BipolarGrowth

I like this. Good response.

Honest answer ? I’ve found it quite insightful to find yourself in a state of Love where the mosquito’s sustenance is seen as more important than the minimal pain and risk of disease you incur. On the other hand, if you get West Nile virus, maybe it makes you less capable of bringing more Love to the world as a whole.

I second this. Don’t try solo trips without a good amount of personal experience first.

I second this. Ayahuasca in ceremony can be truly magical. The ceremony atmosphere, integration, and support from facilitators can really upgrade the experience heavily.

Not a bad point, but I’d say if he’s feeling guided to do this it may be right for him. It’s definitely not a clear case of me saying “Go use psychedelics now!” Being hesitant to make that decision should be embraced. He’s got to really consider if this is right. If anything I came to this thread with a similar reaction to what most here have been saying. I only posted this line of thinking to add more holistic understanding. Blowing away of the ego also doesn’t typically occur at the lower doses I suggested trying if he feels inclined to work with these tools this early on. We really have no ability to project with any certainty if this will be a negative or positive outcome, so caution, research, and clear consideration is definitely encouraged for our friend here.

Both great suggestions. I’d say your dose might just be too low for your personal neurochemistry if it’s not giving noticeable changes.

People saying not to do it before this or that age do not understand how brain plasticity relates to psychedelic use. Your brain is more plastic at a young age. Plenty of cultures have been using psychedelics in younger demographics with no negative measurable differences that have been backed up. The idea that psychedelics must be used after 21, 25, etc. is a novel idea from mainly western cultures rather sparsely exposed to psychedelics themselves. Keep the doses very low especially as you are getting your feet wet. Go listen to this expert if you disagree. If you’re an expert in this area with solid data, feel free to bring up an argument against what he reveals.

This is described very in depth in the stages of insight in Buddhism. You were almost certainly in an Arising & Passing away insight stage experience during the trip then fell into a light form of the Dark Night of the Soul insight stages upon seeing all the blissful and fun stuff prove to be impermanent and therefore unsatisfying. You can learn more about the stages of insight here if you’re interested: https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-iv-insight/30-the-progress-of-insight/3-the-three-characteristics/ Shoot me a PM if you want to go more in depth.

Subjective present moment experience is the only household for Absolute Truth that can be imagined, known, constructed, detected, verified empirically, etc. Anything claiming against that notion is occurring within the subjective present moment experience and just pointing right back at the truth of the first sentence. This dream, that dream, this reality, that reality, past, future, whatever way you want to think of it, always occurs as subjective present moment experience. You don’t go to one place that is “The Truth” on psychedelics. You get pointed in the direction of concluding that all dreams occur within Absolute Truth which is always here and now. To put it very roughly…

I built a real estate investing company starting at 22 mostly thanks to PD. The business went from $60k invested to $180k net worth in less than 4 years working on it about 1 hour a month average. Money is a hollow goal for the most part. When you get into the deeper stuff money is seen for what it is. I’d rather be homeless with the spiritual/perceptual gains than rich without them. Downplay the higher tier stuff if you want. Shooting yourself in the foot is fun to some people I guess? But really you’re probably not meant to be pursuing those “higher” goals right now if you’ve got this mindset. Go get some money and relationships and see that it doesn’t ultimately satisfy. Or maybe it does satisfy for you. Either way, it’s a win for you.

All one can know for certain is what is in their subjective experience at the precise moment being sensed. All conclusions made from what is being directly sensed are a foundation of shifting sand. The final claim at the end of your post also relies on there being anything you could ever accurately call a “you.”

Twin flame basically means you meeting a mirror. They will be a completely different personal with all of their own complexities and uniqueness, but a core of what they are, in my opinion on a very deep spiritual level, will be so close to you that it’s like meeting the core of yourself in another. My advice is keep researching completely new methods from time to time. For me I was essentially pulled to all the right things at the right times through an intuitive process. Don’t drop the methods you have until you find something quite better, and always allow yourself to return to previous methods if the time feels right. This is just what works for me. Maybe a more consistent single technique with huge discipline works for you. I found that doing that only felt allergic to me and caused painful stagnation.

Good starting resource on the chakras. https://isha.sadhguru.org/us/en/wisdom/article/7-chakras-mystical-dimensions-body-seven-chakras

You should start looking at the OCEAN personality test. It’s much more effective from what I’ve seen experts saying. You’re simplifying enlightenment and people in general though quite a bit by saying everyone in a certain category can’t awaken. Look at enough data, and you’ll find you were in hasty generalization territory. I’d bet on it. Enlightenment betting? We should totally start that… ?

