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I'm having a hard time discerning what exactly you are asking but if you are craving oats, eat them and see how you feel. Listen to your body, nutrient variety is important. You don't have to box yourself in some specific "fruitariancarnivore" diet because it sounds cool or seems to work for you for a while (key point: after a period of time you start experiencing the drawbacks) while you miss out on other nutrients from other foods.

Judging by the profile pic she is a female. That usage of DMT being healthy or not is completely relative from person to person and personal. The worst physiological harm you get from DMT is the harshness of smoking it, and if you plug it, even that is bypassed. Its a completely safe substance, any ill effects your ego is projecting on it comes from a psychological disposition that isn't ready for it.

@Danioover9000 Yes, talking about transmutation. But before you can transmute in my experience the challenge is containing it in the first place when you want a release. Once you can tolerate more of the energy, then you can release in constructive ways. Regarding other women: https://deida.info/wp-content/uploads/2015/12/BK00906-interior-pages-27.pdf He's talking about young women here specifically but still apply it to any female attention you get.

Use your surplus of energy for more physical activity or other types of creation. If you really exert yourself physically in a healthy way you will sleep better and channel the raw aggression. Be sure to keep your nutrition on point, maybe take some sleepy herb teas or a little melatonin for the insomnia. Don't let the perceived higher attention from women bother you, totally own it. If you get horny, soak in the horniness and try to capture that raw energy to use for your life as a whole. Learn to handle more and more amounts of pent up horniness without release. Im not saying flirt with them per say if you have a girlfriend, but you can have positive interactions with women knowing they are attracted to you and be able to hold down that desire which is extremely hard and beneficial to do for growth.

When you say "edge" are you just referring to mental sharpness/clarity/"sober mind" so to speak?

Counting macros and worrying about quantity is not nearly as important (can be useful sometimes) as eating quality foods and eating them slowly and mindfully. The latter is the base of the pyramid so to speak. The macros/quantity comes after.

Theres some deep rooted mental programming there from your early life experiences most likely. Really contemplate and feel into what comes up when that arises and try to keep digging deeper to the root cause, assumptions you’ve made concerning your self-survival.

Are you saying you've had sex on salvia or salvia is seducing you to trip on it? Not sure I've ever seen that before. @Consilience Great trip report, touched on the deep existential aspects as well as the more personal issues. The part about masculinity is spot on.

I really started taking food hygiene seriously when I took this advice from this ex fitness competitor Marcus Filly about how important HOW you eat your food is compared to a lesser degree what you eat (which is obviously very important but the significance of the differential between these two concepts is a lot closer than people think) This is an amazing podcast for training and nutrition and this episode covers this topic:

Why is it that you think the AL LAD is friendlier at lower doses but paradoxically is more out of control in higher doses? Maybe its missing a key element that makes it seem friendlier at first (whereas with a classic one would get into uncomfortable territory) but then that same mechanism is what puts you into bliss with the classical one at higher doses?

Food Hygiene is another good and overlooked tip to add. Chew your food slowly and mindfully to improve digestion and nutrient absorption. This takes excess stress of your gut, and prevents you from excess portion sizes. Try to have it liquify in your mouth before it goes down.

The cold thermogenesis of cold showers increases blood circulation, stimulates the vagus nerve, improves your testosterone, mitochondrial health, immune system, ect. Adding in the hot/cold contrast is also great for muscle recovery and feels amazing. Its really good to take full deep breaths under the cold to train your nervous system to adapt better to stress.

The distinction between physical and hallucination is just a distinction. Ultimately the hallucinated fan and a real physical fan are made of the same substance of consciousness, which is nothing, meaning just a deeper level of hallucination. Don't believe this, take higher doses of psychedelics (safe ones) and contemplate this to verify it or not.

