jimwell

Yes, life resembles trading: high risk, high reward; upward and downward trends; pullbacks; highs and lows; entry and exit; support and resistance. I have always been amused every time I discovered trading's fractality in life.

This is probably the most vulnerable post I've made on this forum. I hesitated to do this because it probably won't lead to a satisfying result. Serious challenges and problems are rarely rectified via a forum post. But I decided to proceed because venting to the universe makes me feel a bit better, at least. And perhaps, a miracle might happen. After many years of trying to return to Japan and spend most of my existence there, I have burned out. Going back to Japan has been the biggest goal of my 30s. Entering Japan for a long-term stay is difficult for citizens of 1st-world countries. It's especially difficult for somebody such as me, who is a citizen of a 3rd-world country. I have applied for jobs at Japanese companies that can sponsor employment visas dozens of times over the years, but every application has failed. When I create a resume, I pour my heart into it; it is tailor-made for each job application, but I have never succeeded because most Japanese companies prefer applicants from English-speaking countries who are already based in Japan. I eventually abandoned that strategy after feeling discriminated against and demoralized. I figured I could obtain a long-term tourist visa or an investor visa if I accumulated significant money in my bank account. So, I started an online business - a listing on an online marketplace. I coded a piece of software that detects old versions of MS Office on a Windows PC, uninstalls them, and upgrades them to the most recent version - Microsoft 365 or Office Professional Plus 2021 (the latest at that time), for free. This process is accomplished with a single click via CMD scripting and automation. I used Microsoft's CDN to download and install Office, and I integrated a script that bypasses Microsoft's licensing mechanism. I suspected this might violate IP rights, but I did it anyway because I hoped my actions were legal. I had an old laptop running Windows 7. I performed a clean installation of Windows 10 on it and was surprised that the OS was automatically activated. I thought Microsoft allowed free Windows upgrades, so I applied the same logic to MS Office. My strong desire to accomplish my financial goal led me to embrace potential corruption, especially given how wealthy Microsoft and Bill Gates already were. My online business expanded rapidly, ranking in the top 20% in terms of revenue in just three months. I felt I was on my way to success until I received an email from the marketplace informing me that my listing had been removed due to an IP rights violation report initiated by Microsoft. The dream abruptly ended. But that failure did not deter me from pursuing my goals. I tried 2 other businesses or strategies; details of which I’ll omit to keep this post as concise as possible. Those 2 strategies also eventually failed. I was too strong-willed to surrender, so I contemplated another strategy for several months. I decided that obtaining a student visa would enable me to live in Japan long-term. I researched Japanese universities that accept students from my country and offer courses taught in English. The process was very laborious. I took and passed an English exam and prepared all the required academic documents. The paperwork exhausted me, but the most difficult part was the anxiety and trauma I experienced when I returned to my high school and college to gather the documents. I was too internally destroyed (anxietyy, depression, low self-esteem, etc.) when I was in high school and college; I created various traumatic experiences and memories. I could feel the CPTSD thoughts and feelings as I entered the gates of those schools. The intensity of the anxiety made me realize I still needed to do more healing and integration work. But after a few visits, the CPTSD was almost non-existent. I began to feel like my true self and I saw everything differently. I even had a spiritual experience. It became clear to me that how you see and experience things and people doesn't depend on what or who they are but on what or who you are. The Japanese university granted me enrollment in the International Relations program. I researched potential jobs in Japan that I could do while studying to financially support myself. There was only one thing remaining - approval from the Japanese Embassy. But even that ended in tragedy. Here’s the