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I had my late-night spiritual walk and run tonight. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/94423-romance-with-existence-at-night/ This time, I wore my Samsung watch to document the workout data. It includes 3 runs and a series of walks in between. The first run is slow running; the second is a combination of slow and fast running; the third is slow running. The Entire Activity: Runs: This should inspire and motivate somebody's ass.

I have been VBA-coding my Excel-based trading journal for weeks to make it as comprehensive as possible given my resources. I was taking a break 30 minutes ago when the word “Staind” popped into my head. Staind was one of the most popular bands I listened to when I was a teenager. I searched it on Spotify and then clicked on this song: Wear a headset with deep bass and then volume up (but not loud enough to damage your eardrums) Just took me 2 seconds after clicking on the Play button it to remember the music and message of the song. It’s amazing because the last time I heard this song was more or less 2 decades ago. I felt intense emotions because aside from the length of time that I wasn't able to hear it, I felt the nostalgia but also remembered the intense trauma, anxiety, depression, etc., I was experiencing at that time. I have endured extreme mental-emotional torture every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week, every month, every year, for decades. Yes, God can be that cruel. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/103242-how-to-stop-being-a-scapegoat-by-teal-swan/ The emotional impact while listening to it was significant enough for me to break my 5 to 7 consecutive weeks of forum non-participation. I understand the song much more deeply now than when I was a teenager because, now in my 30s, I have been experiencing So far away and I’m not ashamed to be the person I am today. I was too internally destroyed when I was a teenager; I even struggled to conceptually understand these phrases. The songwriter was probably referring to the fame, money, and musical success he accomplished when he was writing the song. I have had my own successes in life, but not in the domains of what he was referring to. But, I still resonate with the song because I have accomplished things which are even much greater and more profound: SELF-CONQUEST SELF-GROWTH SELF-HEALING SELF-AWARENESS SELF-CONTROL SELF-MOTIVATION SELF-VALIDATION SELF-SATISFACTION SELF-LOVE SELF-RESPECT SELF-ACCEPTANCE SELF-ESTEEM SELF-CONFIDENCE INTERNAL STRENGTH WILLPOWER BRAVERY MASCULINITY INTELLIGENCE BEAUTY Indeed, in a few ways, I have become the biggest narcissist. But, the fact that I am the OPPOSITE of a narcissist stays true. It’s akin to blending summer and winter into a unified SuperSeason.

Teaching Engish to EFL (English as a Foreign Language) students is a very complex topic; I could write a book about it. But I want to share some tips that have helped me along the way. I'm using my smartphone so this will be a painful job. But thanks to ChatGPT for making it possible. I used to teach English for years, and even opened my own school in Japan. First off, keep it simple, especially at the beginning. I like to break sentences down into individual words and focus on one topic at a time. For example, I might start with “Iran.” I say it, and then I have my students repeat it a couple of times: “Iran, Iran.” This repetition helps them get comfortable with new words. I start with a yes-or-no question that prompts the student to say yes. For example, I ask, 'Do you like Iran?' The student responds by repeating the answer twice: 'Yes, I like Iran. Yes, I like Iran.' Then, I ask another question, 'Do you like the USA?' and the student replies, 'Yes, I like the USA,' repeating it two times as well. Next, I introduce questions that elicit a no response. For instance, I ask, 'Do you like North Korea?' The student answers, 'No, I don't like North Korea,' and repeats it twice. After that, I introduce a WH question by asking, 'What country do you like?' The student responds with, 'I like Iran and the USA,' and they repeat that two times. It’s also important to pay attention to what your students are good at and where they struggle. I always let them know their strengths and areas to work on. For instance, I’ve noticed that many Japanese students have a hard time with the L and R sounds. So, I create classes that focus on that specific issue. It makes a big difference! Now, let’s talk about confidence. It’s key in teaching. At first, you might feel a bit awkward, but as you keep working on your skills, that confidence will grow. Showing confidence in the classroom encourages your students to engage more, and it creates a positive learning environment. As non-native English teachers, we understand how EFL students feel. We know how challenging it can be to learn a new language. Because of this, you can develop your own teaching style. It’s often easier for us to connect with students than for native English teachers, who have never experienced the process of learning a new language. It's important to set the right expectations. In the first few months of teaching English, you'll not be very good at it. That's just how it is, and you might not even realize you're not doing well. However, as you focus on improving your teaching skills, you will eventually get better. After a year, you can become a good English teacher.

