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Have the wisdom to listen to your body. If it's making you feel this way, consider no longer smoking weed. Not only will you not feel these things anymore, but your lungs will thank you too!

Anybody on Vancouver Island, Canada in here?

You're already much farther along than you realize. The fact you're even aware of your emotions when talking to her is half way to finding a solution. Now that you notice your emotions, breathe. Let them rise, feel what you feel about them, and then let them pass.... Don't dwell on the anger, or the content of what she is saying, that will cause you to react to it and just feed the irritation further. Respond to her in a way that will feel better than anger, because you're mindful of what that anger feels like and how it's the place you don't want to be. It's ok to be irritated or whatever. Not everyone is compatible with everyone else. All you can do is the best you can. She may always be a little frustrating to you, but is that worth any more stress than it already is? Nope, and you can keep it that way.

One thing at a time man lol. I've got a whole laundry list of things I want to do and accomplish before I can even get enlightened, whatever that might mean. Thanks @Zigzag Idiot, @seeking_brilliance for your help.

I've been struggling for a long while (since late 2017 when I started all this) trying to maintain the level of awareness and consciousness I would like, especially in day to day living. I find being out and about in society running errands, or working/being busy getting things done keeps my brain in kind of an "auto-pilot" low consciousness mode. Either because it exhausts me as an introvert or because I subconsciously know (or I think) it won't be helpful to be super "aware" during that time, even though I do try to be. When I get home I'm usually tired and physically exhausted (I work a physical job and do firefighting on the side) and just want to turn my brain off even more and distract myself with entertainment and relaxation. However this is my free time where I want to be consciously pursing the things I want deep down. Usually my higher self and "awareness" comes at the moments at late night when I should be going to sleep, or I get extreme moments of clarity after days, weeks, or even MONTHS have passed having realized yes I did get basic shit done during all this time, but overall it feels like I'm wasting my life. It feels like I'm living the skeleton of what my life could be and my potential is slipping away, you know? These constant up and down waves and spikes from low consciousness to higher consciousness are very frustrating and makes me resentful of all the time I've lost because I can't maintain any damn consistency with it. I feel it's feeding a deep depression inside me and some other negative emotions and I just would like it to stop. I've made progress on basic things to aid me like getting regular sleep and cutting back sugar/caffeine in my diet, but I need more help. For people who have gone through this and have experience in consciousness work what are the best and most effective things to help maintain a higher, consistent level of awareness? I want to know all your secrets, tricks, and techniques so I can throw them at the wall and see what sticks. Thanks in advance for any contributions. Hope the new year is being good to you all so far.

Oh I don't want to hot-fix anything. I'm in it for the long haul. I'm just after the things that helped people in their journey.

I think the brush you're using here is a bit too broad @Leo Gura, and you should be more careful with using "baiting" language. A lot of these people aren't fools and devils in the degree context you're using them in. Remember everything has become so polarized and un-nuanced that this just comes down to a very linear choice for someone like Corey Wayne, among others. "Oh he's a business man who likes success and money, and doesn't care what people think. I like him more than the other candidate!" People simply flock to whatever side resonates with them. Usually regardless of how informed they are of all the details. Most people don't even have time or care enough to keep up, which is why they done rebuke their position until it's cartoonish evil to stay the course. Ignorance and maliciousness are two different things. Are you saying every single supporter of Trump in any capacity, current or past tense is a fool or a devil? I resent having to phrase it that way but you aren't leaving much ambiguity which is the problem I'm getting at.

He meant that on top of being a man, you want to embrace your feminine side as well, it's additive. This doesn't mean you need to sacrifice any of your masculinity, it just means not resisting expressing any feminine traits or behaviors when they come up. Becoming a "complete" person, essentially. The work is done here by noticing when your insecure thoughts and emotions when they arise, "I'm not allowed and I shouldn't like this thing because that's what girls like." A real man doesn't give a shit what people think of them. They will like what they like and behave the ways they feel is authentic, regardless if it's considered feminine.

I would fucking hope not lol. Day trading is literally gambling at a casino. Don't give into the shitty YouTube hype for the "laptop lifestyle", greed, and impatience. Be responsible and don't piss away your hard earned money.

It happens because sex is a root primal, animalistic urge. It's essentially as necessary for men as water or food is. Not quite, but almost. Most living things in the animal kingdom rape, it's actually quite disturbingly common. However we have the capacity to transcend this and except others to follow suit. Being so important this need must be fulfilled. The problem and horrible result of rape is because those men that commit the act are low consciousness and unaware/ignorant of how, or just unwilling to fulfill the need in a healthy, legal, consensual way. They are simply fulfilling the need, regardless of cost. Must people won't admit it, but we are all capable of some pretty terrible things. If you're starving dangerously for food or water, and sense death is knocking at your door, you probably wouldn't think too much about killing someone for it. It's just survival.

