TheAlchemist

This is the best complete tripping playlist I have encountered so far. I like it much more the John Hopkins and Imperial College ones. Goes on for over 10hours and also has some reassuring words planted in the music which is really nice.

So I finally got a hold of some shrooms and I met up with my friend to get ready to take them. I had taken an over 3 year break from psychedelics, because I was really not ready for them when I was 18 years old and first experimenting with them on my own. For the past year I have felt that I am ready to dive into those waters again, and today it was going to happen. Anyways, we decided to head to the forest and we took a tent and hammocks with us and headed out. We set up camp and I ingested 3.5 grams of Psilocybe Cubensis and got ready. It was only about 20-30 minutes when I started to feel the effects starting. I was very surprised how quick they were hitting me. I was laying in the tent with a blindfold on, and I had a playlist playing on my headphones that has been made for those MAPS psychedelic studies. It's very difficult to describe but I felt it coming in waves. I started seeing colors and mandala like geometric patterns. The colors were very intense. I remember seeing this infinite blueness that was part of the mandala like figure. At around 45-60 minutes I was transported to different worlds that were very mysterious. I remember this environment where there were two opposing doors in some kind of massive structure. There was a bridge between the doors that was something like a kilometer long. I kept letting go in my mind and I was transported into a whole new level of light and amazement. I kept "telling" the mushroom that I want to go deep and I want to see what I need to do with my life. Eventually it did, but maybe not in the way I was expecting. It kind of ridiculed me and laughed at me and showed me there is nothing to do. None of it matters. Everything just exists for the sake of experience. It doesn't even matter. Who cares. It's just expression. Everything is just expression. Life is like art, it's just another mode of expressing and experiencing. There's nothing to do. It doesn't really matter what you do at all but the best you can do is share moments with people. Try to understand and listen to people. That's the only thing that matters in the end. Spreading love in your own way. I felt like I was looking for answers when there are no answers to be externally found anywhere. Nothing outside of me holds any important information. All the important information is already inside me. You don't need to keep looking anywhere. Just let go and things inside you will start shining through. What matters is connecting with people. Understanding people. I was also questioning "who am I". I wasn't intentionally asking that question but it just kept coming up. I found no answers, only illusions. At some points my body parts were disappearing, I was feeling like I was detaching from my body and felt like I had multiple hands going everywhere. I remember seeing these portal like tunnels that went onto infinity. I tried to dive into them but I couldn't. Sometimes I could but they just showed me another layer of the infinity tunnels. At one point I went out of the tent to take a piss. It was raining outside and the cold rain was hitting me. I took a piss and then I looked at the ground. I saw something moving in between the moss and I started looking for it. After some looking around I saw that it was a frog. It was the smallest frog I have seen in my life, about 2cm (under 1 inch) long. I took it in my hands and felt an odd connection to the frog. It was in the palm of my hand and it was jumping towards freedom. I realized that this is what were all doing. All living beings are doing the same thing. Trying to survive and get somewhere. Moving through time and space, exerting energy into the world to achieve a desired outcome. To get somewhere where they are not now. The closed eye and open eye visuals were extremely strong. Even with my eyes open it looked like everything was becoming a web. It was like every part of my visual field was split into small triangles and it started almost blending together. I saw eyes everywhere within the infinitely small triangles. I had difficulty staying upright sometimes because it was coming on so powerfully. At one point an airplane flew over us. It was extremely intense. It had a glow of all the colors of the rainbow and it left a trail of the glow behind it. It made this soaring massive sound that felt like it was ripping the sky open. After this I retreated back to the tent with my blindfold. I felt some new waves coming on. The mushroom doesn't give a fuck. It shows you and takes you where it wants to. Not where you want to go. So in this part of the trip I was taken into my relationships in life, especially with my family. I saw vivid memories of the good times spent with them and realized how temporary moments are. There are only those single moments that you always carry with you. But those moments can only ever be experienced once in a lifetime. I was still laying in the tent and I could hear cars driving in the distance. I wondered where they are going. They also are trying to go somewhere to achieve something that can change their current state of being. If they're going to work, they are trying to change their experience by gaining money and being able to use that money to feel the things they want. To feel better. Just like that frog. Moving through reality trying to survive by chasing something external that we hope will finally fulfill us. I was also questioning "who am I". I wasn't intentionally asking that question but it just kept coming up. I found no answers, only illusions. At some points my body parts were disappearing, I was feeling like I was detaching from my body and felt like I had multiple hands going everywhere. Another insight: You can never escape the cycle of cause and effect. No matter what you do it has an effect in the future. In that sense, you can never truly "relax". Every single thing you do is affecting your future. The trip started ending after about four hours, then it was just holding on in that weird space between tripping and normal reality for a few hours. That in between space is very uncomfortable for me for some reason. Anyways, it was an interesting experience and there is a lot to integrate here. This report is a bit all over the place but maybe you can get something useful out of it. Post trip thoughts: We choose to not live forever because death is what brings life its beauty. Death is what makes life worth living. It's what makes it beautiful. Without death it's impossible to appreciate the preciousness of life. Feeling kind of sad/gloomy about the realizations I got under the mushroom. But I think this is at least an inch closer to the truth than my previously held (maybe too idealistic) views of the world. I think this will turn into a great experience in the long run even though it made me feel lost in the world in the short term. I'm feeling a bit nihilistic about life now but I think it will turn out to be a good thing in the long run. Then again it was only one trip and it was after a long break. I am interested to explore this space more now.