And experience divine love and beauty. Hedonism becomes spiritual hedonism. Tadaa!

Everything in this world sprouts from money, whether it’s eating a delicious pizza, becoming conscious that you’re God dreaming your human life, or walking in a park full of pine and cherry trees while holding the hand of a beautiful and mysterious girl. It’s the money world. That's just how it is.

I usually like mellow music with various instruments, including bass because I enjoy the musical harmony. coastline But "Mountaintops" sounds decent. I added to my playlist.

The physical symptoms are usually caused by dissatisfaction, physical and mental trauma, disappointments, and other forms of suffering. If you do serious internal work for many years, you’ll start to feel the pleasurable physical components of self-esteem, self-respect, and self-acceptance. Emotions have physical components.

Yes, it's about love and respect for beauty, correctness, and self. Reminds of the phrase "How you do little things is how you do everything". Not true all the time, but true many times. How you do things is a direct manifestation of your soul. I see it.

It's too good and magical to exist but it exists. Thank God for ChatGPT and Claude.

Yes. It's even accurate to call people in their 70s and 80s old boys and girls. They have aged but their worldviews and perspectives haven't changed much since they were teenagers.

Amen. But for many people, it's in fact static.

I feel you. Life is very unfair and full of suffering of various forms. And the ones who "win" and dominate are the greediest and most corrupt but very good at concealing their shit. Just look at the politicians, big bankers, CEOs, and other winners of capitalism. You rarely find angels there. And the fact that the highest answer for why things exist this way is outside our limits (hidden from us), only adds salt to the wound. But I have my visions, ambitions, and willpower. Sooner or later, God must respect them in one way or another.

I stumbled upon Richard Werner, who, on paper, is accomplished in banking, economics, money(finance), writing, and academia. Here is his Substack profile: I've been binge-reading his articles since I finished binge-watching Teal Swan's videos. Currently, I'm reading this Substack article, which is intriguing enough for me to want to finish it. Richard Werner seems intelligent and genuine, but he also comes across as wild or conspiratorial. I'm having a difficult time figuring him out. I consulted ChatGPT to verify one of his more extreme claims: I love the way ChatGPT broke it down and verified it, but I still don't feel satisfied. Yes, Richard Werner's claim does sound conspiratorial. However, I'm also aware that the CIA is filled with psychopaths who are as malicious and cruel as the leaders of North Korea and China. The CIA has been involved in toppling or even assassinating democratically elected leaders around the world for the benefit of U.S. oligarchs, as verified by ChatGPT. I also remember the U.S. invasion of Iraq, which was probably an implementation of the CIA's plan. The U.S. is hypocritical and has no right to criticize Russia and other "immoral" countries or to police the world. Reminds me of what Jesus said "Remove the speck from your own eye first before pointing out the speck in your neighbor's eye.". Unfortunately, I have no time to investigate further, hence this thread. This is not a conspiracy thread. I simply want to know the truth. Was the CIA involved in JFK's assassination? For any members of this forum who have been interested in and researching this topic, please share your honest opinions. Also, post your sources to support your claims.

I was hoping a few people here, especially you, could provide some useful information. I've observed that you're enthusiastic or at least engaged in political discussions. Is this gaslighting? Direct experience, reality, or complete information is best. But speculation has practical value, hence I'm practicing it. I have finished reading the entire article with verification by ChatGPT. It was laborious but worth it. The fact that secret services such as the CIA have engaged in covert operations to topple democratically elected leaders or even assassinate them for decades is unsettling. Moreover, the fact that the CIA's mentors, MI5 and MI6, provided monetary support and direct collaboration with Italian and Spanish dictators Mussolini and Franco, and that the CIA itself has directly collaborated with and probably provided monetary support to Saddam Hussein and Bin Laden, demonstrates the covert but nasty devilry of these agencies. These secret services can and will eliminate world leaders, including a sitting U.S. president if their interests and control are threatened. I tend to believe that the CIA was indeed involved in JFK's assassination.

Narcissists are the ultimate scapegoaters and gaslighters.

