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  1. Posted

    I can remember as a kid imagining what it would be like when death occurred. What was interesting was that no matter what belief I was given, I realized it had to involve infinite time.

    So I'd try to conceptualize infinite time...and basically it just made my head explode.

    Worse than infinity simply having no end, how can infinity ALSO not have a beginning? What does that even mean?

    And then I'd feel very tiny and insignificant and want to cry.

    So there really isn't much to say about infinity. You either become it or you just have bullshit ideas.

     

     

     

  2. Posted

    I see no reason you cannot do both.

    Yes, both require massive time and effort. But this black and white attitude of "I can either evolve spiritually OR pursue my physical life purpose" is just plain bullshit.

    People are failing to think synergistically / Win Win. They're not seeing how life purpose can contribute to spiritual growth and spiritual growth can in turn contribute to life purpose.

    Now, maybe your life purpose is to become a yogi living in the mountains who just contemplates all day. But maybe it isn't.

    There's room for every type of person. And everyone is evolving in their own way.

    You have to know you. You have to know what your role is. No one can decide that for you.

    Every second of every day, no matter what you're doing, you're faced with choices. They're illusions, but these choices exist for you to learn and evolve.

    Spiritual growth is not something you can just compartmentalize and say "oh, when I'm doing MEDITATION psychedelics, that's spiritual time. But when I'm doing all that boring "work stuff" or with my girlfriend, that has nothing to do with spirituality".

    So it's really just another choice of what you want. Do you want to engage with life and society, or do you want to just say fuck it? It's up to you.

  6. Posted

    26 minutes ago, Orange said:

    wouldn't selfishness be able to come from both radical acceptance and/or following morals? 

    You could be a loving Hitler too. Since you are loving all of reality, you are loving any holocaust you generate. Still selfish. 

    Of course because evil acts are relative! That's basically the whole point of what I've been trying to say.

    People nailed Jesus to a cross because they thought what he was doing was evil.

    And don't you think Hitler was just doing what he thought was "right" as well? Of course, why else would he do it?

    32 minutes ago, Orange said:

    Hate breeding hate would look like this: I hate hate, therefore I will go and destroy the ones who are hateful. 

    Acceptance breeding hate would look like this: I love hate. I accept it. I am a hateful person and I love and accept myself and this hate, therefore I will go and destroy others. 

    This is true. But besides the fact that evil acts are still completely relative, there's nuance here you're missing.

    Let's create an imaginary character named Joe.

    Joe hates the world and hates people. He thinks they're evil, stupid, corrupt and take advantage of him.

    If Joe resists the reality that people are evil, stupid and corrupt, it makes him more hateful because he keeps thinking it shouldn't be this way! Why does the world have to be like this! These people keep hurting me.

    Further more, maybe Joe thinks he should be a nicer person. Society has told him "be a loving person", but he just can't because he's angry! So that's frustrates him even more. Now he is resisting his resistance.

     

    But what would happen if we introduce Love (acceptance) into this picture?

    Well, obviously there are no guarantees and everything is still relative. But here's what I generally have found:

    Joe begins to introduce love to the reality that he "shouldn't" be a loving person. He begins to "love hate" as you put it. Maybe at this point he does lash out more and become outwardly hateful. He has always been hateful, but now he is just allowing it.

    Damn ISIS! We should bomb them and just get rid of those assholes! Trying to take away OUR freedom #murica.

    This is essentially what you're talking about. "If I'm okay with hating people, won't I just hate them more?" Well, maybe.

    But what happens if Joe keeps going?

    Joe now begins to "love" the reality that people are stupid, evil and corrupt. He says "it's okay that people are this way. They are just doing the best I can, the same as I am. I am not better or worse than them. In fact, they ARE me" and really means it.

    What has happened? Suddenly, the evil, stupid and corrupt people aren't evil, stupid and corrupt anymore!

    It was always about YOU!

    These were your judgments. Your perceptions. Your desire for people and the world to act a certain way.

    It had nothing to do with them. They were perfect as they were.

    You have "loved evil out of existence" as Leo put it.

    So what need does Joe have to go destroy these people anymore? They're perfect!

    You can't hate what you accept.

    If this all seems confusing, I agree. I would have never understood any of this, which is why it's often better to just go through the process yourself.

