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Then you already have the solution; enhance your ability to appreciate the beauty of reality. That will intensify your experience and enjoyment of the magnificence of existence. Consistently remind yourself to see and appreciate beauty (all forms) every day and every place. It will take time (many months to a few years), but it's worth it. It's even the only way to go. It's a lie and self-defeating. It's probably related to your spiritual bypassing (unhealed childhood wounds and trauma, unchallenged limiting beliefs, depression, and neglected desires). I also experienced this stage of nihilism and depression just a few years ago because of 2 things; remaining unhealed childhood wounds and death (It made me realize that it will erase all my experiences and memories that it feels like I was never born at all.).

@TheAvatarState You have probably fallen into the trap of spiritual bypassing. It is really important to work on your mental-emotional domain first before going deep into spirituality. I have the exact opposite experience of your experience. I am grateful every day that God has given me life so I can manifest, experience, and appreciate the beauty and magnificence of existence. I have developed eyes which are very sensitive to beauty that I feel love and admiration every day. I feel love and admiration when I see my bank account quickly growing, my beautiful red cap hanging on the wall, and when I take a shower. It boggles my mind how much intelligence and complexity are involved in creating that shower head. I imagine myself being in the wild. How do I create a shower head from scratch there? How do I even transform rocks or minerals into metal? ANd how do I manipulate the metal's shape into a shower head? And the result of such intelligent creation results in me feeing clean and fresh. I love it. This contemplation and undersatnding give me much admiration and appreciation. There is much intellgience (which is beauty) in all things around you. You just take them for granted because your eyes are not sensitive to beauty. When I listen to music, I feel good appreciating the intelligence behind the lyrics and melody. But I don't stop there. I also think about every musical instrument used to create the music. I think about how the guitar came into exsitnce. How were the strings created? And it's amazing how the strings were structured and aligned to enable easy playing. How about the business side of it? How was the guitar dsitributed or shipped? It must have taken much planning and effort for the guitarist to be able to hold that guitar. This contemplation and understanding doubles my enjoyment and appreciation of the music or song I listen to. Looking at a tree, dog, or bird ignites joy in me. I'm in awe while looking at God's work of art. It makes me feel my connection to existence. It's a beautiful, spiritual feeling. Thinking about my future also excites me. I think about the intelligent systems and good things I will create which will add more beauty and goodness to the world. I think about my future houses in Japan, SOuth Korea, and maybe China. I feel excited thinking about the very beautiful women who I will bang and enjoy. I also get excited thinking about the many beautiful parks in those countries; parks where I will walk and hang out in. It took me more than a decade to accomplish this mindset. I started with healing my very broken soul (childhood wounds and trauma, anxiety, OCD, BDD, agoraphobia, PTSD, depression, etc.). I self-healed; no therapist, no meds. I did mindful meditation and self-designed meditation. I also did much research, contemplation, introspection, and other forms of inner work. But above all is generating or developing self-love. I can't detail all forms of inner work I did because it's 4:30 am in my country and I'm sleepy. I just felt compelled to post in this thread. This video by Leo in 2018 helps. And you can see me in action here. ? http://1drv.ms/v/s!ArRczozlKBxyugRZxooKIxB1Kkw5

Existence is exactly similar to your nightly dreams. In your dreams, it feels like other people have their own localized consciousness and have their own experiences. But when you awaken from your dreams, you surely know that in your dreams, people don't have their own experiences, and that there is only ONE experiencer or perceiver, which is you. Everything is just an illusion masquerading as real. I speak from direct experience, whether that was awakening or just a mind-boggling hallucination. I think about that childhood experience everyday, trying to self-validate it or experience it again as an adult.

Spiritual bypassing can be described in a thousand words but the quote above encapsulates its core (but I need to add fulfilling your human or animalistic desires). Spiritual bypassing is a very serious mistake. But I often see many users on this forum doing it; including moderators and Leo himself (to a certain degree). Spiritual bypassing is dangerous because it harms both the spiritual bypasser and their listener. Neglecting childhood trauma, mental-emotional wounds, fears, and deep desires leads to brokenness or dysfunction, suffering, pretentiousness, murder, and self-murder.

You conflate understanding and empathy. So, you limit understanding. The deepest understanding is holistic. It includes many perspectives and the associated emotions, not just empathy. I look at bullies and serial killers (psychopaths) from various perspectives, hence I feel various emotions such as empathy, compassion, disgust, and hate. Understanding is very similar to love in a sense that it doesn’t discriminate any perspective. It welcomes various perspectives instead. Understanding and love are not only connected to each other; they are also very similar. It’s intriguing.

That might be true in the highest level; but I have no access to it. So, I can't take it as truth. But I do see that unconditional self-love is the highest beauty. I wish that was true. But think about the suffering and death you inflicted on other living beings to stay alive. The truth needs to be honored no matter how ugly. Humans do evil things because of conditioning and genetics. Nothing is random. But in the end, they still do evil; and to be alive is to be evil. If you insist that in the grand scheme of things, everything is good and perfect; I must say I have no access to it. I need to honor what I see now, which is existence is both beautiful and horrible.

