I deadass get turned on by cybersecurity. Its kinda fucked up lol.
But anyway, I carried on my cyber learning. I have been persuaded by Cal Newport re life purpose. It has helped me out a lot. The idea being to end up passionate about what you're doing.
But it is challenging. But then again... is it? I have my routine down so well. I'm learning well. And compared to studying law this shit is a walk in the park. The thing with law is that if you do it properly you realise you cannot do it fucking properly. Because there are no right answers to legal questions. So either you are retarded or you realise you cannot. The issue is everyone is apparently retarded apart from me. but whatever.
I kind of feel bad using the word retarded but i use in good humor. I dont mean too insult.
Anyhow, I am learning deeper concepts around how hackers break into systems and the signs of their break-ins now. It is nice not having to do a discipline where you are constantly at sea because you cannot determine right answers. Cyber is much more cut and dry so far. Its more like a sport.
My pickup coach is ghosting me atm. I dunno what is up with this dude. but i get a bad feeling from him. Like the bro seems like he is tryna dominate me or some weird shit. I would do my usual tricks to win but he is my coach with Todd's program so its annoying. But whatever I will see what happens.
My shoulder is also in chronic pain for ages now. Which is annoying all the time and fucks my nervous system. It colours everything.
But i found some affirmations which help "30 Affirmations for Depression – NowPsych | In-Person and Online Psychiatry". I also started a minecraft world inspired by the American History lectures I've been watching. I made it as a bastion of mankind. I created a little safe village and put some villagers in it. And put a sign saying they could leave if they want but that there is danger outside xD.
Finally I love NFL. That shit is lit. My team, the Texans, lost today. BUt the mix of brutality and strategy in the sport is amazing. Its like cybersecurity and siege in many ways.
