BipolarGrowth

There are absolutely no rights or liberties that are limited because of my diagnosis or medical history. There is actually quite a bit of legislation to protect me from any sorts of discrimination. I highly doubt you need to worry about this unless you live in China, Yemen, or some other God forsaken country. Any modern western country should be quite safe in this regard. Unless you are an actual and persistent danger to society, they’re not going to lock you up somewhere and throw away the key.

Buddhist enlightenment has absolutely nothing with being consciousness! The five aggregates, one of them being consciousness, are directly taught to NOT be you. This is reiterated again and again. If someone has told you that Buddhism teaches that you are consciousness, that person has no idea what Buddhism is. Whatever that teaching is, it is the opposite of Buddhism. Nothing in the phenomenal world is you in Buddhism.

By the definition of the people around me, I’ve definitely lost my mind many times. “Psychotic features” is part of my medical diagnosis. The medical records from my various manic and depressive episodes are several hundreds of pages long from just one institution of the many I’ve been to. The mind for some people can be an easy thing to lose, but I’d say it’s far rarer for it to stay lost. The entire society around you will pressure you back to sanity if you do lose your mind for a time. Your brain will not want to stay that far out of homeostasis for long either. The sorts of neurochemical processes which cause insanity come at a high cost and are difficult for the brain and body to sustain.

If you haven’t lost your mind, you cannot fully understand what a “mind” is. You can think of it working similar to how you don’t really understand what gravity is until you experience zero gravity. You can’t know what health is until you are injured or sick. Going on walks is a good idea. Cleaning is also good. Whatever “normie” activities you can think of should serve well. Doing physical work can also be quite grounding.

So you are God, other is a dream. FABRICATION MISSING THE POINT Now what ? 2 choices in front of you : 1- You are God, alone and the only conscious one > life is pointless and empty FABRICATION MISSING THE POINT 2- Infinite intelligence chose to live this life which gives to your life an infinite value to enjoy it and live it like you would imagine it > life is meaningful and full FABRICATION MISSING THE POINT As God you are free to chose 1 or 2, but as infinitely smart you are, if you chose to live life in my opinion the best idea to chose is number 2 FABRICATION MISSING THE POINT Solipsism blah blah this that FABRICATION MISSING THE POINT

Life isn’t going the way your ego wants it to which causes you deep suffering and dissatisfaction. Welcome to planet Earth. If succeeding in school is what you want advice on so that you’ll be happy as a result, I’ll skip the bullshit and give you no advice for that as it is a fool’s errand if your goal is to actually feel better about life and feel better about yourself. You are focusing your efforts on a solution that doesn’t work in the first place. Even if you outcompete your peers academically, this will be a hollow victory. You will have put in tons of effort to fight against the expression of your natural traits in order to still feel empty. You can skip that nonsense and feel empty now. If you want to be in a higher socioeconomic status than your peers, having good money habits and investing in something would serve you better anyway.

It SEEMS like you’re talking about an illusion, but the notion and sense that there is an illusion is illusory, or at least it seems to be the case. Why all this talk of dancing fairy ventriloquists when they’re nowhere to be found?

I’m flat broke, and I ain’t buying none of it! 😂 I need a discount if I’m buying any of this BS 🙂

Saying Infinite Nothing is just another type of something. Nothing would not be posting on a forum @Javfly33!

I think your task is to stop letting your mind live in the psych ward now that you are out. It sounds like it was traumatic and quite shitty, but this is now a thing of the past. Enjoy your freedom.

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I used to stare at the center of the x at the top right of a browser as a meditation technique when I had a boring retail job that gave plenty of downtime. There would become a clear point/dot within the center of the x while sufficiently concentrated or focused. It was a fun method. It’s interesting that you mention vision becoming clearer, because my vision would become cloudy and eventually slightly psychedelic/trippy the longer I stared. My eyes would become dry which is part of why this happened. Blinking a few times would bring my vision back to normal.

I’m surprised to see someone here get this considering how much of an idol people have made of consciousness here. Good job.

Considering he is a “f**ing douche,” I’d think he most likely does.

The creator of the thread has questions about Christianity, so I answer those questions. I think you’re the one who doesn’t understand.

The Holy Spirit in a Christian context is essentially the entity and/or process which gives a person what they deem to be a spiritual experience which verifies the teachings of Christianity. From what I’ve gathered, to blasphemy the Holy Spirit is to experience that Jesus is Lord and God is who and what Christians claim He is and then deny the accuracy of the Christian path. If this is in fact the case, I’m fucked because I’ve done precisely that in a sense. I’ve had plenty of radical spiritual experiences in the context of Christianity which convinced me of its truth, but now I’ve changed gears and favor a much different outlook.

Spiritual progress is your best bet for improving depressive symptoms, but exercise is quite good also as people have said here. Get more sunlight, or buy a light therapy device (highly recommended). A device for $50 on Amazon works just fine. Go for a walk outside if you can while depressed. Get moving, change your environment, get a haircut. A plant-based diet might help. Keep in mind that sleep is a HUGE factor in bipolar disorder. Less sleep tends to induce mania. Too much sleep tends to induce depression. Most importantly, it is going to help you more in the long run to find ways to be extremely depressed without it phasing you or causing you to act out against your best interest. Check out this website: https://www.bipolaradvantage.com/all-courses/bio/ The methodology taught there is based off of increasing your capacity to better handle a greater range of mental and emotional states. You will not become better at living with the disorder if your goal is to remove all symptoms. That will not work. You must instead learn to groove and boogie through life just fine whether in a deep depression or strong manic episode. This is of course easier said than done. Medication can help a lot, but it took me a lot of spiritual progress before I could tolerate a high amount of medication without the side effects ruining me. If you’re serious about improving your depression, I’d suggest looking into Buddhism and practicing it. The main focus of Buddhism is to solve the problem of suffering which no other major tradition can claim to the same degree. How I Deal with Depression from Someone Who Has Bipolar Disorder & Pursued Enlightenment for 9 Years How to Overcome Bipolar Disorder 🍄 Bipolar Disorder & Psychedelics - Should You Do Them? 🤔 Dealing with Bipolar Depression The Importance of Medication in Bipolar Disorder How Mood Cycling Occurs in Bipolar Disoder Those are some of my more direct videos about handling bipolar disorder. There are more on the channel if you find them helpful. Good luck. You can certainly improve your condition over time.