Try to take a broad approach to spirituality which is beyond just meditation, trips, Actualized videos, etc. For example, finding my twin flame lead pretty directly to my first experience of 8th Jhana and cessation, all while combined with somewhat new and radical nondual Christianity, surrendering to a non-physical and non-human guru, opening of my chakras with telepathic communication that works in completely sober life which was only discovered by luck and intuition, etc… That’s really just the tip of the iceberg which allowed me to open psychedelics to their potential. When you start to open up, heroic dose trips are seen as less beneficial. I discovered that THC was my main transformative aid beyond regular/serotonergic psychedelics. What before practicing spirituality for 7 years would’ve make me laugh with friends and eat junk food was now capable of giving me heroic dose type experiences in a sustainable way which could be practiced far more frequently. Eventually, even that tool wasn’t even necessary. It was more like an extra lubricant than anything. Open your eyes to all methods and possibilities, and allow your intuition to guide you to the right techniques. That is what worked for me.

I see this work in terms of yoga which is basically union. You can’t be in union without the Absolute and the relative. The relative human wants love more than anything at the basic, pre-spiritual level. When the desire for relative love meets Absolute Love, the union is complete in a very important way. There are always more things to bring into union such as tacos and 28 dimensional aliens, however, the Absolute Love and relative love union is possibly the most integral and important one to occur on the spiritual journey. Consciousness without Love is empty to the core of the relative human experience.

I’d say to try to use mindfulness and vipassana when you run into the rejection. Not only is it ripe territory to develop spiritual practice, it will make you less reactive overall while you’re still capable of feeling the emotions fully. You can think fully and use the emotional guidance rather than being in “emotional overload” reactivity. Be careful of calling romantic love an addiction. An addiction has to be a net negative impact on your life for it to be an addiction, according to the definitions I’ve seen at least which I think have merit to them. Keep putting yourself out there in a romantic sense. It’s probably best to explore this avenue if you’re being pulled back to it continuously. If it ends up feeling like a dead end, give it a break for a while and come back later when it feels like a better time.

Is saying that infinity cannot have an end not limiting it even if it is essentially the definition? Even saying infinity is undefinable is a definition which restrains it. If everything in experience is equally God, how can God be detected as something to even be loosely defined in the first place? Are some things more God than others? Can God cease to exist? Why not? It was never born and hasn’t stopped yet = it can never stop? … maybe. Are you honestly accessing enough direct experience to speak with solid ground that you know whether the apparently limitless is truly limitless? How many times in your life has your deepest understanding been replaced? Could your current understanding not be another step which is mostly incomplete and false yet seems like the golden prize? Subjective experience appears to be occurring. Beyond that, to say that anything else is not fair game seems like an assumption no matter how solid the evidence, reasoning, past direct experience, future projections, or anything else you can pull on. It’s like you’re on a raft of shifting sand, and you’re trying to stand on it to get through a tsunami. If we take away a Buddha’s serotonin to just enough for him/her to barely live, are they still a Buddha? Are they still “awake?” If we use the scale of evolution from single-celled organisms to human beings, are we closer to single-celled organisms or chimpanzees when it comes to approaching actual Infinity, God, etc? Or are there some humans who are right on the money? Many of us here, myself included, seem to get great progress toward Truth through chemical means (typically psychedelics on the extreme end of the spectrum). Even meditation runs in many ways off of neurochemical shifts. Water fasts are doing similar things. Would humans with 100 fold processing power on a chemical level beyond the best of what humanity can reach now come to the same conclusions about God, Infinity, Absolute Love, etc? Would humans with live and complete access to all human collective knowledge come to the same conclusion? Would humans with maximum mastery of all spiritual faculties at once come to the same conclusions? Would a subjective present moment experience with all of these at once come to the same conclusions? Now imagine something way beyond that. Do we really know much? Do we know if the human body can even survive actually accessing the deepest levels of Truth? I feel like at best we’re like the philosophers who theorized an atom way before there was evidence for them when the Truth is much closer to Inter-dimensional cable from Rick and Morty being played beneath the emptiness underneath the heart of all strings (referring to string theory). “If I see a man armed only with a sword attack a group of machine guns, I shall consider his act to be absurd. But it is so solely by virtue of the disproportion between his intention and the reality he will encounter, of the contradiction I notice between his true strength and the aim he has in view. Likewise we shall deem a verdict absurd when we contrast it with the verdict the facts apparently dictated. And, similarly, a demonstration by the absurd is achieved by comparing the consequences of such a reasoning with the logical reality one wants to set up. In all these cases, from the simplest to the most complex, the magnitude of the absurdity will be in direct ratio to the distance between the two terms of my comparison. There are absurd marriages, challenges, rancors, silences, wars, and even peace treaties. For each of them the absurdity springs from a comparison. I am thus justified in saying that the feeling of absurdity does not spring from the mere scrutiny of a fact or an impression, but that it bursts from the comparison between a bare fact and a certain reality, between an action and the world that transcends it.” -Albert Camus Great quick video on absurdity and Camus. It’s starts sounding nihilistic but ends with a resolution. There seems to be a certain absurdity inherent to the entire journey toward Truth. The further along I go, the more of what I actually know moves to feeling like 10% to be 1%, .1%, .01%, etc. until I’m basically sitting on Socrates’ lap when he first said “I know that I know nothing.” If anything I’ve definitely learned a lot of great techniques to align with the human mind’s feeling as if it is moving toward Truth. Beyond learning or knowing, it has certainly developed me in some helpful ways in relative life. It’s made my experience of life feel to be much better and greatly reduced my suffering. The Absolute Truth hot dog dangling on a stick connected to your forehead which constantly is in front of your eyes does seem to do that pretty reliably if you do it long enough. It also seems to make the world a better place in a relative sense for the most part when done well, so by all means don’t stop doing it if it’s your thing. It’s definitely my thing or at least a part of my thing. As great as the feeling of finding Absolute Truth is, it is the journey toward Truth itself which matters most. Even if we only go from a delusional starting point to a delusional ending point, at least you can say you really tried and hopefully found meaning and happiness in pursuing Truth. (Video for the Inter-dimensional cable reference. Part of the reason for this reference is to point to the possible absurdity which might be at play when trying to approach the Truth in its fullness) — The way I see it is that this running underneath all phenomena is a drop in the ocean compared to the level of odd possibilities which could actually be occurring. I’ve had quite a few run ins with such oddities. Don’t take this as me asserting anything necessarily. That’s really not the point. I don’t know a damn thing lol.

