Time is a projection of the human mind. Once you stop projecting it you will realize that the present moment is Eternal.
No time = Eternity = every moment exists forever

There are two theories of time called presentism (only now or it exists) and eternalism (everything exists). Personally I think that eternalism is more spot on because time is more like a measure of gradations of consciousness and infinite consciousness is not always the same. This evolution or change looks like time but imo it's just variations in consciousness. Let's say that pure consciousness is the foundation (0) - in order to build the roof, you need the walls, doors, windows and so on. Without all the construction materials (past) it is not possible to build (mind, present) the house (future or higher Self), so everything is interconnected (ONE).

I've tried it multiple times but given my thyroid condition, a vegan diet simply does not give me enough energy to function. I would have to be eating every couple of hours not to feel hungry and cold.
And I do not consume any wheat or grain products. Most vegans eat garbage grains to make up the bulk of their calories.
High carb diets do not make me feel good.

Not only that, you will jumper higher than any kangaroo naturally could.
Because they don't do it properly or because, again, their genetics are not suitable for that particular chemical.
99% of yogis simply have no access to pure and potent psychedelics.
It is, for some people. Psychedelics affect different genetics differently.
You can give a drug to some people and it heals them, others it will kill.

Sounds like he likes to share his opinions and talk about spirituality/metaphysics.  I wouldn't believe whatever he says simply because he's cool or something.  I'd look myself and see if it's actually true.  
As for the purpose and meaning thing, to me, I don't think anything has any inherent meaning or purpose outside of that which people create.  I did a retreat at Peter Ralston's (Cheng Hsin) and in it the facilitator took out a gun (not loaded) and put it on the chalk board.  Then we did an exercise where we systematically identified all the labels and meanings we could about the gun: black, kill, round, thing, gun, handle, trigger, hole, metal, shinny, hard, etc.  After a couple of minutes, to me, the gun literally was simply a blob.  I literally didn't know what it did, what it was called, or which end was up or down.  It didn't mean anything whatsoever to me.  All I saw was a thing.
This tells me that whatever meaning or purpose things have is constructed by our minds and is significantly subject to change and interpretation.  
 

You don't get the depth of the problem.
God is not trying to hide itself from you, as if playing some sick game.
God wants nothing more than to reveal itself to you as quickly and directly as possible. But you are too AFRAID to look at God.
FEAR is the only obstacle. So God must patiently wait for you to muster the courage to look at yourself.
God gave mankind psychedelics, and mankind spat in God's face by rejecting them and demonizing them out of FEAR.
So God went: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
The entire human race could have awoken long ago had psychedelics not been outlawed and demonized for thousands of years by egos out of greed, selfishness, fear, power, and sex.
Mankind is doing all this to itself. Out of fear and selfishness.
God can only give mankind a gift it is willing to receive.

@Just the mage Given that you've had this for many years now, your case seems special. I would recommend you find a yogi who's experienced in kundalini awakening and tell him your story. He should have some good advice for you.
I also recommend you read some good books about kundalini awakening. There are exercises and practices for dealing with blockages and for venting the excess energy. I am no expert on kundalini, but from what I understand you need to get the energy out of your system with physical practices. You're not supposed to bottle it up. It has to work through and out of your system. Exercises that might help you: dancing, speaking in tongues, screaming, shaking your body, Osho's dynamic meditation, physical exercise, jumping, Hatha yoga, hitting a punching bag, etc. I would look for physical ways to vent that energy which feel best for you.
If what you're describing really is kundalini activation, Western doctors are not going to help you, as they're clueless about it. In fact, they will probably give you harmful solutions. So go find a yogi.

It seems to be a spontaneous phenomena that may arise from a mystical or religious experience. It occurs for psychedelic users sometimes, so it's not an exclusively Christian thing.
There's really nothing important about it. Just a distraction from the really deep insights you should be after.

The reason this question keeps coming up and the reason you will never resolve it logically is because the answer requires a profound awakening on the question of "What is 'other'?"
You will never understand this until you have that specific kind of awakening.
You do not know what "other" is. The ego-mind CANNOT know what "other" is because it doesn't know what Self is. The more you try to logically understand other, the more deluded you become.

If you are not ready to trip, do not trip. That's my rule. It has to feel "right". It's a bit like launching a rocket. You make a plan to launch tomorrow, but that doesn't mean you will launch if something looks off on launch day. You abort and wait for another good day. And if you have to abort several days in a row, that tells you that you maybe shouldn't trip this month -- that you have more integration work to do.