It’s rude to spam call people. I have a setting on my phone that doesn’t even let my phone ring when they call me. Don’t feel bad hanging up.

Make money and invest it. Lift weights for strength and hypertrophy. Meditate. Either take college seriously or don’t go at all and start a career now. Work hard and give your all to whatever tasks you spend your time on. I used college as a social experience and didn’t apply myself as I did in high school because the sense of freedom was too enticing. I think this helped heal some social issues I had, so it wasn’t a total loss. Regardless, if I had started investing real estate at 18 instead of 22, I would probably not be forced to work to cover my living expenses whereas now that goal is likely several years away.

Just an observation, doesn’t Grandmaster Wolf sound like the name of someone who might be trying to make themselves special? Sincerely, Supreme Emperor Polar Bear

I was raised Mormon, and I know that marrying a Mormon woman would be a disaster for me. If you’ve been “doing this work” taking Actualized.org teachings seriously, you’re going to repulse Mormon women if you act authentically. And when it comes to marrying someone, if you can’t be authentic, your life will be hell.

For me, a big step in my spiritual development was learning to sense the more subtle layers of normal, sober sensory experience. I think a big trap is to get caught up in seeing the sensory content of a psychedelic trip as being beneficial to awakening. If you go into some crazy DMT realm with drastically unordinary sensory content, it’s important to realize at some point that the unusual sensory content is essentially useless. What should be understood is that the degree of sensory change experienced in a psychedelic trip is only valuable if you can extract the insight that consciousness, awareness, reality has infinite potential and this potential is being realized no matter what sensory content is being shown. If a psychedelic trip seems more profound than sitting sober in your living room drinking your morning coffee, you don’t have any idea what is actually taking place in the most ordinary moments of human life. The incalculable majesty of reality is present at all times. The only thing that changes is one’s ability to recognize it for what it is.

Where did you find this? I’d be quite interested to see the source for this claim. Keep in mind that Buddhism was originally an oral tradition for a long period of time, so those who claim to know precisely what the Buddha taught are on shaky ground. The Theravadins love to speak that way. I personally like to view the interpretations of modern Buddhism by their own merit rather than counting them as valuable based on whether the teachings were exactly what the Buddha taught. On that note, I’ve found the idea and practice of anattā quite valuable in my path. A few years ago, I was attached to the idea, experience, and practice of consciousness being absolute and highly valued teachings about Atman/Brahman. Nowadays, it certainly feels like realizing anattā to different degrees is a further evolution beyond the position of putting Atman/Brahman on a pedestal. I’d say that identification with a Self of any sort is not the highest realization. Ideally, practices more focused on the Atman/Brahman side of things can essentially take you just as far as seeing anattā, but the issue is that if the view of a real self is held onto too closely, you run into issues of attachment and clinging which can cause resistance to “the Truth/the Highest/the deepest realization”. I know that what I’m about to say now will go against the belief of many here, but my path has shown me that Consciousness as people typically view it is not absolute. This gets into murky territory as far as descriptions go, but Hinduism, Buddhism, and Taoism all teach of something beyond the experiential realm people typically refer to as Consciousness when it is seen as absolute. I first ran into this on an unexpected awakening experience in the summer of 2021. This is what Daniel Ingram and Frank Yang call “cessation.” There are many different views and interpretations of cessation, but one of the most important things I learned immediately upon reaching that “state/non-state” was that consciousness is not everything, and it is conditional. The interesting thing about this is that those claiming that Consciousness is absolute have a great point. Consciousness is absolute, from the perspective of consciousness. Consciousness itself is an experiential thing by its very nature, as is your normal human self. Consciousness cannot be destroyed because Consciousness IS by its very definition. But this does not account for the other side of the duality which can be accounted for — what IS NOT. For example, the number zero isn’t actually a thing. It’s the absence of a thing. You can count one chicken, two chickens, three chickens, but you don’t actually see and count zero chickens. Regardless, zero chickens is relevant, and it can be verified by understanding what IS there to be counted. Verifying this “state/non-state” called cessation works in a similar fashion although this is of course oversimplified, and the example will not do what I’m pointing to any justice unless someone has encountered this for themselves. I attest based on my experience that the reality of something beyond consciousness can be verified, and it is not wise to trivialize this realization. My spiritual practice of 7-8 years was child’s play up until the point of that realization, and my state of consciousness altered at that time in a way that has never reverted back since which undoubtedly can be felt as a great improvement. I’d say there’s nothing wrong about speaking of Consciousness as Absolute if what that means to you also includes what I’m referring to which is outside the bounds of the lower-tier realization of Consciousness as Absolute which doesn’t account for the unconditioned, that which is beyond the experiential realm. If one’s notion of infinity is not including this, that person still has much further to go as I know I’m nowhere near the end of the road, and even I have seen this.