I’m trying to man. Getting a job and using vipassana/mindfulness to live a normal life in a spiritual way is the goal for now. I recognize that things will get easier over time as I perfect my craft and slowly gain a following. I find that 1-on-1 teaching and just friendships around spirituality are entirely rewarding enough for now. Making a living through spirituality is just a nice pipe dream to make into reality once I learn plumbing to manipulate the pipes in the best ways lol. The most important parts of my life purpose can be done with that or without it, but it does seem nice.

No psychedelics. No meditation. No nothing. If you can truly operate with the fully held belief that you are the ABSOLUTE hottest shit off of any block ever conceived of anywhere in any time or non time, reality, dream, or anything else, God will eradicate the shit out of your ego resulting in unavoidable TOTAL SURRENDER in pretty quick succession resulting in Love so infinite that your field of visual perception will be reduced to about 3 cm of grass and dirt. You’ll call 911 because the Love of God is annihilating you so hard. You’ll tell the 911 operator that you love her, and she’ll say she loves you back. At least that’s my experience. This took place several months ago. The cocky to humble rubber band can yield many fruits. Don’t knock it till ya try it.

I command the world’s most well-known devil figure of all time to give me spiritual awakenings. If any devil wants to tango, I’m game. You can certainly have rather transformational experiences from interacting with “negative” spiritual entities, but at the end of the day, you run the show. It’s not something above you to fear. When it’s all Love, you realize the devil can be a pretty cool imaginary guy to have on your imaginary team. Why must you disprove a devil? Go deeper into this work, and you’ll probably lose all fear of a devil.

This is a circle jerk. You said please help me not please debate me on a useless topic. I know this topic goes nowhere. Even if it is true, what are you gonna do about it? As someone said, this is not falsifiable which is what I was trying to lead you to feel in my response.

Conflation of the ego self and Self while in your first taste of oneness is what happened. Focus on asking yourself the question “Who am I?”

You’re right on a conceptual level operating on infinite bias just like anyone else ??

God damn it this devil is giving me one hell of an amazing life. I guess it’s time to change who I worship. Do you know how to give him my thanks in a way he’ll get the message? How do you prove God is not controlling the devil to give you the best opportunity to grow in life? Maybe he’s just a middleman puppet and nothing to fear.