This isn't as serious a problem as the other stuff in this forum but I'll post it anyway. I realize I can get triggered from certain religious/political opinions that disagree with mine. I won't go into specifics as to what it is because really it's an emotional and not logical thing and I don't want to start off topic discussion. I really don't want to feel this kind of discomforting sadness or anger over anyone's opinions even if their opinion is actually a personal attack towards me, and I don't think I do for most things.
But recently I saw a specific political/religious attack on an online comment and it affected me strangely deeply, possibly because I tried resisting it more then usual, it also had a lot of likes and other agreeing comments so maybe subconsciously I felt like I was being attacked by the majority opinion. I also saw someone in the replies getting triggered and flaming over it and I felt a deep sadness for them because I knew what it is like. When I saw it I felt a kind of bubbling sensation of anger around my face and I knew this time was worse then usual. I've seen it in the past and felt nothing / mild anger, but this time it ticked me off. Now it keeps creeping back into my thoughts and making me feel bitter and angry. Even a little nauseous and losing my appetite sometimes. I didn't reply but I went through the entire page of comments, disliking anything that said the opinion, there were a lot.
I think it's because as a kid I saw this specific thing online and it shocked me, I felt deeply disturbed as if it was a personal attack on me and my family, I argued about it for long hours online flaming over it, and I stuffed all this anger into my subconscious and it's now resurfaced.
Furthermore it's somehow made me remember a instance in my past and make me get even angrier over it then I was at the time. Basically at school a teacher relayed this opinion among others during the course that deeply offended me, and I felt the same bubbling anger back then but much less so, and I actually don't think I felt that affected by it and kind of shrugged it off. I even see that professor around sometimes and the first few times I didn't feel that poorly, but every other time I see him it seems to shock my system a little more.
An example of how much it bothered me, I start feeling an anger in the back of my mind directed at strangers as if they all must think this way and are also personally against me, at my first day in a new class I felt this very heavily. I also have strange thoughts about hurting the people who I saw saying the triggering opinion (not my teacher, but rather people online who I didn't see in person, maybe because I don't have a face to see).
Other things that may be adding to it. I started nofap recently to stop my depression and it's working, but I also feel more irritable, more anxious, and more nervous, this is probably happening because I also took a strong anti depressant that I now quit which had a side effect of causing anxiety, even though I didn't feel that anxiety while I took it (but I did feel depressed).
I really hate this feeling and I don't want to feel this way, even if I'm 100% right but everyone around me not only agrees with it but also personally hates me, (which I know isn't true of course), I still wouldn't want to feel this cornered. I'd rather just be at ease and accept it.
If anyone's gone through something similar and gotten past it I'd appreciate advice and resources. And please don't try and speculate what the opinion that triggered me is...