He seems to be way off with that prediction in my opinion. We are barely starting to see Green take a stronger hold now in the West (let alone anywhere else in the world) and look at the massive resistance it's getting. It'll be another 30 years (ie a whole new generation born/baby boomers all being dead) until we see the shift into majority Green, let alone any sort of significant Yellow. Keep in mind the possibility we could all be being fantastically naïve about this. These are solid assumptions but don't take anything for granted. Climate change, resource strain, economic/class revolts could cause a war or an equal amount of destruction that it sets us back or keeps Green/Yellow from coming back for hundreds of years. Reality is a high stakes game.

Been like a year since I posted so here is the update me!

Well, what do you really want out of life? What is that exactly, be specific. Having lots of stuff and being really comfortable isn't what you actually want (even if you think you do), because no matter how much you get you'll just keep raising the bar for how much you need to be satisfied. This is why you have the phenomena of egregiously rich people who are depressed, suicidal, and unhappy. So that's not the answer. I mean what do you want your daily life to look like, what are you doing? Who are you with? Where are you? Does this cost a lot of money to more or less reach the place where those things are a daily reality for you? If so then yes, getting some money is important. If not, no. The important thing to remember is money is tertiary. It's never the most important thing. Resources are what you use FOR everything else in life, you don't use life for resources.

Whatever happens we'll have to learn to play nice or straight up capitulate to them, they will be the only game in town soon. Otherwise war is inevitable.

Judging, worrying, and trying to control how other people express their love and what kind of relationships they get into is a huge ego game, and an even bigger distraction from doing your own inner personal work. If someone wants multiple partners and it's all consensual, good on them! If someone is happy spending their life with the first person they meet, good on them! If someone wants a same sex relationship, good on them! Mind your own bloody business and work on your own happiness. Maybe society is deteriorating from polygamy, who cares? Maybe it's the inevitable evolution of things, and the result of a free society expressing itself? Regardless it's completely out of your control, panicking and resisting reality will only lead to suffering. Reality is literally perfect as it is and exactly as it should be. Accept it.

This is one of the drawbacks of the internet - information is so abundant and easily manipulated, and individuals have the freedom to create or pursue the depths of whatever rabbit-holes they like, crystallizing their own biases. People have always believed crazy things, but now the audiences are much more engaged and nobody has to bother listening to conflicting worldviews if they don't feel like it, unlike the past news. At least before the limited public media sphere made it harder to espouse such insanity without major backlash. All par for the course though, it's evolution, baby!

Maybe, it would be nice, but this work is vastly too abstract. There are so many complexities, tricks, and counter-intuitive pieces that it feels like an infinite spider web in the mind going in all possible directions. Nothing feels simplistic and "factual". Rather there are just lots of aha moments as things become less foggy and more clear.

Yes it's absolutely not a country. it's just quickly vaguely drawn borders on the map by the British and their hasty retreat from being a global empire after the second world war. Based on everything you mentioned, and the glaring state of things currently. It's pretty obvious things will never significantly better in the near, or even long term future. Even if all the political, economic, and social issues magically cured themselves, the area is going to get fucking ravaged by climate change. Look at a city right now like Basrah. It's already going through near unlivable temperatures of 50C through almost half the year. This is only going to get worse too, it's unstoppable. I'd do all you can to move somewhere and find a better life my friend. Be safe.

A little trick; make sure you have to pee somewhat before sex (but not too bad it's uncomfortable). You'll last a very long time.

Reduce your nutella toast to a little ritual. How about from now on you only eat nutella once every sunday morning. That way you get your fix and it's something to look forward to. Only eat it in the morning on that day as a treat and ONLY then.

Heavily.

Don't waste your time getting into Amazon FBA or any of that bullshit. It's massively oversaturated and it's the equivalent of scalping or running a pawn shop. You offer nothing of real value to society. Just buying and reselling goods and products other people made at a higher price. Go to trade school and learn a real skill. You're going to be grinding endless hours for little reward with Amazon now. That gold rush has passed already.

We are in a pandemic so yeah approaching strangers in close proximity isn't the wisest thing. Don't think with your dick. There will be plenty of chances in life to approach in the future.

I know it might be an area of your life you want to fix or improve on, but perhaps now with the pandemic in it's worst moments it isn't the time to be committing to such a course? On top of it pushing your finances to the edge as you mentioned, you might not even be able to get the most out of what you're paying. People are going out less, bars and clubs are closed in many places, and it's not as socially acceptable to get close to people in public. I'd exercise some patience until summer my friend. Maybe just satisfy yourself the best you can with online dating right now, and meet people irl from those so you can arrange Covid friendly dates.

That tells you what you need to know. You have not fully moved past this if these feelings are coming up after that long.