This is a confused response.

Being humble is admirable only if it is genuine. You sound very convinced (or self-deceived) with your statement. I'd love to hear more details about your story.

To be alive is to be evil. So, yes, I am evil. But not as evil as the bullies and serial killers. What's your point?

You better stop playing your spiritual games. If you insist on it, you also deserve to get jailed and tortured, or executed.

You're playing a game. You also hate that who murders your mother, wife or dog. Not everything you hate is a "shadow" inside you.

I don't. You do? ? Stop joking. @tsuki I can understand the empathy and understanding for these twisted humans. They never chose their abusive parents and genetics. But simultaneously, I see the masquerade, power trip, evil, and cowardice in these bastards. These are deeply wounded individuals with much hidden or unacknowledged anger inside. Their entire existence is then devoted to restoring their self-esteem by exacting vengeance to innocent humans. And of course, they choose the easiest or weakest targets who are women, disabled, kids, and senior citizens. These serial killers though might seem outlaws, are actually conformists. It is people who are regarded as low value to society ("bitches", homeless, mentally or physically disabled, etc.) who are usually decapitated and dismembered by these coward bastards. And I value self-responsibility, independent thinking, goodness, honesty, self-awareness, and bravery. Thats why I feel repulsed.

I have been doing this exercise everyday and everywhere for a few years. Yes, love and understanding are connected. But there are situations which hate and understanding are also connected. For example, the more I understand the motives of bullies and serial killers (psychopaths), the more I get disgusted by them.

The appearances or forms are the illusions. No difference. My ego probably wants to survive by continuing to be self-deceived. And it's ok. No need to rush things. There is time for everything. So complete awakening will happen at the correct time.

self-love is not worth it? Isn't self-love the highest spiritual goal and teaching? I think self-understanding or omniscience comes second.

You obviously were the one who typed it. And no, you're not a robot. You are a human without consciousness, an illusion pretending to be real. I just said it for what it is. There is only ONE consciousness. If you are conscious, then I am not. I am just an illusion pretending to be real. But calm down, as I have repeatedly emphasized, I am not sure whether my "awakening" was genuine or just a hallucination.

I have been away for a few months but I decided to sign in because I have something good to share to you. I experienced "Solipsism" when I was a kid. If awakening is real, that was my first awakening. There is only ONE consciousness. So, all humans (and animals) you see in this world have no "localized" consciousness. They are illusions pretending to be real. If you are sure that you are conscious, that means Leo has no localized consciousness. Your consciousness is all there is. But unfortunately for you, I am sure I am conscious. So, it means I am all there is. You, Leo, and other forum members here are illusions pretending to be real. I am not bullshitting. Here is the link if you want more details. Despite this childhood "awakening", I am still not sure whether that was genuine. I can't verify whether that was genuine or just a hallucination. I wonder why Leo is completely sure about it. And in my "Dream-Solipsism" awakening, there was no hint that I was God. That's another difference. I have been contemplating and trying to verify the genuiness (authenticity) of that "awakening" because it is completely important. But I haven't succeeded. It's very frustrating. There is simply no way for me to know.

I have a love-hate relationship with Japan. Japan embodies the best and worst of Stage Blue. The country's extreme collectivism provides a few of the most beautiful things in this world; peace and harmony (people on the streets are very respectful to you), safety (you can leave dop your wallet on the train or leave your bicycle anywhere), beautiful and feminine women, cleanliness and organization (the streets are clean and all activities are strictly scheduled and followed), unity (everybody shares the same values), etc. But it's the same extreme collectivism which results to completely dumb and ugly things. A Japanese (just like any Stage Blue person) values "following the group" than "doing than right thing". How perverted is that? That was the exact worldview which resulted to Germany's Nazism. It's the same worldview which produced the Divine Wind (kamikaze), the crazy, senseless act which horrified the American soldiers during WW2. How could anybody fly a plane only to intentionally crash it into an enemy ship or plane; shattering everything, including the pilot's skeleton? It must have taken tremendous devotion and blind loyalty to the "divine" emperor (Naruhito), and, priority and importance of the country and countrymen (above the self) to pull it off. I have experienced both the best and worst of Japan's extreme collectivism. I have experienced the good things I already mentioned. I was also given tremendous respect and importance because of my job (considered as authority). But because of my innate tendency to stand up for my principles, I also experienced the worst. I chose to quit rather than being forced to change my teaching style from being dynamic and creative to being dumb and robotic. I chose to resist propagating abuse to my juniors. I stopped my mother-in-law from bullying me and everybody in her immediate family. I was considered as crazy and problematic for destroying the harmony and established traditions. So, I lost everything (my Japanese wife, home, school, money, and Japan and its beautiful nature and 4 seasons). It was very mentally-emotionally painful. And I questioned myself many times whether being integrous and uncompromising was worth the tragedy and lost. But at the same time, I knew I still had the most important thing in my life; myself and me honoring my principles. Now I'm crying; not only because of the suffering as a result of the persecution and the big losses; but also because of the intense love and admiration I feel for myself because of the bravery and integrity I displayed and maintained until the end. I'm not out of the woods yet. But regardless of where I go from here, I won't regret my past actions. It was worth it. I'm not bullshitting.

