideas that i could use to strengthen my weak social skills
- thoughts on sexuality ( I am from Pooland and I was growing up in homophobic/racist enviroment and still I notice such views in my classmates so it was not easy for me to switch some relay in my head and dont think like them.)
I dont know what to do with it . Should I let it flourish or try even harder to meditate through this to get back to previous state of mind because i have a lot of work to do which requires concentration and calmness.
I do not consider it as negative experience but i just dont know what the hell is going on.