PenguinPablo

@PepperBlossoms I get what you're saying. Why don't you partner up with one of your girlfriends?

Looking for accountability buddies also.

Completely agree. Video courses are insanely over-priced. Books tend to be more thorough as well because consider how much info you can condense into even a 100 page book, versus 5-10 minute video clips that you regularly see in video courses. The problem is video courses are typically associated with higher price tags, whereas books stay in the $5 - $25 range. TLDR; courses are overrated and overpriced. Read more books.

What is your favorite game? Chess What is your favorite co-op game? Don't have any... What is your favorite retro game? Super Mario Bros 1985 What is your favorite online FPS? Black Ops

Chess Reading Shamatha Practice

Bluepill Leo: 'stop saying that stuff. prove it. she's no ordinary girl ' Redpilled Leo: 'I want nothing to do with that vile woman.'

good weed is very underrated. I've had deeper awakenings from weed itself than anything else, including mushrooms, DMT, and close to even with LSD--tbf with LSD I went kinda crazy, it was very schizophrenic in a way, so it was hard to make sense of it. "God is real holy shit" but didn't quite tie everything together nicely, it felt like God's presence was other than mine maybe??? . With marijuana, everything was much more cogent and clear. Obvious..

Leo is perfection STOP IT HEATHEN!

1 episode in. As far as evidence is concerned, I think people underestimate the subtle, psychological dynamics. People want overt evidence like bruises from physical violence, DNA samples at the scene and so forth. But strictly through a psychological lens, the scene where the guy asks her if she has anyone she gets feedback from ('someone she respects' is problematic.) She misinterprets that as someone being 'above her'. She then compares herself to the Dalai Lama and the fastest runner in the world. Says she's the most conscious person she's ever known, so why would she need feedback from anyone, is what it boils down to. She says all this is a defensive manner. As if a nerve was struck. 'How dare you question me.' Just watch that part of the documentary, it speaks for itself.

This Is What Happens When You Put DMT in Your Vagina

it increases 'g-factor' yes I mean just imagine that your attention is simultaneously diverted in 100 different directions, getting pulled around... it's a bloody miracle that in a chronic state of flight or flight, we even manage life. that's what life is like when I don't meditate.

how does it feel pass by a nice church and know it was built for you?

@thisintegrated Yes curiosity is an indicator of high IQ, according to psychologists.. Additionally, big 5 personality trait openness (receptivity to new ideas and new experiences) correlates with intelligence.

I kinda feel the same tbh.. Kinda focused on stacking a lot of cash for the next couple years and then focus on friends when I achieve financial freedom. Right now, I'd feel like a fucking loser if I invested any significant portion of my time towards socialization and leisure. Feel kinda behind.

I would say sincere unwavering interest. You always come back to wondering, questioning, and so on... The cumulative effect of that cannot be understated.

flatline bby. enjoy it... because when your libido comes back, you'll be harder than Carnegie steel

learn some new skills baby

I love abortions

power hungry, sociopath, liar.

it becomes self-evident as your spiritual journey unfolds. increasingly so...

To take on the human and operate within its domain assumes a certain level of ignorance and craving.

ehh I feel your sentiments towards sexuality are too black and white. there's also elements of toxic masculinity. I'm surprised you haven't explored this facet of your humanity very much. not necessarily in the sense of experimenting with same sex but simply your views on this are very binary. "Bro you don't like pussy? GAYYYY!!!!"

@puporing seems I still have some work to do before I can see that clearly

Granted I have been struggling with depression for a while... It does feel like my awakening, has continued to get deeper at the same time. I want to live a beautiful life but the weight of responsibilities, student loans for a college degree I don't use, as well as a lot more debt. Honestly, I feel pretty overwhelmed by all of this. I am currently doing a coding bootcamp so I can go into web development in 6 months or so. I wouldn't say it's my life purpose but it's pretty engaging for my personality. I enjoy it a lot. I get pretty engrossed in it for days at a time, especially if it's a new project. I have a sales job but struggle because of social anxiety but the potential is massive... But my avoidance tendencies cause me to waste a lot of time and essentially produce ZERO $$$. When I'm ON, I do well, but that's a big IF. I guess I'm just venting but yeah it's also hard to stay motivated when you see how arbitrary and empty everything is, yet I literally can't stop even if it's a dream because there's certain rules within the game.

Yes, I think I'm just a bit overwhelmed at it all temporarily. Really there is no other choice. Lot's of truth here. Gonna have to put my ego aside for a bit I think and get some low level jobs temporarily.