public review I left for the university, which received dozens of likes and approval from anxious potential students: " TIU wasted my time, energy, and money - I paid a $2.3K enrollment fee. I was admitted to TIU, but they canceled my admission because I didn’t pay the $5.7K tuition fee by the deadline. I didn’t pay on time because TIU required payment before I received my student visa, and there was no guarantee that the Japanese immigration authorities would grant it. I risked losing a significant amount of money, which made me extremely anxious. Moreover, TIU does not list any refund policy on their website. I was admitted on December 19, 2022, and I immediately asked for instructions on what to do next. But, TIU ignored my emails for over three weeks - they only responded on January 13, 2023. Their first email was a threat: it warned that I might not obtain my student visa on time because the immigration process takes 2 or 3 months, and if my visa was not granted by March 27, 2023, my admission would be canceled. Furthermore, TIU never mentioned that my money would be refunded if my student visa were rejected. All of these factors heightened my anxiety that I would lose the $5.7K tuition fee if I paid by the January 19, 2023 deadline, especially since I only had two months to obtain the visa. Ultimately, I decided to pay the enrollment fee only after receiving my student visa. Why would I risk paying $5.7K when there was a significant chance I wouldn’t receive my visa? I would simply lose all that money. On January 20, 2023, the day after the deadline, TIU canceled my admission because I did not pay the $5.7K tuition fee. I offered to pay immediately on the same day if they would guarantee a refund of $5.7K if my student visa was rejected. But, TIU refused my offer and did not refund my $2.3K enrollment fee. TIU essentially ripped me off. I simply did what was sensible. It was all TIU's mistake; their enrollment procedure is akin to a scam. I feel relieved I did not pay the $5.7K tuition fee because I could have also lost that money to TIU." This tragedy left me feeling severely depressed, and I felt as though I were divinely cursed. I recovered after a few months of depression, contemplation and introspection. Then I decided to learn financial trading as a last resort to obtain the money needed for a long-term Japanese tourist visa. To make it short, I lost a significant amount of money (equivalent to tens of thousands USD) rather than profiting. I was too naive; I underestimated trading. I mistakenly believed that predicting upward or downward trends was easy, but trading is much more complex than it appears. After several months of trading, I was left both financially and emotionally drained. In the past few months, I have been experimenting to create an effective trading system. I succeeded in that endeavor. This year, I became profitable. My trading system yields a return of 13.4% per month, and I feel very happy about this. But another distraction derailed my trading activities. Last month, a neighbor returned from overseas and tried to poison my dog. My dog almost died, which put me in a state of urgency. I stopped all trading activities and contemplated how to protect my dog’s life and punish my neighbor. I took my pet to the vet and researched animal poisoning. I also installed security cameras and looked into criminal behavior, especially narcissistic and psychopathic crimes. Based on this research and observation, I concluded my neighbor is a psychopath. He has already poisoned at least six dogs and cats and attempted to poison my dog. Only a psychopath could do this. Now, I’m standing up to this psychopath, and my life is at risk. This situation is an extreme distraction, and I feel exhausted. I see a recurring pattern. When I’m about to accomplish my goal, something completely outside my control emerges to derail it. I have contemplated this deeply and realized that God or something spiritual might have cursed me. I never believed in dark magic, but now, I am inclined to believe it’s real. How else can I explain my repeated tragic experiences? I’m trying to re-establish my trading activities despite the threat to my life and my dog’s. I am burned out, but I will continue walking my path. Creating this thread is a good start because expressing my thoughts and frustrations slightly rejuvenates my soul. I need to return to Japan as soon as possible. I'm at my best there; my life purpose, intelligence, creativity, and spirituality peak when I’m there. I know this because I’ve already lived there.

