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It arouses the hot witches. Srs. Personally, I grew a beard because most of my life, especially in my childhood years of being indoctrinated into hyper-fundamentalist christianity, I could not have the luxury of growing a beard even if I wanted to later my teenage years. Once I awoken and entered my early 20s, having a beard felt natural, I was told It looked really good on me, and most importantly, perhaps the thing that matters most: It requires way less maintenance of my facial hair and time spent shaving. Of course beards still require maintenance but I can go a few weeks in between without having to worry about touching it up.

Its a mindfuck. The thought "there is something behind the scenes perceiving reality" is merely a thought. Just like any other thought, the content or symbolism by the language in the thought is arbitrary. All there actually is, is perception. No perceiver or thing being perceived. Your direct awareness is prior to all thought, you don't need to think or conceptualize anything through means of symbolism in order to "be" and be directly conscious of the fact you are aware and that all there is is perception.

Maybe instead of quasi-catfishing women on a dating app to test your own insecurities you work on developing yourself and approaching women in real-life interactions.

@Arzack Something that might help is taking a freezing cold shower earlier that day, your mind makes all sorts of excuses not to jump in the freezing water, but you just have to stop thinking and do it. When I am under the freezing cold, I keep my breath slow, controlled, and steady taking deep nasal breaths deep down the stomach. Use this to ground yourself in breath. Something for me that is like facing death, is when my head is submerged under the freezing flow of water, I do a visualization of what it would actually be like to be trapped under the ice or be a victim of the sinking of the titanic and die in this terrible way. I chip away at this fear little by little keeping my head under longer while keeping my breathing and try to let go and accept best I can. Of course its good not to be under for too long so you don't shock your brain/body, but this is a powerful, direct way of me priming myself to face fear of death. Maybe someone could try this as extra mental preparation for 5-meo.

Lol buddy, you are clearly deep in your own projections like quicksand.

Doesn’t mean it is unsafe either. Why don’t you wait till science clears up that safety profile issue for you completely? Because you’d be dead before that happens. These analogues are so closely related. LSD is a classical psych that is “synthetic” just like the research chems. The research chem 1-p LSD for example literally just breaks down into LSD in the body. Do some research and critical thinking instead of sucking on sciences tit for studies and proof you will never see most likely because of the legal situation.

I find this hilarious, because you think people are going to take it hyper-literally and legitimately try to get addicted because of me saying that...well they might be pissed to find out that they won’t be able to. Might even fuck around and realize reality is non dual in the process lol. Its an invitation to find out that after a powerful trip you do NOT want to do it again for a while. Not even taking physiological tolerance into account where you cant day in and day out trip without exponentially increasing dosage if that would even work (referring to mushrooms/LSD). Some psychedelics are the best cures known to man for getting rid of addictive behaviors. For example there is no better known success rate for opioid addiction than ibogaine. Test it for yourself instead of fearmongering something you have no experiential knowledge or understanding of.

Not good, I'm still working on transcending beige.

@Johnny5 I don't know what point you are trying to make here. Psychedelic use has been deeply, deeply intertwined with the evolution of society and culture dating back to ancient civilizations. One cannot pin all evolution of humanity to psychedelics, but through research you can see the huge influences of plant medicines of the past. Humans went from stage purple tribes in the jungle primarily into democracy. I think "it worked".

Go and try to become addicted to a psychedelic, I dare you. The word "addiction" is antithetical to psychedelics. The work being done here and the state psychedelics put you in transcend addiction. It a serious undertaking to trip and contemplate reality, facing your inner demons. It isn't a walk down the park having all these euphoric pleasurable experiences. Drop the scientific/rationally minded crusader act with all these beliefs you picked up from your culture and put your own skepticism to the test. These research chemicals are analogues of classic psychedelics which humanity has been using since the dawn of time to evolve and raise consciousness. "No long term studies" lol, with the war on drugs, one of americas biggest blunders to date, I wonder why there are no long term studies....

Sorry to hear this, really empathize with your situation. If I were you, since you have a good paying job you say, go start looking hard on Craigslist or other housing apps to see if you can rent a room. Maybe see if your co workers know any place that may be available. It may seem bleak at first but good things happen when you keep looking.

The strongest form of cannabis in my experience for entering into deeper states of consciousness is making your own edible out of the flower. Not the store-bought pre made edibles, those just have pure THC in them and the high they give you feels artificial. Buy some flower, one that doesn't have an extremely high ratio of THC compared to other cannabinoids, and make your own edible by grinding it up and mixing it into a fatty substance like peanut butter, and cooking in the oven for around 325 deg for roughly 10-15 minutes (ideally when the PB turns golden brown and before starts getting burnt) Treat it like a psychedelic trip, imo this has opened up deep states of consciousness for me, one time I entered this closed-eye visual DMT like realm with all sorts of patterns, chambers and geometric structures. This is a completely different animal from smoking it or taking in pre made edibles. Also, maybe its just me, but weed is not really addictive. Peanuts compared to an actually addictive hard substance, especially if you are using it to explore consciousness. I basically never use weed anymore because it doesn't offer much value to me, and when I do, it doesn't even feel that pleasurable like it used to. One can outgrow the need to use it altogether. If it becomes addictive its a psychological/emotional thing, you aren't going to experience bodily withdrawals unless maybe you get high 24/7 usually. If you have a good degree of self control and are developed emotionally you really don't have to be afraid of it becoming addictive and letting that deter you from using it to explore your consciousness.