    Question your morals. Question your assumptions. Question everything until you know Truth.

  7. Posted

    33 minutes ago, Orange said:

    this was nicely put :) But then how do you end up loving life more? 

    And what is your definition of love?

    You end up loving life because you've accepted everything!

    Murder? That's okay to love.

    Betrayal? That's okay to love.

    Infidelity? That's okay to love.

    An inability to love all of the above? That's also okay to love.

    There is literally nothing you can't love.

    Love is acceptance. It's wholeness. It's when you take something as yourself instead of pushing it away as "not you" or "not okay".

    You think that love is what most people want. But it's not. Unconditional love is radical. It breaks down everything "you" want and says "everything is okay".

    This is why enlightened people are often seen as rebels. This is why they're often killed. Love goes against people's personal agendas.

    So here's the funny part.

    People might think that many of the "selfish" acts you see come from this radical acceptance. But often they don't. They actually come from following morals!

    As soon as you say "this is wrong" and you hate it, you generate more hate. 

    Look at cultural wars. Both sides cannot forgive the other one because they both feel they've been so "wronged". And so they just keep fighting and killing each other.

    Acceptance breeds acceptance. Hate breeds more hate.

    Easy to see from a computer. Much, much more difficult to see when it's happened to YOU.

  10. Posted

    What @Leo Gura has been saying in this thread is spot on guys.

    This is that "dirty" part of enlightenment no one likes to touch. It's all fun and games when it's about becoming the most loving person, i.e the egos ultimate  desire to be seen as "good" and therefore finally accept itself. But as soon as someone points out the obvious, which is that "no rules" also means you could stab some repeatidly in the throat and it wouldn't be "bad", people freak.

    The emotional reactions I'm seeing shows that Leo is striking a nerve. Why? Because deep down you know he is right. How could you not? You made it up.

    This is why I keep saying I love Jed McKenna as a spiritual teacher. He just slams you with this over and over again. I'm greatful he was one of my introductions to this work, even though I hated it.

    I absolutely still struggle with this myself. You probably can't grasp the sheer amorality of life until you've had at least one enlightenment experience. It literally is not much different than how you'd feel about some characters in a movie. It's just a huge joke.

    And where does much of your suffering come from? From not accepting this.

    I went through the typical butt-hurt atheist phase where I couldn't understand why a loving God would allow so much suffering. But notice that's YOUR OWN belief that suffering is bad. And it's completely externally focused with no personal responsibility.

    You have no problem with suffering if it means killing some animals for you to eat or wear clothing. What's so bad about suffering then? 

    There is a silver lining in all this, which is that you actually end up loving life more, not less because of this. But it won't nessesarily match up with another person's definition of love. And sometimes it's better not to mention this because it can become just another delusion trap. Sometimes what people need is to get hit with a stick.

  13. Posted

    2 hours ago, Dan Arnautu said:

    Aside from meditation and daily mindfulness, nope. I'm not ready for deep enlightenment work. I did not look that much into techniques for achieving enlightenment. I just wanted to build some kind of conceptual understanding of all of this, develop my big picture thinking more. As I said previously, I need to get more basic things handled in my life before I go on with this work. Becoming a Zen Devil won't serve me well either.

    This is a fair and reasonable argument, but because I'm looking to help you if possible, I'd ask you how long have you been gathering information and not applying it? A month? A year?

    It took me almost no conceptual knowledge to start a meditation practice. You don't need theory to understand paying attention to the breath.

    So just do some introspection for your own sake on this. Could you be rationalizing not taking action here? If so, why?

    Decide for yourself.

    2 hours ago, Dan Arnautu said:

    My intuition is telling me the second thing, but I don't know what normalcy is anymore, haha. Is it going out with friends? Playing video games? Going to concerts more as music is my ultimate career path? I don't know anymore. What do you think?

    For me, normalcy was socializing in a healthy way, exercising, taking care of my diet and working on my life purpose. Again, it's really up to you to decide what "normal" is.

  14. Posted

    The reason you're having a hard time applying this advice is that you're young and don't have a lot of experience.

    That's perfectly normal and fine. But, if you want to "get girls" then you've got some work to do.

    You're looking for the "right answer". But there is no general "right answer" that we can give you that will apply in every circumstance.