This is what I love about Stage Green. I wish there were more people similar to him around the world, especially in my vicinity. But such goodness is too rare to exist in real life.

In a few ways, pets are indeed "slaves", similar to kids. But that is not necessarily bad. In fact, they need to be "enslaved" to a certain degree for their and their owners' survival. What matters is that pets and kids have decent "slave owners". You wouldn't be alive today if your parents didn't "enslave" you when you were a kid. Lastly, what I said about pets making life more beautiful and meaningful stays true. This is true not only from my perspective but also from my pet's perspective. When I look at my pet, I see beauty, intelligence, and love, and I feel these higher qualities inside. I then express them to my pet via words and actions. My pet, in turn, feels what I feel inside. It's a deeply beautiful experience; a romance with existence. Try to remember your childhood experience of having a cat. Perhaps you can gain some understanding of what I'm saying. Not really, especially if the human companion is decent. Many pets, including dogs, cats, birds, and otters love their human "slave owners".

Sin Chang-won is a notorious South Korean criminal who gained fame for his daring prison escape in 1997 and his ability to evade capture for over two years. He was often referred to as a "modern-day Robin Hood" due to his actions of stealing from the rich and giving to the poor. - CoPilot If the information presented in this video is accurate, that means he is more of a hero than a villain. The rich steal money from society enormously and shamelessly, but "legally". That is why there is a massive wealth gap between the top 1% of society and the bottom 50%. There should have been no jail time for this modern Robin Hood, especially that he has never murdered anybody. At worst, 5 years of jail time because it's also a valid argument that he violated the law, regardless of the intention. And 30 years of jail time for Park Geun-hye, the South Korean president and Lee Jae-yong, the chairman of Samsung. But where are these corrupt, rich Koreans? They have been pardoned after a few years, and the others have never been indicted, instead, they have been perversely celebrated. Society is absurd! If South Korea was replaced with USA, China, or Philippines, what I said would stay true. I value Justice, Fairness, and Sense more than Legality, Tradition, and Conformity.

That's sensible. I understand because I feel the same way. I wonder from time to time whether I really physically peaked when I reached 30. Perhaps, I actually physically peaked when I reached 25, but I was too internally destroyed to notice. I felt internally and physically weak. Retrospectively, I clearly see that the internal state dictates and manifests in the physical state. The first time I felt like myself (after many years of internal and self-healing work) was when I reached 30 or 31. I experienced a sudden and constant surge of energy throughout my body. My physical state began to align with my rejuvenated, empowered internal state. Everything started to flow naturally. That is why I said I reached my physical peak when I turned 30.

But there is nothing wrong with this. Pets make life more meaningful and beautiful.

That was entertaining. 1:02 made me 😂.

I disagree. As I have said in my previous post, honoring divinity alone is not enough. The quality and frequency of spirituality and awakenings you have don't even matter if you neglect your humanity because, in the end, you have a human self and existence. Paradoxically, neglecting your humanity betrays your divinity. I have clarified it in one of my previous posts that having a good lifestyle and diet is important. I don't think this is true. If you observe your body, you feel pain when there's something not functioning well. The human body is designed to become old and eventually fail. So, pain is unavoidable. And knowing that your body is mortal and will eventually become sick and rot results in mental-emotional pain. Just listen to this old American in the video. You don't need to watch the entire video. The first 8 minutes are enough to communicate his message. I agree. Even this integrous MIT neurosurgeon clarified it in his viral video. This shit is not only true in the USA, where he is from; it's also true where I am from, and true where you are from.

If it's something new and important, or extreme, or complex, it's always difficult to imagine or understand initally. But as you continue to think about it and consider its merits, you'll begin to see the sense behind it. As I have mentioned in one of my previous posts, Caucasians (and blacks) reach their physical peak in their early 20s. It's my first time encountering somebody from that race claiming a physical peak at age 40. But if you feel your claim is true, then congratulations. It is until your knee joints hurt and fail to function because of old age. I don't think it's true that most people's path is discovering who they truly are. They just want to be with their family or friends, eat, work, and then die. But yes, a long, healthy, and quality life sounds very inspiring. That's true. But at this point in my life, I am more focused on my human version. I feel the pain of being limited, but I still want to honor my human self and existence. I want to blend divinity and humanity, and the unlimited and limited into a unified entity: me.

I have a pet dog who I love and I consider him my son.

He is the Michael Jordan of spontaneously spewing humanshit (BS). But yes, gambling can be a good profession if the gambler is strategic. There are more similarities than differences between gambling, stock (currency, commodity, etc.) trading or investing, and starting a business. All activities risk money for the opportunity to gain money. A gambler, trader (or investor), or businessperson can be strategic or reckless, and they derive excitement and other emotional stimulations from the activity they participate in. I had a quick conversation with ChatGPT about this topic a few days ago. But there is one thing which separates starting a business from the other activities: directly producing value. From society's perspective, starting a business is better and more beneficial.

It seems you know more about the band than I do. I also want to be big in Japan, but what I mean by big is unique to me.

The melody is decent. But what makes it interesting and capture my attention are the lyrics.

Yes, I'm Asian and probably reached my physical peak when I was 30. Asian males peak in their late 20s or early 30s, while Caucasian males peak in their early 20s. As a result, Asian males (and females) age slower. amen! Why not? God materializes things via me. Humans are God's "co-creators". It would be exciting to stay young for at least 500 years and witness the changing of seasons and generations.