I am the real wolf, not Donald Trump. ? Being a sheep repulses me. I am inherently integrous, I honor my highest values, many times above my survival. This is God's gift (and curse) to me. My life is naturally difficult. I reach the highest levels which makes people envy to death, but I also fall to levels people are scared to death to be at. And people either really love and admire me or really hate me, never average. The recent tragedy and losses were too big and shocking that I asked myself the questions you asked me. But in the end, I was happy with what I did. I can't live my life being fake and repulsed. The tragedy and losses are temporary. I can recreate my past "good" life and even make it bigger. But this time, I am planning to be financially self-sustainable and resilient so that even if I experience tragedies in the future, which I am prone to, my survival won't be threatened that much. I mean in the past, I lacked proper financial investments. Japan is still a very good place to live in if you are an introvert, self-reliant, and self-satisfied. It's a very clean and organized country, and Japanese are very respectful and polite to you. It's good because you really don't need to be close to them anyway. They are the best strangers on the street or acquaintances. And yes, you can't really have a close, genuine connection to them. They can't even be genuine to themselves, because they need to conform to their family and society. They always betray themselves to avoid trouble and shame. But to be fair, my Japanese ex-wife was better than most, but her Blue core was still running in the background of her soul, unfortunately. There are many weird and pathetic things in Japan aside from sexual dysfunctions, hikikomori, and suicides as a direct result of extreme collectivism. Another one is "salaryman" (a man who works at an office for a salary) go to hostess clubs after overtime work. Guess what their purpose is; it's not sex. They spend a fortune to talk to girls to boost their self-esteem. They eat too much shit at work that they need to recharge by being willfully deceived by the hostesses. They need to do it, otherwise they will have the alternative, which are "karoshi" (death by overwork) and major depression. I'm not joking.

A strict social designer is highly conscious. An internally diverse Stage Yellow social designer and leader functions well, especially in times of crisis (the current coronavirus pandemic, and during and the aftermath of WW3).

Thanks. That surely was a tragedy. I am not out of the woods yet. But I always do the things which are need to be done. In that sense, I am ok. Japan got its Orange characteristics from the US after they got nuked and surrendered. Japan's economy boomed in the next decades, and their largest companies such as Toyota, Sony, etc. sprout from or got very big during those years. That was the time when Japan became known as very modern and technologically advanced. But the country's economy has been stagnant for the past 20 to 30 years, and so are their technologies. Believe it or not, many thigs in Japan are very slow. Traditional methods or technologies such as fax, cash, pen and paper, business cards, etc. are more commonly used than emails, credit cards, online shopping ,etc. Their IT technology is as bad as 3rd world's. The coronavirus pandemic has exposed Japan's lack of IT and digital development. Japan was very slow to cope up and failed badly, the term "Digital Defeat" was coined. That is one of the many things they pay for being too traditional and closed-minded. Nikkei Asia and NHK World

@Raptorsin7 Yes, I will vote for that hero. I think a "high-consciousness" but strong person can quickly build a loving and sensible society if he calls the shots. He can dictate and control society the way Leo dictates and controls this forum. But that hero is rare as fuck. You can't meet him in real life, let alone in politics. So, forget it.

This is a mindset of a weak man. Women easily smell weakness. You can't fake being strong. Self-loving, self-principled, self- righteous, self-confident, intelligent, brave, yet compassionate are the characteristics (plus an innate factor I can't capture via words) of cool, strong men. Women drool over men with these characteristics. But be strong and cool for yourself first. Be the cake. Women and everything else are the icing. That just doubled the strength and coolness. ?

It was difficult to answer because situations or contexts were not provided. When I encountered the question "Is money your most important goal?", I answered "strongly agree". But it is because I lost almost everything including money and opportunities as a result of a tragic divorce. My survival is seriously threatened. So, I need to prioritize making much money like an extreme Stage Orange bastard. When I was asked "Do you feel bad when your words and actions cause emotional pain to others?" I answered "Yes" because I usually treat others with respect. But there were many times I felt very happy when my words and actions caused tremendous emotional pain to my dumb NPD father and other family members and bullies. I love inflicting pain to humans who inflict pain to others. And I love expressing love to humans who express love to others. So, these types of tests are limited and can't capture the whole picture of the human soul, especially when you consider the truth that most people lack self-awareness and self-honesty. But regardless, I am both very empathetic and psychopathic, depending on the situation. And I love being this way.

The same with religion. Most humans have religions, so having a religion is never considered as a mental illness. Having a religion is even considered good. How perverted.