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I'd read Cal newport's So good they cant ignore you book

How long do you feel it for?

Peterson says the story of job will essentially happen to us all. Tragedy, evil, unfairness, the mob coming for us, people then blaming us for our situation even when it is not on us. But then you still can decide not to be corrupted by the understandable bitterness, and callings of vengeance and aim up. In my own life, I was flying high at 18. Best university in the world. Then it all started to fall apart. Many people turned on me, including my family. Bad thing after bad thing occured. Mental illness got deeper and deeper. The worse things got, the more people shamed me, believing i must be causing my own suffering, and was doing wrong. Ended up dropping out, estranged and on welfare, still getting blamed and attacked. I will never forget being mocked by my welfare officer for where i was in life. My vengeance and anger desires grew very large. It was all I thought about for years. Many dark callings rose up in me but this story of job helped me through. It made me feel very seen and it spoke deeply to me. Helped me stay honourable. Even tho I am not religious. I see religion as a childish-fantasy. Anyway, I ended up passing through that era of my life into a positive trajectory but I know how powerful that story can be when it comes to dealing with the darker callings of the human soul.

The job story I recommend as a useful story. Forget the religious part of it. I'm not religious

I understand

No matter what happens to me I will aim up. So unless it is absolutely necessary to protect myself or others, I will not murder anyone. Edit: I missed that you said you had serious concerns about that worry. Given that I would also add I seriously recommend getting professional help with this. Work with a therapist who knows about CPTSD and narcissistic abuse. There are too many therapists naive about the reality of evil. Jordan Peterson's talk about the story of Job whilst on Theo Von's podcast is also very helpful. This perspective can only come from someone who has not experienced a certain level of evil in their life. Serious vengeance is a very understandable impulse given the level of brutality some experience at the hands of another. Acting on that impulse is a very different question though. One I only endorse in necessary situations. I detest this labelling of 'cry baby' you give as well. It's cruel and callous.

Glad you noticed that about me

I'm glad you agree now

RIght/ wrong isn't determined by just how people feel

Feeling is different to obligation

I wouldn't feel anyone owed that obligation to my relationship, outside of friends/ family

Easy to read

Why would i respect her relationship with her bf?