@Leo Gura Maybe have(legal and government funded) injection sites where addicts are given clean needles and safe dosages of clean versions of the drug. They should be funded by the government and the addicts should be given job opportunities/rehabilitation and harm reduction guidance in those injection sites. Has worked quite well everywhere I know of where it's been tried

This guy Richard Rohr has a very turquoisy/nondual view on Jesus Christ. I think it's relevant because it's (somewhat surprisingly) not being rejected by the Christian masses because he knows how to present it to Christians in a gentle way without causing massive backlash. Could be a great way for Christians to move up the spiral

@Inliytened1 For sure, but there is a difference between being purely aware of that state vs. being unaware of that state. The state of non-dual awareness vs. the state of being unaware of its presence. What I suggest is that we "chose" to become unaware for some reason, so maybe being unaware and experiencing the (illusion of) separateness is somehow important and useful.

Maybe that's why we came down here. To experience the polarity, the doubts, the fears and the anxieties but also the happiness the relief and the love. Maybe that's actually a better way of being than a constant state of contentment and joy. Would a constant state of bliss and joy actually be that great? Maybe, but I lean on the side of it not being worth it. Maybe the ups and downs are more engaging and fulfilling than anything that can ever exist. Maybe there is some eternal state of bliss, but honestly that sounds pretty boring to me. There must be a reason why these (illusions of) polarities exist, maybe it's actually superior to experiencing and realizing a constant state of oneness. What if I can love the rollercoaster? What if I can love the downs as much as the ups? The ups and downs and the doubts and the suffering make life intense as fuck and I'm glad to be experiencing it!

The degree to which renewables are a viable choice depends largely on the geographic location and environment. It's not black and white, some areas are going way overboard with the pushing of "green" energy and are counterintuitively causing MORE damage to the environment by doing that. Also some areas are using non-renewable sources when renewable energy could actually be implemented and taken advantage of in quite a short time period.

Committing suicide is one of the most fundamental rights a human being can have. Nobody should be forced to play the game, telling someone that they are not allowed to stop existing is much more selfish than choosing to take your own life.

Nothing and everything CAN exist simultaneously in the space of infinity, that is God. So God created "him"self and is creating all the time

You can't force her to want you, you have done what you think is right and now you can disengage and let her engage you if she does. You can't fight for her to get her, if she wants you she will come to you. And be very careful with thinking a girl is "the one", more often than not it's just coming from a place of neediness and a mindset of scarcity

I am glad you have found a diet that works for you

It's not absolutely bad or good. Some bodies can handle it better than others, for example here in Northern Europe more people have adjusted to drinking milk. I personally still drink it (whole milk) because I haven't noticed any negative effects and there is a good balance of 1/3 fat 1/3 carbohydrates and 1/3 protein in it. Experiment for yourself, don't just blindly believe what you see in some documentary. I have also seen Cowspiracy but I continue to drink milk because the milk industry is not the same here as it is in the U.S. More ethical living conditions and they don't pump the cows with antibiotics etc.

Natural Lifestyles 100%. One of the coaches is Shae Matthews, he has a very deep understanding on spirituality and even references non-duality at times. He has some videos on using psychedelics for self-improvement and he even knows spiral dynamics quite well haha. I think he is the spiritually furthest developed "pick-up" coach in the world.