There are healthy and unhealthy ways. Depends on how you do it.
If you take 10g of mushrooms, yeah, it will be traumatizing.
It's hard to know where the line is until you cross it.
After 30 days of 5-MeO-DMT, I crossed that line and had to back off. But that took 30 days of epic tripping to cross it.
And everyone's different, so no one can tell you where your line is.
Facing fear is a requirement of Love.

Hi everyone  
I am excited to announce a little project I've been working on for the past couple of months.
The Actualized.org Textbook!
I have assembled a document of summaries of foundational Actualized.org videos based on the "Start Here" section of the website. In addition, there are some extra video summaries at the end.
A lot of these summaries were written by me but I would also like to acknowledge that a very major part of the work came from the video summary thread and also some YouTube comments. I would like to thank @Juan Cruz Giusto, @TimStr, @Huz, @Nic, @Hello from Russia, @AleksM, and @Dan Arnautu from this forum for their significant and very helpful contributions. 
I have tried as best I can to standardise the format, but doing this perfectly would take a massive amount of time. So please do note that the summaries are written by different authors with different stylistic preferences, some with English as a second language. Secondly, there are still small mistakes and probably some typos that I haven't picked up.
This document is best suited for:
-People who have seen the videos and want brief notes
-People who are up to speed with the latest videos and have followed for a while, understanding the conceptual frameworks within spirituality
 
For complete newbies, or people who have recently joined, the summaries may confuse you a little so I recommend you watch the original videos. A lot of the nuance and subtlety is lost in text.
Also,
This is version 1.0 and I have linked word and pdf attachments to this post. 
You are free to download them and modify them as you see fit. However, if you wish to update this version (i.e. fixing mistakes or adding in more fundamental videos) for the community, please keep a couple of things in mind:
- There is a changelog on the 2nd page, so please insert changes made and also update the version number (i.e 1.1 from small fixes or 2.0 when a significant amount of content is added)
- Also, please consider that when content is added, page numbers may not sync up so you will have to update them.
 
Think of this as the textbook for the undergraduate course.
- Watching the video is like going to class
- The textbook is like all your classes in one place in note form.
- To get a good grasp and to orientate yourself you will need a massive theory base at the beginning (i.e an 3-4 year undergrad degree)
- Taking action and watching the advanced videos will be like post-graduate study
- Doing this work seriously and taking massive amounts of action, and going off on your own is like doing a PhD
 
You need to get the basic theory down BUT YOU MUST NOT GET LOST IN THEORY AND CONCEPTS. Orientate yourself, and go take action (a Masters/PhD candidate does experiments in the lab, he doesn't just sit in lecture theatres) 
My main reason for assembling this is I see a lot of wasted time on the forum (myself included) of theorising and arguing and advanced people not communicating at the newbie level to newbies. Don't get me wrong, the forum is a great place and many people have helped me here (thank you!)
This is my parting gift to the community. I saw that I avoided doing the work by visiting the forum too much so I will be leaving to do the work for the next 5-10 years. My main focus is embodying and fully integrating stage orange, green, and yellow, as well as doing the spiritual practices and planning for psychedelic retreats.
Finally, @Leo Gura, I'm so sick of hearing your voice. I've probably listened to 20 of your videos in the last 3 days  I only now have caught a tiny glimpse of how much work has been put in by you over the past 5 years. Thank you for what you do! I'll still be sticking around for the advanced stuff  
Actualized Textbook.docx
Actualized Textbook.pdf

@Khron Your problem isn't sex, it's the inability to relate to people in an intimate and loving way where you don't use them as objects to satisfy your survival.
You see, no one has taught you how to consciously relate to people. You think of people like pawns to satisfy your needs. Fundamentally you fear true loving relationship. The ego-mind cannot truly love or relate because it is too needy and fearful of losing itself in the process.
Focus on working on Self-Love.
A psychedelic can be very helpful here to gain clarity and heal yourself. Then you will be able to relate better to others.
Stop thinking of intimacy as some box you must check off Maslow's list in order to be happy. Rather see it as an expression of your ability to Love, which is the whole point of life: to learn how to Love more deeply and selflessly.
Love is not about getting love from others. Love is about raising your consciousness to the point where you are radiating love out to the world and the world reflects it back at you.
You can start to heal by loving the fact that you enjoy sex, porn, masturbation, and intimacy. There is nothing wrong with these things. Stop shaming and guilting yourself for being a highly sexual creature. Sex is an amazing aspect of God! It is a beautiful thing! You'd have to be a zombie not to like it.
The whole no-fap shaming movement is toxic and counter-productive. You can't shame and guilt yourself into abstainence. Give yourself the love you need, but do it consciously.
There are healthy ways to masturbate and you can still pursue sex and relationships. These are not mutually exclusive things. Don't blame your virginity on masturbation. The problem there is lack of responsibility and inaction in socializing/dating.