I feel you big time with this. Have been in that situation before, where my ex was begging me not to break up, bursting into tears and saying things like she would hold out forever until I eventually came back to her. Like, let me tell you, it was realllly bad, im the guy who knows exactly what you are dealing with right now, its absolutely no joke how hard a situation like this is emotionally. I was with her for a little over 2 years. It was soul crushing to see her crying in person when we met about having the talk about breaking up. Its the hardest thing ever. I had to do it a week later, she was not expecting it, that I just put my foot down and said this is it. I thought karma was going to destroy me for what I did, but 2 years later I have created such an amazing life and have had all sorts of personal growth compared to what I had with her. Fast forward she is engaged to someone else now. Ultimately you got to do whats best for you. No matter how heart breaking it is to see her like this, you have to realize that staying with her out of pity because of her distraught emotional state will not lead to long term happiness and you will just keep running into the same problems and have that background feeling of being trapped. My best advice is to be strong and do it, she will also grow a lot from this and find someone else if she wants. And learn from my mistake: don't just jump into something new in a serious way, take serious time being by yourself if you are able to, seeing girls here and there is fine but put some space in between another long term relationship no matter how much you want to jump back in if you find someone who you think is the one for you.

Had a big insight about myself the other day: For years, now, since I was a teenager, maybe even before that, when I was in solitude and would have anxiety-provoking or uncomfortable thoughts appear, I would instantly start saying something out loud, blurting shit out, completely random, like for example start singing or mumbling something funny to myself. Since I started doing consciousness work, I became hyper aware of this for the last few months, but didn't really know what the root issue was. I was wondering: was it my shadow? I didn't know how to deal with it, for example, I was wondering if I should just accept and embrace it, or keep digging deeper to understand. I knew I was trying to avoid the uncomfortable thoughts, but I recently became conscious of the exact mechanism of what I was doing. Days before the insight I had watched this video: Ralston explains why you can't think of music playing in your head (even music without words) and also think other thoughts simultaneously. The reason is because the language that constructs your thinking and the music both occupy the "sound function" in your mind. Thats what they are, actually, thoughts and music: both sounds/noises in your mind. I made the connection days later that the reason why I was blurting out random things to avoid my uncomfortable thoughts (maybe about social situations or worries about past/future) is because my mind was wanting to override the "sound function" to take my consciousness away from the emotional labor. This insight was pure ecstasy when I made the connection. It was just instantly downloaded into me out of nowhere, wasn't even thinking about the matter in the moment. It seems obvious now in hindsight what I had been doing for all those years, but its amazing how this mechanism was beneath my consciousness for so long, multiple years, intelligently playing out its survival function. Survival/distraction mechanisms are powerful and are processing way more things "behind the scenes" than what your intellect is aware of.

Its a stretch in the sense it is inherently an abstraction, since spiral dynamics is only a model, but a fun thought experiment to observe how different stages generally tend to view or use caffeine. Ton of variance in how each individual no matter what stage they most fall under will use caffeine though. I don't think he was jumping to any conclusions, just sharing ideas.

This guy said he studied non-duality and drank ayahuasca then went back to christian orthodoxy....makes me wonder wtf is going on there. I stopped watching after he freeze framed Leos face when he was adjusting his eyes or something to say it was "demonic possession" lmao.

@Osaid Yeah I think cannabis has triggered it as well in the past. The hypnogogia from wake to sleep is enhanced under cannabis for me and I could actually sometimes feel my body starting to become paralyzed as it was coming on. I got too afraid last time it happened and tried to avoid it, now I think this would be an interesting opportunity to explore that state of consciousness if I muster up the courage to do so.

Its when you are half in REM sleep and half awake. I have experienced it many times in the past, very frightening. Didn't see any entities but always felt like an evil presence. If its any coincidence, once my health habits and sleep hygiene improved, I stopped experiencing it.

Used to have massive social anxiety. Through a years of personal development and working on being more authentic/less of a people pleaser/completely grounded in myself for happiness the anxiety disappears naturally and gradually. Tons of other factors too like living a holistically healthy lifestyle with emphasis on exercise/sleep/nutrition. As a personal trainer I am working and interacting with new clients all the time teaching and coaching them. Being anxious about what people are thinking of you just starts to become silly.

I find especially in the younger people, like in college, they are locked in their shells of fear and most aren't able to express and develop their true sense of humor without the dread of being judged by their peers. Thats what it seems like to me at least.

One must first actually develop the skill of becoming lucid at will in their dreams and manipulate the dream world and maybe work on your shadow. That is no easy task for the majority of people. Even so, the psychedelic experience is just different and shows you certain things that dreaming does not. Have you actually experientially confirmed that paradigm of reality being imagination? Its one thing to be lucid in a dream knowing you are dreaming, another to be awake in the middle of the day, take a psychedelic and have reality in the waking world transform. At least in my opinion, these things compliment each other for the complete picture of finding the truth about reality.

Touching on your "hellish experience", from my own extensive use of edibles in the past and more recent experiences with mushrooms, a high dose of edible is much more likely to put me in a bad state of mind, promote negative/paranoid thoughts, than the mushroom at also a moderate to moderately high dose. There is something about cannabis that, while in the past has helped me raise my consciousness, has a ceiling-like effect where I no longer get much use out of it and nowadays.

Exactly, and how would one even know that they "got the message" when theres an infinite amount of messages one could receive, each one being more profound than the last? Better quote would be "do whatever the fuck you want with psychedelics, its your own consciousness, just take responsibility and know what you're getting in to."

Thanks for the recommendation man. I ordered Boundless when it came out, it is very impressive but to be honest, if you’ve already dove deep in his podcasts, website, speeches, ect, it isnt providing that much new material. But it is a nice thing for reference. It is like the exercise physiology and general health version of “Becoming a Supple Leopard” (more biomechanics focused). Both are “cookbooks” so to speak for reference to aid in your health and fitness journey.