I have been binge-watching Teal's videos for the past 2 days despite my very busy schedule. I noticed that Teal doesn't hit the target in most of her videos. She's also vague and says more than what's needed. She emits 50% - 70% signal and 50% - 30% noise in most of her videos, which is not good enough for me. I have many important things to do, and I don't have time for anything that is not truthful, straightforward, or concise. But the video above stands out because it's 95% signal and only 5% noise, hence I'm posting this here. If you have a dysfunctional family and are experiencing being scapegoated, this video is for you. I know how bad and traumatic it is to be a scapegoat because I have been the family's scapegoat myself. Society labels scapegoats as 'black sheep' without emphasizing that many times such scapegoats are actually the 'white sheep' in a family of black sheep. Yes, it's possible to go from 0 to hero. The extreme trauma, extremely low self-esteem, hypersensitivity, extreme confusion, and extreme fear seem impossible to heal or conquer, but it is possible. I know because I used to have those internal turmoils, compounded by alcohol and cigarette addiction, OCD, BDD, agoraphobia, and extreme suicidal depression. I was scapegoated and bullied by my own father, who was so devilish and spewed so much humanshit (bullshit); he would make Trump and Putin look angelic in comparison. No, I'm not exaggerating. My other family members eventually participated in the scapegoating. I was scapegoated by my family since I was 6 or 7, and I grew up extremely and completely internally destroyed; so destroyed that I couldn't even go outside my room in my early 20s. Actually, I went from -100 to hero. Life would have been much easier for me if I had started at 0. Now, I am the opposite of who I used to be: I have high self-love, self-respect, self-esteem, and self-confidence; my family and other people admire and respect me; and I feel good about myself. I'm capable of demonstrating such high self-love and self-confidence; Trump, Musk, Kanye, Mayweather, and other narcissists would envy and could only dream of demonstrating. Yes, I sound as if I'm bragging because it's my intention to brag. But my bigger intention is to inspire and demonstrate to scapegoats in this forum that it's possible to stop being a scapegoat, and that it's possible to heal and be self-loving.

Correct, and what you said aligns with what I said.

Just look at the complexity of the backbone of this beauty. Unfortunately, devils recognize its power and value, potentially corrupting it.

Despite what I’ve said about her in this thread, I think Teal Swan is a very intelligent and charismatic person. The reason her content isn’t good enough for me is that I’ve been engaging in internal, self-actualization, and spiritual work for essentially my entire adult life, which is more than 15 years. At this point in my life, my standards are very high, making me extremely selective about the content I consume. Especially considering that I’m seriously focused on survival activities, I’m supposed to have no time for other things, making me even more selective. But Teal Swan is a positive force in this world. If you're suffering, especially from trauma or childhood abuse, I believe you can benefit from her teachings and videos. And if you're new to self-actualization or spiritual work (less than 5 years), you can also benefit from Teal Swan's guidance. Teal Swan is a good teacher who shares insights unique to her. Some of her videos are very good, with a signal rate of 80% to 95%.

Thanks! There was one video of hers which made me feel bad or down. I think one of the reasons was connected to her energy; it’s bad in some of her videos. I questioned whether I should continue binge-watching her content. But I decided to keep watching and discovered that her energy is good in other videos. She seems a moody person with 'multiple' personalities.

A kid starts with a blank slate and is very fragile, hence needing nurture. A lack of nurture, especially scapegoating or abuse, results in death or a severely damaged soul. If there were a politician who proposed a parenting license, I'd vote for them. If drivers need to obtain a driver's license to drive, parents surely need to obtain a parent's license to parent. Thanks!

The internet is one of the most beautiful things humans have ever created and should be cherished. Thank God for the internet. The bad things you see on the internet are merely a reflection of society's values. If the majority of its members value stupidity and shallowness, that's what dominates on the internet. If society values meaningful, intelligent content, that's what would dominate online. Your username made me laugh, hence the reply.

I was watching a Teal Swan video but then decided to visit this forum and saw this thread. I just finished watching the video. I feel the coincidence is interesting enough for me to post it here. Girls love masculine beauty, of course.

Not bad. But it's better without the cigarette. I used to smoke at least 1 pack of cigs per day for more than 10 years, so I know. And I've been sober for almost 10 years, so I surely know. 😊

And angry and disappointed. And the knowing you're incapable of changing it leads to despair from time to time.