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Is there any way you can get some other shifts or change your schedule to days? I'm sure being up with the rest of the world would help your mood. I'm a nighthawk too and it can be peaceful, but I'll take days over evenings/nights every time.

What have you been doing lately? What does your average day look like?

Completely cut out or severely limit chronically bad things for you like tobacco/vaping, weed, alcohol, junk food, + basically all man-made drugs/medications. Only use any of those things at most a few occasions a year. That alone should get you an extra 5+ years back lol. Also don't live in the city if you don't have to. The air and water pollution + the stress and noise from traffic and human activity is very bad for your health. I don't care how clean you think your city is, it's literally unnatural for you as an animal. Get the money you can from living there then gtfo.

Nice, keep going!

People do all sorts of weird things against the grain what they're feeling all the time. They might just not have the social aptitude or maturity to be direct and communicate how they are feeling or what they really want. I went on a date with a woman last year. We went hiking off trail and found a nice spot to sit down. We ended up making out for a while, she initiated about half of it too. Got to know each other well, we were laughing the entire time. It was a successful date by every metric. Guess what? She texts me the next day saying how I'm an asshole and irresponsible for kissing her, how it's the middle of Covid and not a very caring thing to do to be actively dating and kissing people lol. This is the same person who was moaning when I was kissing her neck less than 24 hours ago. She was a medical assistant at a hospital so she works with vulnerable people. I'm guessing she projected onto me how she is disappointed with herself for breaking her own standards and boundaries, and put all the blame on me. Even though she could have just turned away when I went to kiss her. Guess how old she was? A 32 year old full grown adult woman You would expect someone that age to be able to communicate something so basic right? The moral of the story is - humans are really odd creatures. Don't expect too much or make assumptions because you never know how you will be surprised.

Here is the thing with conspiracies - even if it's correct it's a negative use of energy. Unless you're a serious journalist trying to uncover some truth. However 99% of conspiracy theorists aren't journalists, and they certainly don't care about making the world a better place. They just want their biases validated. That negative use of energy just saps everyone of time and lowers consciousness. You can even see it in the faces of the people that peddle them. They look unhealthy, like their life force is being drained. One has to ask, is that any way to live?

They were on it for a rush and wanted to get a kick out of it. Once they got what they wanted they feel shame and want to move on and forget.

MrGirl definitely is far more a Liberal than a Conservative. He is also just a provocative artist that I imagine doesn't want to belong to the monolithic progressive mob that dominates 90% of left-wing discourse these days. I consider myself Liberal on the majority of topics as well, but there are a few I diverge on like the death penalty.

This forum is NOT your therapy. This forum is your heroine and you refuse to admit that. You need to ween yourself off and quit like any other addict. You've already claimed it's made you suicidally depressed on multiple occasions. Pardon my language, but does that not give you a fucking hint that maybe you should distance yourself from this place?

Here is the truth - If users can't comment or participate in people's journals, then there is literally NO purpose to having a journal section. It would just serves as a place for those making the journals to feed their own narcissism, or make people feel sorry for them when reading it. The entire section would become meaningless and redundant. The purpose of an internet forum is for open interaction. If that interaction is toxic, they will be punished. Just like any other section. Having a public journal and also wanting the exception for nobody to be able to interact, is like running an open stand at a convention, and then telling the people that come by to look at your stand to fuck off. It makes an inexcusable amount of sense.

Why can't you just use a physical journal? It will be a healthier process and you won't have to deal with people being able to read or comment on it. You aren't going to solve your trauma and issues by sitting and thinking about them all the time. That's not how you heal. You need to have things to occupy you in life to give you perspective and meaning. If your entire identity is revolved around "curing" yourself, it's gonna be extra hard to succeed at that because you're putting so much unneeded pressure on. Obsessing over your problems does nothing. I've learned the hard way, trust me.

I'm sorry you're suffering, but in a way you're doing it to yourself preety. Apologies if that sounds harsh. I know because I go through the same sort of stuff with anxiety and depression. You spend ALL day every day on this forum creating a lot of the drama you suffer from. Yes people can be dicks and hurtful, but that's life, you can't control them. You can only control yourself and how you react to it. You've been here years and it's just been getting worse, the entire environment can't just change to suit you. We've already put in a lot of work catering to protect you, and it just doesn't end. The world doesn't work like that. You have to take responsibility for yourself and the situations you're in. If your environment sucks, you don't endlessly expect it to change to meet your every whim. You leave the environment. Do you even have a job, or hobbies at all that don't have anything to do with here? It's no wonder you're anxious and depressed, when you're stewing on things that happen here literally 24/7...

Ahh, the good ol' "I was just trolling bro, ahahaha!" Well, since I can't know if your stupidity is genuine or not. You leave me no choice but to put you on my block list. Probably for the best. What's the saying again? Never argue with a moron because from a distance people can't tell the difference?

