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Likewise I don't think I would have healed it unless I did a bunch of other work first. In fact I never really recalled anything until a few years ago, guess it was a signal I was ready to finally move past it. Yo you ever get my PM a while ago?

That's because Centrists are lazy scum that don't stand for anything but sitting down.

I don't know anything about you or your experiences so I don't want to make any assumptions, but I'm willing to guess your #1 problem and something you just admitted to is simply not socializing enough or physically putting yourself in positions where you can have sex or get a girlfriend. For example when Covid is over go attend some parties. Multiple people have sex every time at just about every party that has ever happened in human history. I guarantee after attending at least 10 parties with intent (but also detached from outcome) you will get laid minimum at least once, and perhaps have a relationship/girlfriend spawning from that encounter. I never said anything about those dynamics. They exist in varying degree. My point is the falsity of people believing sex is some sort of magical act, and then shaming those who haven't or choose not to have it as "less than". Sex doesn't mean anything, unless you choose to believe it does.

Yea well, Leo is wrong.

Exactly. The idea that someone isn't a healthy or "complete" person if they haven't had sex yet is a total fabrication and a reflection of a neurotic culture that is trying to gatekeep an imaginary rite of passage using the tool of shame. It makes no difference if someone has had sex or not, or if they drink black coffee or regular coffee. The people that are caught up in the cultural conditioning will have this insistent feeling that sex is somehow this special thing that only certain people can get. This is a delusion. Sex is completely unremarkable and quite easy to get, you just have to want it a little bit. Human beings are like any other living thing and have a natural force pushing them towards it. We need to de-mystify sex if we want to create a healthier more conscious society. Sex is about natural and insignificant and as breathing, or waking up in the morning to take a shit. We have an INCREDIBLY sick and unforgiving culture that causes symptoms of young men like Elliot Rodger going on a murder rampage and killing 7 people because of the great crime of not getting laid by his early 20's.

I think it's actually the toxic cultural pressure and ego games people play on each other that is the source of all the "problems" and "disfunction" a person might have. There is nothing inherently wrong with a virgin that causes them to be a virgin. In an ideal society it wouldn't matter at all if someone has had sex or not or the arbitrary age they chose to do it at. It's like worrying about if a person likes to eat cheese or not. Or if they didn't drink their first beer until they 45.

I think someone already made this thread you might want to move your discussion there.

It's not gaslighting. You actually just have a warped and flawed perspective on how to understand the other sex. If you want to learn anything and develop you need to completely drop this score-keeping bullshit paradigm.

The absolute biggest indicator is looking at what values you have integrated HEATHILY into your life. You can hold, argue, and pay lip service to all these grand values of a stage all you want. But unless you've made the "rubber hit the road" so to speak it essentially means nothing. For example if you rant on about environmentalism and demonize those for their actions or not taking it seriously, and then haven't taken any concrete steps yourself to respect the environment or lead by example. Then you are probably a stage lower than you think you are in THAT particular aspect. Spiral Dynamics only becomes useful as a model for personal development if you're brutally honest and observe yourself intently.

Best music video I've seen in many years.

Yea I sent you some in a PM !

It's exactly the answer. - People hop along and subscribe for a certain type of content, but then the content changes so they stop watching. Leo's content from start to finish couldn't be more radical lol. - The videos have gotten ridiculously long compared to what they were years ago. Naturally filtering out a ton of people. - It's a self-help channel. People subscribe after watching some videos for a particular issue that they need help with. After they get what they need they leave and stop watching. Try convincing most people to watch a 4 hour video on the metaphysics of reality in "Sameness vs Difference" vs 15 minutes of "How to make a girl fall in love with you".

It's good you want to drop all your fake turquoise ideas about enlightenment, but be careful to not just replace them with "yellow views and ideas". You want to entertain and learn about all the different perspectives on enlightenment to give you a good road map so you aren't wasting a lot of time, but all of that stuff won't actually equal the thing itself. The map is not the territory. As you start doing work towards it and build your own direct and personal experience you'll have the best "idea" about it you can, but you'll have to shed that too as you go deeper. Careful not to rush through Stages or fool yourself into thinking you are higher than you are and thereby skipping important things to integrate. Developing takes a lifetime and it's important to be humble. Follow your authentic journey day by day and really savor your path, all the gritty minute stuff too. Remember Rome wasn't built in a day

I definitely think so, though intuitively I feel it's on a different wavelength or "mode" of consciousness that is foreign to our traditional understanding.

