BipolarGrowth

Nice man! Happy for you ?

I am a landlord, but this doesn’t mean I’m not broke in a sense. Cash broke is not the same as asset broke. I only pay myself a little over $400/mo from that business because my partner and I mainly reinvest at this point. I live very frugally and make a pretty lackluster amount of actual cash in my hands from my normal job. I also said kinda broke ? There are plenty of people worse off

I’m kinda broke, and I kinda can’t find much success with the women I’d like to

Try to be more relatable.

It’s a bit sad to see how active you are on here. I’ve been there, and there are certainly better ways to spend your life. 90%+ of your threads seem like a complete circle jerk and waste of your own time.

This isn’t necessarily true. You can say that there is the same essence or even same non essence to everything, but your mom’s index finger isn’t the concept of gravity. Experience cannot exist without apparent differences to be perceived. Just a point of clarification I thought I’d add. Is this God Realization? Well, it’s definitely not Leo’s definition of God Realization because part of that definition is that no one else “has” it. It sounds like she’s seen a noteworthy degree of insight. Whether it aligns with this baseless buzzword or that one is pretty irrelevant. Does it improve her life? Is it enjoyable? Is it useful? Whatever it happens to be.

Idk, I’d say that the forum is far worse than it used to be although I see this having little to do with Nahm. I think him leaving was overall an improvement. Maybe I think the forum is worse because I’m just personally less sucked in by this type of stuff these days.

It sounds like you’re looking for a gestalt for Gestalt therapy ?

I think anyone who isn’t going to be unnecessarily dense will obviously agree with it.

IV usually can be effective at even lower doses. Considering you’re already going to be dosing in the tens of milligrams when vaping or boofing, doing this intravenously seems like a recipe for disaster.

Well said.

What the hell is this forum anymore…

It can be any of the possibilities you listed. The most significant is obviously the kind that becomes a permanent mode of perception.

This is exactly how it works actually, and that’s why none of us will be able to see the very real physical transformation taking place right before our eyes. At least that’d be a really convenient thing for Leo to tell us ?

Holy fucking shit

Alien Love doesn’t even come close to Draconic Emptiness.

It’s incredibly powerful and is heavily underestimated on here. Just like any other form of spirituality, there are some who understand and have a degree of mastery or natural ability and the majority of people who never see anywhere near the depth that is capable. The most helpful thing I can probably give in regard to magick from my experience is that belief is immensely powerful for transforming not only all of the content experience but also the actual structural feel of experience. When there is a truly authentic belief that is held at the “soul” level, this can not only produce awakenings, psychedelic states, but in some cases even potential changes to physical reality. The real challenge of magick is to find a way to convince yourself of its actual power in unquestionable ways which form the basis for the level of transformative belief I’m referring to. If you’ve seen the movie The Matrix, you might recall the scene where Neo is learning to bend the metal spoon with his mind. To do such a thing in your own direct experience requires a level of concentration and absolute belief in what is desired and attempted. This is why so many in the magick side of things who are legitimate and quite skilled focus so much on developing concentration abilities and preach of the necessity of strong concentration. It probably won’t quite be bending a metal spoon in front of scientists on national TV, but it can ironically be things far more incredible than something like that which usually happen on a more subjective level or with less tangible proof even if there is something unexplained actually occurring. Magick might have a physical element to it that is real, but it is at least far more accessible to experience shifts in mental phenomena and profound changes in states of consciousness. If you have insight into what Mind is, you can easily see that the distinction between physical reality changing and simply direct experience changing is irrelevant once you reach the capacity I'm talking about. There is a certain element of chaos to magick from what I’ve seen, and it’s definitely worked better spontaneously and accidentally than it has intentionally for me plenty of times. You don’t ultimately control which things you can connect to through belief in profound ways. A lot of what you’ll be able to pour the level of belief I’m talking about into has been more or less predetermined. There are plenty of mental blocks we all have to certain possibilities, mostly at a sort of subconscious or at least intensely subtle level

That’s not a bad place to be at all. The advice in that case is to find a system to get yourself into these states more frequently and more intensely. The way I look at awakening regardless of which tradition is in consideration is that high states of consciousness are highly correlated with the further capacity for deeper states and even the “attainment” of creating a baseline level of consciousness that basically has “lows” better than some of your profound awakenings at a certain point in the process. Get high on something, meditation, love, God, psychedelics, insight, etc. and learn how to do it more powerfully and more proficiently. That’s the only game left that is truly worth playing undoubtedly.

That’s a fair point. Most people don’t see 100% lifelike angels or the “infinite and incomprehensible white light of Absolute Divinity” from hitting a dab ? But to be fair I don’t experience that level most of the time myself when I do it.

@Michal__ yeah the amount of time you hold it in does make a huge difference. A lot of my most intense drug experiences were spurred from me holding in a dab hit for about 15 seconds then breathing out a smoke cloud that took up the majority of a normal sized living room. It’s interesting that you mention HHC as that is also what I use almost exclusively at this point. I find that it as well as other hemp-derived products have a much “cleaner” feeling than delta 9. Delta 9 also seems to skew a lot more in the direction of insanity for me compared to the various hemp analogues.

Formless experience really isn’t that different from formed experience. Honestly, formless experience is just another flavor of form. They really are two sides of the same coin.

It was just a typical street-purchased delta 9 wax. It’s always pretty intense, but for some reason that one night seemed to be exponentially more potent even though I had hit off the same exact batch before.

Smoking a medium sized dab has been the most intense drug experience I’ve ever had. 10 tabs of LSD, 6 grams of shrooms, ayahuasca, and 160x salvia all come short to dabs for me

Your post has pretty much no detail or precision and uses very vague terms. Maybe there are plenty of people who would like to engage with this if you can give us more information. I hope this doesn’t sound harsh. That’s not at all the intention. The bolded text is the only part that isn’t highly up for interpretation.

This is top tier in all regards.