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Read this whole page — better yet, the whole book if you want real change. https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-iv-insight/30-the-progress-of-insight/3-the-three-characteristics/

Seeking ends when all experiences are equally spiritually effective. There are no more answers that could be found which would be anything more than a pleasant illusion. You know nothing could ever be said to be a higher level than where you already are. Full enlightenment always means a consistent, untangled, and absolute insight into no-self, suffering, and impermanence.

If we become accountability partners, you’ll be introduced to lots of madness and suffering. If you’re cool with that, let’s go.

This is the perfect opportunity to investigate the three characteristics in Buddhism. You can create the suffering sensations as a meditation object and view their impermanence, non self nature, and the dissatisfaction of experience. At least that’s what I’d do. You’ll probably notice as your insight increases your suffering will likely fade.

The process of illusion falling away has that capability. That’s all a fully enlightened person is. It’s a temporary “experience” with no ground whatsoever as they have attained untangled perception in relation to all three doors of enlightenment — no self, suffering in all experience, and impermanence. It is the fully direct unbecoming of the present moment into sensations which are pure illusion. Death, consciousness, god, love, truth, etc. all fall away and have no inherent lasting quality to them. Every God or enlightenment experience you create is just a better and more pleasing illusion. The three doors dismantle notions such as nonexistence as they show the instability of nonexistence which relies on existence as a ground. The one who comes back from nonexistence and is shown to outlast all is the process of decay and change in relation to everything. Reality is not made of nouns. Reality is made of verbs due to the nature of impermanence. Enlightenment is becoming the verb of everything arising and passing in the only access point to insight which is the present illusion “you” find yourself in.

Thanks for the reply. This would not be an issue as what you described as that trained state is the enlightenment state in part. You become nothing and everything which is capable of producing any experience. You realize that the creativity and imagination of childhood were just as insight filled and enlightened illusions as any other temporary experience. The truth and illusion in sensation is a structural, ever present thing. This is enlightenment. The craziest hell realms of suffering would be more pleasant for “me” now than being on the playground as a child being only enlightenment but having no knowledge of your own true nature as the process of all things coming into being and falling away simultaneously.

“You never began” is an illusion as well though. You did begin this instant in your memory. This is fusing no-self with God. If there’s a beginning to which things could be said to not come from, it still exists as a partial illusory paradigm to explain the inexplicable.

The universe is also into beastiality. Let’s not give congratulations too soon.

Enlightenment and truth were always present. It’s not about creating some new enlightenment. It’s about throwing away everything posing as enlightenment or not enlightenment. When you can’t distinguish between death and life or truth and illusion, you’ve seen through the whole illusion. You become something that’s only true staying power and permanence rests in its ability to be so impermanent that it can be anything. The only basis for a truth that lasts in impermanent experience is realizing the process of death and change is not a self. You’re always going to have death and change in reality, but once you transcend by dying completely, you realize that not even death and impermanence can explain what is going on as lasting impermanence as impermanence cannot exist without an illusion of something which could be permanent.

Death and constant impermanence is what remains. There is no consistent bundle of sensations you could mistake as a self. Everything just morphs as sensations always disappearing into something new. The idea that you are contained within what was born is precisely what keeps people from the no self aspect of the three doors to awakening.

I’ve found that believing one has the capability to reach any possibility is required for higher level work. There’s a reason there are so many talking about being God, everything, etc. If they don’t realize the whole lifetime of any Buddha was created and destroyed in a specific set of sensations they are investigating always after those sensations disappear, it isn’t true oneness. There can’t be the idea that there is even a being to be fully enlightened once it has occurred. Any self that is attached to the concept of enlightenment in someone’s conscious experience other than the sensations occurring and falling away right now is hopelessly distant from actual enlightenment.

I’m not making this post from anything but helpless perfect oneness coming into the simultaneity of sensations immediately arising and passing. There isn’t even a present moment to hold on to.

All experiences are still illusions in a dream world. You have to move out of the realm of experience and a permanent consciousness god imagination to rather the possibility of nonexistence, no consciousness, and the ending of everything if you want maximum results.

Three characteristics contemplation practice is what will create lasting results. Good luck. Smash some formless jhanas open.

Especially if you believe or even can imagine or experience anything like solipsism. That’s what oneness is. It was my first ever awakening experience at age 4 lol. If it’s all you, you are all knowledge, awakenings, buddhas, gods, jhanas, enlightened beings, dharma, nonexistence, magic, fiction, beauty, deception, sexuality, meta cognition, genius, clumsiness, etc. ad infinitum.

