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I want a beer All suffering is caused by desire. I a beer The universe is illusory as it is impermanent, finite and subject to change. I a Who is the I? Who is having this experience? a In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. (nirvana)

Try to read the view of a shaman on mental disorders. Very good article. Shows a different perspective than the regular Western one. Jason Gaddis wrote it: (scroll down to Schizophrenia and Foreign Energy) http://sitsshow.blogspot.com/2016/05/The-Shamanic-View-of-Mental-Illness-and-its-Spiritual-Causes-Jennifers-Story-Healing-Bipolar-Mania-Depression-Naturally.html?m=1

How do you get to that high cousciousness state? Any more videos about pleiades?

A function of a predatory animal in a evolutionary scale is to kill of the weak, sick and old. It rarely attacks the strong and vigorous. In the short term it seems horrible, but in the long term it will refine a species physicality for the better. And gives greater experience for a reincarnated soul. "Divine love seeks only that which is divine in everything, it is reflected in every object and not attached to it. Love which becomes attached to objects of sense becomes mere desire. Desire is just a shadow of the light that shines from divine love." The lion desires the antilope and does not seek the divine in it. Its a shadowy love that still comes from divine love. That's how I see it. Anyway, love asks for nothing, but gives freely to all who are willing to take. Ask for it and it will be received, its that simple.

I hear you, drop the large rock and head back down the mountain, drop it all, you are worth more than pursuing happiness.

A soul reincarnates in a evolutionary manner. From elemental to plant, insect, animal, human, "angel/demon" kingdoms etc. Never backwards only forwards. For instance a pet is in its last stage of reincarnation in the animal kingdom. It learns from its human owner how to be like him/her before reincarnating in the human kingdom. The thinking/mind capacity of a soul in the human realm is so overdeveloped that no brain in the animal realm can handle it. So it can't reincarnate backwards in realms. But it can reincarnate backwards or maybe even forwards in the time/space continuum in the human realm. Live this life then reincarnate in the era that jesus was still alive. A soul much above the human density can reincarnate elsewhere than its home planet if it wishes to help out. Some beings from other planets are here on the planet now. Its, I guess, a normal phenomena to some degree. Planets also reincarnate. The moon is the corpse of the last reincarnation of this planetary spirit Gaia. But is slowly dissappearing. Some advanced souls on the planet don't in a sense reincarnate, but become walk-ins as the new agers terms it (they didn't find it out) Anyway, there is a whole esoteric science behind this and I don't know a speck of it. Discard what does not resonate with you. This is my cousciousness that puzzled this together and your hearth knows best of what's truth for you. There is a law of confusion that's doesnt allow us to know all the playing cards of nature yet. So i'll leave and go walk my dog.

What kind of anthropomorphic animals do you see?

The eye is directing itself toward the essense of you in which no maya can have any influence.

Got a bit confused seeing leo in one of his videos. Posted it here for the topic starter to watch, not share a ideology.

Of the 3 wheels of yogacharya school the third wheel teaches. "Primordial Wisdom ( Buddha nature) which is the Source, Cause, and underlying Essence of all manifestation. Is not an “empty emptiness” as but rather an Infinite Fullness which is “empty” or “void” of anything conditioned or relative." Not that he didn't say it to his deciples, its just almost totally forgotten.

365 lessons and excercises: https://acimi.com/a-course-in-miracles/workbook/lesson-1

These thoughts arises in me while browsing this forum: -I'm far superior than you, you are nowhere near my level. -Law of attraction practices are unpure and not for a pure being like me. -Meditation is not for me, I'm to advanced to do that and waste my time. I have better practices than you. This is my emotional side of the ego. Obviously these thoughts are filled with pain and doesn't do much of a help. When I come in contact with the thought I dissociate from my meditation practice, throw it out of the window and forget about it. It feels like a narcisstic wound. I'm running like a chicken from it. Any advice on how to lossen up these "beliefs" and accept/reintrigrate the underlying dense pain? What is this? Should I go for a therapist?