Why not a low dose of LSD then? Filling your mind with all the bad trip reports and things that could go wrong is wise and cautionary to a certain point, but also adds a negative overlay to your own experience that wouldn't be there otherwise. Maybe the LSD will feel like heaven with no fear at all. Maybe it will confront you with existential terror, but not in the way you think, but rather in an uncomfortable way you can still at least handle in the right set/setting and with a sitter perhaps, and afterwards will be the most clarifying experience of your life.

I've had this in my earlier days of cannabis edibles, never on mushrooms though. Definitely an illusion, breathing isn't going to stop under conscious control unless its physically obstructed. What was the dose and type of mushrooms?

At some point you gotta bust through the "friendliness" and face the things you have to face. Start with lower doses.

Don't take it so literally, of course its not a competition. Its just a phrase I used to convey J Cole raps about more conscious subject matter. And yes, Drake's music isn't very conscious, that was the subject of my post.

2g Psilocybe Cubensis Trip Insights: -all fear is imaginary -insanity/sanity is just a groundless distinction -language is extremely limited -the inner child is still inside of you at all times, the innocence and bliss is still there and has never left -the human form is a representation of duality (symmetry-right eye, left eye, nostrils, ears, limbs. ect) -I asked about my emotional baggage and I got an answer saying that I already have healed a lot of traumas, I need to take a higher dose to go deeper next time. Felt like I was on the brink of interacting with entities but couldn't quite channel them, although the whole time it really felt like I was only with myself, except my ego took a huge backseat and all neurosis were gone.

Excited to start keeping a journal of some parts of my spiritual practice, mainly contemplation/self inquiry and other personal experiences. Will mainly use as a reference for myself to keep myself motivated and consistent in this work, perhaps even practice writing skills or use therapeutically, but hope others can draw inspiration as well to set forth or stay on track with their own journey. I started watching actualized.org videos around a year ago. I discovered it 'randomly' through the youtube sidebar suggestions. I remember I was watching a video from Ralph Smart (Infinite Waters) when I clicked on Leo's face. It was the video about karma, and I found it very interesting. From there I watched the "most important discovery" video of Leo's, or something along those lines, that there is no "I" residing in the skull, and I had a very strong emotional reaction from it. Not a denial, but a feeling of deep unease, yet wonder, which led to more open investigation. I started contemplating that idea myself, before I even knew contemplation was a spiritual practice, and found it earth shattering to my worldview once I could not locate myself as I thought I could. From there I started watching more and more of his content, researching about the nature of perception, and becoming more familiar with non-duality. Even after I read multiple books on non-duality, I still was entrenched entrenched in plenty of beliefs, unknowingly. I had some direct experiences that started to chip away at my belief of separation, but an important point that failed to hit me on a cellular level is: the map is not the territory. In some way I felt I was starting to close off my open ended personal investigation by being "fed the ultimate answers". I knew I had to experience all this for myself. From reading Peter Ralstons work, I made a commitment to enter a "state of not knowing" and be comfortable residing in it, in order to receive real insights.

This has been my experience as well

J Cole definitely has him beat on the Spiral.

If you insert actual mushrooms into your butthole im sure it would do nothing and be the funniest thing youve ever done to yourself and a tragic ending to that poor mushroom. The psilocybin needs to be broken down in your digestive system to psilocin. Now, the pure research chemicals similar to psilocybin, 4 aco-dmt, can be plugged.

Ran into her videos when searching for Actualized.org. Almost like shes teal swan with more direct teachings.

I'm gonna go out on a limb and say that lsd doesn't need to be plugged.

What @ajasatya said, the things are you are afraid of in social interaction really can do no harm to you. Don't expect to just shake it off in an instant, but trust in this, the more interaction you get, you will find thats theres no reason to be anxious. Be welcoming to experiencing what you are afraid of when in a social setting, feel into it, and accept it. Picture the most embarrassing, humiliating situation and still have unconditional love for yourself. You will find the majority of the time this is just imagination in your mind and not what is really even remotely likely to happen.