    What you need is not more theories, but experience.

    Go be social. Talk to girls. Pay attention to what works and what doesn't.

    I know it's scary, but that's the thing you have to do. Otherwise you're just going keep staying confused.

  15. Posted

    @Dan Arnautu

    Seeking knowledge is amazingly powerful and necessary. So for you, what I would ask is are you applying all this research?

    Are you doing meditation? Self-inquiry? Astral projection? Contemplation? Examining your egoic stricuture?

    The paradoxes will always remain paradoxes if you don't apply the theory. It's a huge potential trap.

    There also may be times when you don't balance the rest of your life and spirituality. I know for me it was hugely important to have these surges where I did nothing but study and do consciousness work. No friends, no entertainment, nothing.

    What I've found in these cases is that your deep intuition is always right. It knows the next piece that you need to move forward. Trust becomes crucial.

    If your intuition is telling you to drop everything and do spirituality, do that.

    If your intuition is telling you that you've gotten off balance and need some normalcy, do that.

  17. Posted

    I'll give you some broad advice that may or may not be helpful for you right now: embrace your multi-interests.

    Yes, it's true that mastery of something is important. And mastery takes many, many hours of intense focus and work. So if your focus is diffused, you may not master something very quickly.

    But, consider that life purpose is not a straight forward, clear cut process. Consider that it might be messy, something that you carve out slowly over the years as you understand yourself more and more.

    And even still, it will be messy. Ambiguity has to start becoming your new comfort zone.

    There is no one who has your uniqueness. So no one can tell you who you are.

    It's scary because we're so used to looking to others for answers. But this is one question that no one can answer for you. They can only reflect back the knowingness you already have.

    So embrace your interests. That genuine joy and "rightness" you feel for doing something is a sign that "this is why you're here".

  18. Posted

    Oh man, so many. I'll limit it for practical sake but the amount of help I've received from others is incredible.

    Religion

    The four horseman of the new atheists, i.e Sam Harris, Christopher Hitchens, Richard Dawkins and Daniel Dennet. They were absolutely crucial to me leaving the religious beliefs I had been brought up with.

    Dating

    The entire RSD crew. I had other dating coaches that helped me but no one as much as those guys. They really took it to another level, and you can definitely see a lot of their influence in me now.

    Besides improving my dating life, I also learned so much about self-actualization and work ethic from them. Absolutely crucial piece for me.

    Business

    -John Carlton. Not many people seem to know who he is these days, but he was essentially the king of copywriting.

    -Gary Vaynerchuck. Gotta love this guy, his passion for entrepreneurship is really contagious.

    -Karl Marx. Putting the Commie King might seem like a strange one for business, but Marx really showed me a unique perspective on what Capitalism was all about.

    Self-Actualization

    -Leo Gura for sure. I've been following his content for years now and I really gave me crucial insights at different points in my process. One thing that's interesting about Leo is that I think I've been following for so long that it almost feels like we're always in the same place in terms of personal growth. Probably not true, but it has that feel to it.

    -Tony Robbins was big for me as well. He helped get me out a pretty big downward spiral I was in at one point

    Spirituality

    -Sam Harris gets a double nod here for introducing me to spirituality in general. That book Waking Up was the first time I ever heard the term Enlightenment.

    -Eckhart Tolle. The Power of Now flipped my world upside down. Nothing was the same after reading that.

    -Jed Mckenna. McKenna essentially single handily broke my mind and gave me my first enlightenment experience. I was probably more obsessed with his content than any other teacher

    -Psychedelics. LSD has shown me things that cannot be unseen.

    -My personal spiritual coach. I won't name his name but it's someone I see regularly and is really highly evolved. I know in theory I could have made it through this process without him, but I almost can't see how. He has helped me so much I could cry from gratitude just thinking about it.

     

  19. Posted

    I'm currently on my best meditation streak since I started practicing around 4 years ago. I was a dabbler for awhile and feel like I've finally settled in a groove that won't be broken.

    What changed is hard to exactly pin down because of the sheer volume of events happening in my life during that time. But I'll identify a few:

    -Having a few enlightenment / bliss experiences. This is probably hands down the most important because it showed me that meditation is not just sitting and wasting time. There are real, tangible results to be obtained and now I knew it for myself.