I liked the courses. Some episodes got me to realize different states of cousciousness. It's a very helpful series with lot of insights. On the other hand, I don't like the guy, i think, but that's my problem. I project a lot of stuff onto him. Just look at his Instagram and see what I mean. Most of the qualities he expresses are repressed or hurt in me. I think it's the same with others. Some avoid him and others adore him. I do both interchangeably. I like to quote a passage in teal swans book, the completion process : "on the other hand, when we see our own positive aspect (that we had previously rejected) show up in another person, we fall in love because it feel like our opportunity to become whole. We want more of it. We become addicted to it. We glorify it, put it on a pedestal, and even idiolize it. This is what is happening when you see crowds of screaming girls at pop stars concerts. The girls are projecting the positive aspects that they have rejected in themselves-usually a sense of significance-onto the person on stage" Bentinho is the pop star, I and his followers are the screaming girls, haha. May seem like a cult, but is not every star or celebrity then a cult leader? No one forces someone to go there or stay there or even manipulate their life, like in real cults. Unlike the pop stars, he atleast tries to help, maybe in somewhat "crazy wisdom" way (Crazy wisdom as in Chogyam Trungpa term). Still, I don't know that much about him. This is strictly my opinion and viewpoint. But his trifinity course can add a value and they are somewhat neutral from social dynamic influence and filled with potential in raising cousciousness

@loub I am too attached to the top and avoid the bottom, . Will try J.krishnamurti. I hugged my mother in childhood, i did hugg her sometimes a year ago but that felt painfull and i felt separated from her. From time to time i have a childhood urge to do it but a thought arises " Dont do it, you are grown up now, you have grown up things to do, you are not a child anymore but an adult go away" and i avoid it. @Charlotte I did not percieve or felt them as fears until now, it makes sense. Im in this feeling state still for a time and i´ll try to contemplate it when im trough. Than you both for your answers.

It was a statement that confirmed my personal bias. I and Ego thought "now that i finally got recognition, I can finally read someone that agrees with me,I just let go of the search because the rest of the book has my answer on my suffering that I searched for so long" I fooled myself believing that i finally found the answer (I did not, just thought I did) I gave upp searching and space arose between my thoughts and the transcendental (the real answer) sneeked in while no one was watching. For first time in years I allowed to be receptive for a moment and got what I searched for albeit in a way I didn't expect. I just fooled myself in believing I found the answer and the real answer arrived.

Had the first realization In 2013. While I was reading a self-help/psychology book. I searched for a answer to my suffering, I read a statement in the book and got very excited. I said to myself "that's it, I found the answer" and just gave upp searching. And that was it, my thoughts about needing to do something in the future "disappeared" from view. I sort of ascended higher than the thoughts or that I took a step backwards in the mind, don't know how to describe it. But I became very ineffable as my normal state as I should be, no thoughts, I felt my mind working at a minimum, finally at peace, gratefulness was me and I was it. I was in this state for 20-30 hours. I had the most peaceful sleep I ever had that day. Best part was at home when I saw a plastic bottle, I said to it "you are mine" and tried to get the feeling of it. I felt like i almost exploded for a moment with what I can call ethereal bliss, there was no separation with me and the bottle. I had a time to my cognitive behaviour therapist next day. I told her everything I felt and saw in that state, she was amuzed but didn't understand, haha. Looking back I can only see at myself through my therapists viewpoint as there was no me, me was gone from body and I was everywhere. Then i bicycled in town, remember seeing light coming out of buildings, happy people had energetic aura around them, felt my minds tiny reactions when I preformed an action within the stillness of my mind. Then I came home and I fell back in the mud. Thoughts came back and bad feelings too. I descended. After that it was easier to live, as i had the experience in my background. It opened like a "portal" in my mind into the transcendental and I started to climb toward it and began my spiritual path. My path was sort of accidental and I do not have any practice to share how I got there. I was a basic stage orange person searching my relief of suffering in psychology/psychiatry/self-help and was ignorant of any spiritual teachings. So, thank you for the opportunity to write this down.

Is it true? Can you absolutely know that it's true?

I fear love, myself, being good. I consider them weaknessess, I am afraid of being vulnerable. Ultimately I hate God, that's what I feel underneath this fear.