Not an accusation, I simply pointed out your own admission - "I've tried veganism and vegetarianism for years, trying to get it right, but I felt like shit compared to how I feel on this meat-based diet." Something can be beneficial for someone, and still simotaneously be stupid at a systemic level. They aren't mutually exclusive. That's fundamental to a lot of selfish behavior. I won't give you any examples, I'd like you to brainstorm one and start thinking critically (without using the one we are talking about of course). I simply said it's not very wise. You are jumping to assign arguments to me, I imagine because you read my statement of disbelief about people being tricked into silly fad diets, and got triggered realizing, "hey, I am one of those people!" Apparently you are triggered and insecure enough with yourself you felt the need to make passive aggressive assumptions about the level of my personal ambitions, and possessions of "weakness/slavery". I don't really want to, but perhaps just this once I could stoop to your level and communicate in a language you will understand; I make a living from being an Emergency Medical Responder and Firefighter, and am training to get my wildland firefighting certifications for this summer so I can make a direct impact on helping the environment in the face of a stark ecological situation. How is that for weakness and being anti-life/anti-human ? You see some of us actually put our skin in the game and have the guts to call out bullshit within ourselves when we see it. That's the whole purpose of personal development work, after all. You can do it too! You don't need to have your ability to pursue your ambitions locked behind a firewall of requiring "vitality" and whatever other vague buzzwords you picked up from your favorite YouTubers. Maybe watch this old but gold video on Collective Ego and you'll see the ways you're being sucked into different groups like nutritionist cults, and why this whole topic is upsetting enough for you to want to argue and defend something as silly as what food you eat. Maybe all that meat is like, upping your blood pressure bro

As long as you have the same core values, you're happy, and you treat each other well. That's all that matters. You're gonna have trouble finding all that AND having her be an intellectual match and be at the same level of consciousness. Remember they are a different person and you both are leading different lives. You can't force her to equalize to your level. You just gotta find someone you vibe with. Don't try to change people, that will doom any relationship.

That's fine. The funny thing is, I was going to put that disclaimer in my first post to avoid this. I chose not to because I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. But here we are. You know it's telling with how quick you are acting to protect your own twisted worldview, that you would project and assign an attitude of "anti-life" to me for making a passing statement that maybe, just maybe spending $200 a week to eat 4 or 5 different animals for the sake of a diet is a bad, perhaps even dare I say, stupid idea. That isn't even a fundamentally controversial statement or moralization, just an obvious observation about reckless resource consumption. The fact I said it (without it being addressed at anyone in particular), and you interjected to share your resentment of your bad experience with veganism and labelled me one without any sufficient reason says more about your moralization than it does about mine.

You don't even realize how tangled you are in your own web of projections and biases. I never mentioned or told you to do anything with veganism or vegetarianism in my post. I am not even vegan or vegetarian myself, I eat meat.

These are just bullshit ego games and rationalizations. Which is ok by the way, since we are all in the same predicament boat. What is "net positive" for you (us) may not be so great for a lot of beings around us. Human activity (currently) at it's core is fundamentally corrosive to ecology and the natural systems around us. If this isn't obvious well, there is nothing I provide to meaningfully upgrade your awareness. You'll have to come to it on your own. Unless your work is literally directly impactful on ecology and sustainability, or shifting the consciousness of others in a positive way, chances are you are less than neutral force, or draining on the ecology like most people. Not placing blame either, this seems to be par the course per evolution.

He has to be here. It would be negligent to have a daycare that hosts 1000+ kids a day and not be present

Not only is it disgusting to eat that much meat, it's an insult to any ethical standards or sustainability. Think about the plethora of animals that have to die weekly just to keep a single stupid human alive. How people get attracted and tricked into such insane eating habits is beyond me. You can think of any category of food ever and there is some mouth breather somewhere who is preaching it as gospel. There was some dude on here months ago claiming eating pure fruit is the way to go. lol sorry man but if I'm gonna be a firefighter carrying heavy shit constantly I need a bit better fuel than ****** oranges and pineapple. From what I've seen what you eat doesn't really need to be hyper specific. As long as it's balanced and you are exercising and get your blood moving, your body will start to take a better shape. This isn't a pass to not care about what you consume, obviously. In the end though if you want a 6 pack you need to hit the gym, period. Unless you get a 6 pack of beer of course

That's a good question. It has happened before so it's not really anything new. fundamentally I just don't really participate in that kind of stuff. I like Leo and being part of this community but I don't feel obliged to defend it, like it's an ideological bubble that needs protection from outside attacks. I view it as a decentralized place where people can come and go, like myself even as a moderator. I'm here out of love and because where I'm at in my life right now, and someday it will be time to leave. I am not an "Actualizer", I'm just a dude from Canada. Ultimately Leo has to defend himself anyways (if he deems it necessary). I've seen all the criticism and hell, I've made my own directly to him too. It's par for the course when you're on the internet. It can be a bloodbath. I can only judge things from my own perception, and from what I've seen despite some of the radical and outlandish things he's claimed (which are part of the marketing I'm guessing), Leo has an incredible amount of integrity. He's done a good job to distance and separate himself from his viewers. He sets hard boundaries to keep his own life from getting mixed up with people so it doesn't turn into a cult scenario. The opposite of someone like Teal Swan who might have good intentions but has to go through a scandal because she lives/works/sleeps with people in her community. Just a big mess of drama.

I'm happy to see Coffee explode like this. I was watching him back in 2019 when he was frying small fish and poking fun at internet gurus. He is doing good work exposing so many scams and human bullshit. That kind of skepticism is needed desperately in our time of social media completely warping our perception of things.

A guy finally gets laid and his entire world changes. See the power you have ladies! Happy for you bro.

I don't know what the solution is but something needs to be done about the way social media works because it's responsible for degrading not only our culture but democracy itself.

Civilization will go on even after all those things. Consider perhaps they might even be necessary lessons to reach the next level of intelligence and wisdom. Why would evolution care how many humans have to die to develop? Are you aware that up to 1 billion humans have died to warfare/conflict in history just for us to reach the relative peace we have now?