I haven't done DMT yet in large doses, only small doses.
I have been busy exploring and integrating other molecules.
No doubt DMT is awesome. But 5-MeO-DMT is awesomest
One of my biggest gripes about DMT is that I don't like vaping things. The trip is too short and it's bad for your lungs. So I was looking for good methods of taking it rectally or orally, but that presents complications. I have yet to perfect my DMT method.
Also, once you discover the power and perfection of 5-MeO-DMT, you will be so happy you will want nothing else. It is literally perfection. I have to force myself to explore lesser molecules.

I don't like brewing some nasty vomit-inducing sludge.
You can eat pure N,N-DMT + harmala, but that requires observing the MAOI diet.
DPT gives a solid 3 hour trip and it's super visionary. I imagine it's similar to Aya. And you can plug DPT and it has no tolerance.

This will vary a lot from person to person.
125ug is a full God-consciousness for me.

I've refined the recipe and now I add lemon juice to the soup in the last 5-10 mins. I also don't add olive oil any more. I add butter to the serving bowl. This makes the pot easier to clean with no clingly oil. Butter tastes WAY better than olive oil. I also add frozen peas for more protein.

Mushrooms feel toxic because they are. You need to do an alcohol extraction to remove all the toxic junk.

Plugging substances should be more potent than swallowing them.
Always plug if you can. It bypasses digestion and you get the purest taste of the molecule. Digestion can alter the molecule and produce a derivative trip. Plugging vs oral can have qualitative differences.

You got it backwards. It makes no sense to take a thing orally if you can plug it.
Make plugging your primary method, with all others secondary, to be used only if plugging doesn't work for some reason.
The only things I wouldn't plug are N,N-DMT, salvia, mushrooms, and LSD. If it comes in a powder, plug it.
And I have tried plugged N,N-DMT and even salvia. Unfortunately they don't work that way.

Why not alternate between both so you taste more of the rainbow?
Use one as a foil for the other to deepen you understanding of how consciousness works. That's why I try many difference substances and not just stick to 5-MeO.

This will vary a lot from person to person.
Of course all practice helps. So it's a good idea to try it and maybe do some visualization exercises to program that into your mind.
But ultimately the trip itself will do most of the work. Literally all you gotta do is trust it and let go and let it show you God. That's it! It will show you exactly what you need next to reach towards God. Sometime that will be God itself. But often times it will first show you psychological baggage which is holding you back from facing God directly.

Actually I would caution against this for you. Shamans are known to give huge doses, they make you vape it, and the toad venom isn't gonna have a consistent potency because no two toads are the same.
The safest way to take 5-MeO-DMT is synthetic, and plugged up your butt.

Again, be cautious. I am not responsible for your health or death.
But the nice thing with 5-MeO-DMT is that you can plug a tiny amount of it and just feel minor effects and slowly ramp up from there. So you should be able to gently inch your way up very carefully and feel if there is any blood pressure problems or heart problems. You can even measure your blood pressure while you're on it.
5-MeO-DMT makes my body feel good. It actually temporarily frees me of all my health problems. You just have to learn to surrender to it and then it feels amazing. The come-up only lasts from 5 mins to 15 mins. After the 15 min mark you will be tripping hard but the bodily stuff is behind you. Of course this assumes you surrender to it. If you resist it, oh boy... that might be hell. I'm too scared to dare resisting 5-MeO-DMT. Once that thing is in you, you better surrender immediately.
I can foresee some serious heart issues if your dose goes 30mg+. That's when your consciousness will become so infinite that your heart will melt and explode out your chess in Love. There will be kundalini activation and all sorts of crazy shit can happen. But I never go that far. I keep my dose to 25mg max. Which is still crazy strong for me.

That may be wise. I'm no doctor.
But also, once you get used to 5-MeO-DMT, it doesn't really put pressure on the heart. The heart pressure and blood pressure will naturally rise if you are freaked out over ego-death. But if you surrender calmly, nothing should rise. The 5-MeO-DMT is challenging mentally, not so much physically. At least when plugged.
But yeah, in your case it might be too dangerous. Then again, you say you did 10g shrooms so...
I would be more scared of 10g shrooms than 5-MeO-DMT. I find shrooms to be one of the most challenging substances aside from salvia.
I definitely caution you guys to be careful with 5-MeO-DMT. I am very careful with it, and even so, I've had some challenging times. Exploring consciousness can be dangerous activity. Then again, Peter Ralston has jumped off roof-tops in his youth and fought in deadly tournaments -- so he's not exactly above dangerous things. I think martial arts is more dangerous than moderately dosed psychedelics.