The voice of silence or The stanzas of Dzyan. Translated by H.P. Blavatsky from an esoteric Yogacharya Buddhist text which she called “The Book of the Golden Precepts,” this little book is really a handbook for treading the true spiritual Path which leads to initiation and enlightenment. Comprised of three fragments – “The Voice of the Silence,” “The Two Paths,” and “The Seven Portals” – it presents the high ideal of the Bodhisattva Path and is replete with the ethics and virtues of compassion, altruism, self-sacrifice, and consecrated service to humanity. A former Panchen Lama of Tibet described this book as being at that time the only true and authentic exposition in the English language of the Heart Doctrine of Mahayana Buddhism. It has also been praised and endorsed by the present 14th Dalai Lama, as well as the late Buddhist scholar D.T. Suzuki who described it as “the real Mahayana Buddhism.” Blavatsky writes that it is “For the daily use of Lanoos (Disciples)” and “Dedicated to the Few.” The-Voice-of-the-Silence.pdf or download it for free from the webbsite: https://www.theosophy-ult.org.uk/book-review/the-voice-of-the-silence/

Thank you, sometimes i get to much stuck in the mind.

@zeroISinfinity Are you answering me on the wrong post?

@zeroISinfinity What counts as enlightment this day? I like seeing this path as stages or ranks like the 5 degrees of tozan of zen Buddhism and Evelyn Uphills Western mysticism of 5 stages toward Union with God. They are very similar. There are other classifications that are like this. First rank is usually called satori, having a glimpse of reality, the first realization of tao. Is this enlightment? Third rank is liberation or illumination described as: "This Third Rank is what most people would consider “enlightenment.” In this stage one’s center is no longer a separate self, a separate ego, a separate, agentic “doer.” Instead, one’s center is experienced as being everywhere, and the only doer is the entire universe, the Tao, the entire going on of it all. In the Third Rank there are no boundaries, no beginning, no end. You are birthless and deathless." Many consider this to be enlightment, is it? Or the fifth rank, the unitive stage: The Unitive Life is the Ultimate State of Consciousness, enlightenment. The mystic has at last come to full realisation of Reality. This transcendent experience allows him to live in this world and yet not of this world. He breathes a rarefied air which normal beings cannot enjoy. These mystics are ambassadors of the Absolute. He vindicates that communion with Reality is achievable. The mystic refers his attainment of the Absolute as deification (the utter transmission of the self in God). He also refers to his communion with Reality as the Spiritual Marriage of his soul with God. These terms are subjective temperamental language. Deification means transmutation of self by God so that from now onwards his life is divine: God is acting through him. All human desires are taken away from him and his is immersed in the Divine Will. His being remains, but in another form, in another glory and in another power. Utter renouncement means stripping the mystic of the ‘I’ the ‘me’, and the ‘mine’. This “self-naughting” to the direction of the larger Will is an imperative condition for the attainment of the Unitive Life. “Thou art in me and I in Thee, glued together as one and the selfsame thing, which henceforth and forever cannot be divided”. Is this enlightment? The enlightment definition is different from teaching to teaching. Or is it total transcendence of the ego a sufficient answer? Have read that there is further advancement toward nirvana, but I'm not going to search for that info and post it here.

Simple advice is always good advice Although i cannot meditate, not that I haven't. Just have a better technique like total surrender, that brings on ego dissolution and that works for me.

No, you are not me. Or let me say, I do not have this understanding or realization. Care to give some advice on how to realize this non separate state?

Think the European Russian population is transitioning from blue to orange. Seen someone else write it on this forum. Have a grandmother that is from Russia. One day I would meet her and she would say, I prayed to God and asked for this and that to come to fruition. I will go to a church and visit a Saint next week and pray and give candles so that the physical disease of everyone in the family will dissappear etc. Another day she would say. I watched this celebrity evgecjk paresheoucnku lied to the whole studio. How could he? Hes fiance will divorce him and his children will come home from Britain from lack of money and bla bla bla. Clearly going from stage blue to orange. She has a gradual change in interest of Christian celebrities ( God and saints) toward tv celebrities.