Lmfao this is all duality. You’re everything. Including illusion. There’s no separation between consciousness and objects of consciousness. It’s all passing sensations that immediately cease to exist and change into a new “pattern” or conscious experience.

You unlocked the madness magic part of the mind. Congratulations. You’ve been creating it all along, but now you can finally make quick progress with or without drugs. You just have more fluidity in consciousness. Use the three characteristics of Buddhism (no self, suffering in all experience, and impermanence) to investigate these radical experiences.

You exist beyond death but also can never touch death for true no self is no longer any experience at all. But experience ultimately comes back online after this. Seeing this and having lasting insight on this is only done by the fully enlightened.

If you can only get high with substances, it seems like an ability out of your control. When you can break all possible laws of experience using a natural understanding of insight alone, you can be Perfection in any state and even beyond states. Drugs help develop insight if used right with contemplation though. But they are there to show you the possibility to do things even psychedelics can’t trigger with your own inherent nature as nonexistence and existence simultaneously.

Yes, the character realizes it can never exist, there is no present moment, and enlightenment is eternal death. Death is what gives beauty to everything. God doesn’t make it to full enlightenment because any experience is an illusion. You have to survive nonexistence to realize what full enlightenment is. Partial enlightenment can happen to the living, but the thing beyond both life and death is all that “experiences” enlightenment. This is parinibbana.

Work on your normal life and continue serious spiritual practice. If you become fully enlightened, you won’t care whether your finances are good or not. It’s honestly the best retirement plan — a retirement which is just as rich and well lived whether there is lots of money or no money. Always side with Truth. People love to talk about maintaining the relative side of things, and this is precisely what causes suffering for everyone.

Time is one of the things that gives the illusion of solidity. Even the present moment is an illusion.

I would give the advice to just be more honest about who you are. This honesty will likely create conflict and suffering in the short term until they realize it is useless to push you any further on the issue of having kids. If this is creating the level of suffering you are talking about, politely saying “I don’t feel like having kids” is not being honest. You feel much more strongly about it. It’s probably best to slowly reveal the full truth rather than show the full intensity of your feelings on the subject immediately.

You do spirituality to increase insight. Insight is a bridge between dualities. The deeper and more intrinsic a duality is, the more progress can be made from it. Leo is right. The ego does not get the power of God. By the time you can create whatever you want, you’ll realize the nature of experience and see that preferring anything over what you already have in front of you is pointless. If you are attached to manifesting one million dollars, you still would have to be under the illusion that there is a self who could benefit from one million dollars and believe that that money could somehow create anything other than an impermanent experience of suffering. The ego gets brought to its complete and final destruction through the three characteristics which are always baked into any experience. This is why Buddha called nirodha samapatti (the cessation of perception and feeling) nibbanic bliss. It’s the bliss of no longer existing. The most satisfying experience is no experience at all, and you can’t know that satisfaction until you have direct experience of going from samadhi, the ultimate absorption into the limits of experience, into the passing away of that most unimaginable experience into the impossibility which is the lack of consciousness, lack of existence, lack of God, lack of truth, lack of illusion, etc. If there wasn’t illusion, there’d be nothing at all. This isn’t the nothingness people talk about in spirituality. That nothingness is still a bundle of subtle sensations creating the possibility for experience. We’re talking about something so alien and plain that it could never be uncovered. There would be no distinctions in anything. Distinction and duality are the illusion, but without distinction, there would be no way to point to or even be truth. Nibbanic bliss is like being a Holocaust victim then going to deep sleep and having the relief of being completely detached from the miseries of your previous day except the enlightened person has the experience of ultimate reality and God which they are escaping from. They have reached the maximum temporary satisfaction that could be held in experience yet still want more. The only result is the complete loss of everything. It’s the dissolution of any possibility of self, suffering, and impermanence which is the best gift. Losing everything is the best gift. You can’t reach that dissolution experientially. After tasting that bliss, you realize that anything that could ever be real or formed or experienced is intrinsically tied to suffering. Any self you hold onto long enough to create a goal is guaranteed to create suffering. When fully enlightened, you become the arising and passing of everything simultaneously while also being absolutely certain there is no continuity that could ever accurately be called a self. You recognize that the present moment is itself an illusion. As soon as something can be perceived, it’s already gone. Even to say there is motion, activity, perception, distinction, consciousness, or truth is to imagine that any of these things could be defined in a way that lasts. There’s absolutely nothing to hold on to and no ability to choose whether to hold on or let go. A definition is a self. If whatever goal you want spiritually can still be defined, it isn’t the highest attainment.

Moldavite worked well for me. It’s all about the belief you give it.