    -Taking a 10 Day Vipassana Retreat. Although I was initially worn out when I came back, overall this gave me a huge amount of macro momentum with my meditation habit

    -Just making the commitment to do it every day, no matter what. Even if that means I'm dead tired and fall asleep half way through, which has happened to me plenty of times

    -Not trying to jump ahead too fast. It took time to build up to my current habit of 1 hour a day. I did plenty of 20 mins a day, 30 mins a day, 45 mins a day, etc before I got here.

    So falling off the habit is part of the process. Nothing to do but get back on. God has all the time in the world...literally.

  20. Posted

    I actually made a video about veganism recently. So I'll weigh in on this.

    Essentially, both the absolutists and the relativists are right.

    In the absolute sense, there are no morals, no values, no rules, no "shoulds". And if you appoach veganism from the perspective of "trying to do what's good, even though I don't really care" than you're missing the point. That's the ego trying to hold up a self-concept.

    However, one of the shocking things I've found about this whole awakening process is that I have naturally shifted towards veganism.

    Why? Because I can't not.

    I love how it makes me feel. It resonates with me on an energetic level.

    Plus, I genuinely care more about the suffering of others than I ever have. When I see another being genuinely suffer, I feel it as if it's my own suffering.

    You can't still want to cause others to suffer once you see that. And the slaughter of animals undoubtably is creating huge amounts of suffering from them.

    I'm not saying I'm some perfect, compassionate being of light. I definitely have my moments of petty self-importance. But I've seen that there is something beyond societal morals that promotes loving behavior.

  22. Posted

    On 5/5/2017 at 11:58 AM, Barna said:

    I had a few experiences while waking up from dreams. I saw bright light and I heard a very loud ringing, the ringing was so loud and intense that it hurt my brain and ears, it lasted every time just approx a half a minute. But somehow it felt good. It was similar to 5meo, but the 5meo experience didn't hurt.

    When you wake up is apparently a common time for contact because the mind is still calm and receptive. I had the ringing happen a couple times the moment I became conscious I was awake.

  23. Posted

    10 hours ago, pluto said:

    Ahh the good old ringing... signal vibration at its finest :)

    I have learnt to let it play in the background because i hear it almost 24/7 nowadays especially when i do a few deep breaths and pay attention.

    This year more than ever. The emery is so strong in 2017 i am so hyped.

    Do you still get short periods of higher intensity ringing? Because that's what I've found. There's a whole range of how strong it is.

  25. Posted

    20 hours ago, John Flores said:

    @aurum Thank you for sharing your experiences. Really beautiful thread and topic. I'm very religious so I beleive in different branches of angels.

    I beleive there truly is one angel assigned to as you said, but the highest angels are known as the Annunaki. The branch of the Annunaki that chose Enki as their leader however are known as "dark angels". There are various degrees of transcendant beings, depending on what they did on Earth and depending on their philosophies that they developed while they were down here.

     

    I'm getting off topic, but I think Enlil by far is the greatest angel, but he's above all angels to the point of being considered "God". He's on par with Anu and in some ways is greater. I think I am Anu's incarnation who was a perfectionist. My belief is that Anu harnessed that energy from the side of the void containing "salt water" or feminine waters where Enki was located in a suspended  animation [of a sort],  and incarnated it with his "image" inside the body of a man in order to be an artist of creativity for the world. However,  Anu did not allow himself to beleive that Enki  just wanted Enlil to cease existing and that he was purely corrupt. Instead of removing him from existence, he had to let them play the game out because he had already    decreed the rules containing free-will, prior to His realization. Enki chose his ability to be a contrarian to the ultimate extent of being in opposition to Enlil, who chose light. Instead, he said "If Enlil is air, light, humility, and life, I will be heaviness, darkness, arrogance, and death". He did this simply to be an apposer without acknowledging that his purpose was to be elevated, transformed into light, and used for the sake of selfless endeavors. He rebelled essentially,  but was supposed to be greater than Enlil since the physical world is hardest to manefest spirituality within.  For  some reason no one can figure out why Enki felt threatened and chose to corrupt his nature rather than use it for selfless endeavors.

    He then became the ultimate angel of darkness, while Enlil the ultimate angel of light and hence the paradigm of good and evil commenced.

     

    Never heard any of that before. Where'd you learn this from?