This stems directly from a place of neediness and lack of self acceptance. You need to steel yourself with the mentality (and the truth) that you are actually complete exactly as you are and don't need anyone or anything. Affirmation practices are an effective answer for this. Set the intention of what I mentioned above and repeat it to yourself out loud everyday. Actually try this and ignore/push past any resistances you feel about it being lame or stupid. This rewires your subconscious mind and overtime will leak over into your conscious mind. There will come a point when you notice those jealous thoughts and feelings start to become less frequent, then eventually fade away completely. Good luck

Speak for yourself mate

There are fundamentally 3 kinds of people in the world - Dogs, Wolves, and Sheep. The sheep are the helpless and the weak, innocent with good nature, but unfortunately cannot defend themselves. Wolves are those who exploit and prey on the sheep. Some of them were once dogs, or they were too scared to rise to their higher nature of becoming dogs. Dogs are those who can lead and inspire other dogs and sheep, and those who protect sheep from wolves. A high quality man is a good dog. They lead, inspire, and put their skin on the line protecting sheep from wolves.

General rule; if you aren't absolutely sure what you want to invest or spend it on, don't touch it. Just because it's sitting there doesn't mean you have to use it. A lot of young people (you look very young from your pic) make the mistake of impulsively buying stuff like iPhones and clothes etc. and rationalize it because they just "have" the money. Of course enjoy yourself here and there, but don't be stupid, stupid Simple ideas are using it for basic practical stuff that helps you get ahead. For example getting a used car; once you have a vehicle to move yourself around that opens up a ton of independence and the amount of potential jobs you can reach without relying on others, walking/biking (time consuming), or spotty public transit. Before you do anything else though the most important thing is having an emergency fund. MINIMUM 2 months of living costs (housing/food) so if anything unforeseen and terrible happens, you are prepared. Literally put this money somewhere and pretend it doesn't exist. People have different emergency funds based on what they need. Personally I have 2K cash in a safe that hasn't been touched since I put it away 4 years ago. I probably never will touch it but it's good to know I always have that security. You don't ever want to be in a position where you have nothing at all when shit hits the fan, that's the point of an emergency fund.

Start studying and learning to appreciate systems, practicing radical acceptance, and mindfully shedding judgement and demonization.

What in the fuck am I reading here in this thread lmao.

Look if you are truly happy and not hurting anyone, power to you. But your family and friends deserve love too. It's not their fault if they don't understand, try and put yourself in their shoes. Consider the fact they raised you, sheltered you, fed you, and loved you for 18 years. Reconnect even if it's painful and don't be avoidant. Be humble enough and realize maybe your "level" isn't as high as you think it is if resentment and anger are the emotions you have towards those who aren't as conscious. Suicide is not the answer to anything. It's just another form of selfishness.

Oh, I thought this was a Wendy's.

It has nothing to do with paranoia. It's simply a good idea to utilize this convenient technology to satisfy our need for communication during a time when our regular amount of constant face to face interaction is not a good idea. This isn't a joke, millions of people are dying and suffering, and to suggest it's a "scam" or a "hoax" makes it seem like you are psychopathically disconnected from reality. The fear doesn't exist just for shits and giggles. Right now you are a child @Village, when what you need to be is an adult.

You desperately need to change your standards here and reframe your "win condition". The point should be to improve attainably, even if just a little bit, day by day. If you are better off in your life doing self-improvement than not, then you have won I think the best thing for where you are at is to be accepting and not go too hard on yourself. Look to make incremental changes and sustainable improvements. Focus your attention on the smaller things you know you can 100% do, and do not worry about the end-game too much or if you will be "world-class" or not. 99% of people won't be by pure definition so no need to stress about it haha. For example, because of your conditions it's important to respect your energy and focus levels. Don't overload yourself, listen to your body and realize how much time you can focus on something before you get tired or bored, then plan to use that time effectively. If you like drawing, and get the urge to draw, don't force yourself to draw for a long time if you don't have the energy. Simply do it and stop when you like, then see how you feel.

Counterintuitive nihilistic motivation