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@Javfly33 Can you be more specific? Do you want to start a business? What are you thinking your purpose is?

@PurpleTree You've got some sort of energetic block going on that is manifesting as fatigue. Keep doing the inner work. Definitely check your sleep cycles and spending more time in nature as well.

Anything you do with love is worthwhile doing. I actually have a list of things I love doing. Things like art, spending time in nature, etc. This list has taken me a lot time to cultivate though. I had so many distorted perceptions / limiting beliefs that it was almost impossible for me to tell what I really loved doing. You might have to go through a similar process.

@X_X Look for the pain / shadow underneath your moralizing. For instance, if you find yourself moralizing against rich people, ask yourself why? What is it about rich people that really bothers me? If you're honest, you'll find pain and / or beliefs around rich people that are causing you to moralize. All moralizing is just your shadow.

This assumes the deepest insights originate from the analytical mind. They do not. When you silence your mind, now God can speak.

What specifically feels unfair about life to you?

I get it and I've definitely been there. Indeed, it is likely time for you to shed some old patterns if you feel this way. As we grow, the patterns that previously kept us safe begin to feel like a shell we are desperate to break out of. Or like anchors holding us back. But I promise you that if you were conscious of how all your programming work, you'd realize that you life is just that. A sum total of all your programming. So keep introspecting. You said you are constantly changing your goals, so start there. What is the payoff you get for constantly switching your goals? Perhaps it's that by switching your goals, you don't have to commit to anything. And by not committing to anything, you don't have to risk making a wrong choice. And wrong choice would feel like shame and guilt. Maybe when you were a child, you were punished very badly for making wrong choices. So maybe it's better to make no decision at all. See how I did that? What might seem like insanity (constantly changing your goals) actually makes a lot of sense if you dig deep enough. And I'm not saying that example is your pattern. Your pattern might be something different. I'm saying to use the example I gave and do your own introspection.

You tell us. Consider for a moment that while a part of you does want all the things you mentioned, another (perhaps unconscious) part of you does not. Consider that your life is exactly how you want it to be. So ask yourself: what is the benefit I get from staying stuck?

There’s always a place for satire. We need people to call out the absurdity of our own patterns so we can see it for what it is. Just do it from love, not hate.

Sounds awful. How is she a mirror for your own trauma?

You’re already doing it. Shadow work is really nothing more can exploring these unconscious aspects of our self and making it conscious. All the analysis you wrote I would consider shadow work. This rung my intuitive alarm bell. What we think or say becomes reality. You stop yourself from feeling because it’s better than being hurt again. Can you remember the first time this happened?

@integral We are in the Dark Ages regarding health in general. There's no doubt in my mind that if humanity survives, we will see our current medical system as totally barbaric.

Yes. Yes. If someone only experiences negative emotions, they defiantly have beliefs that are influencing that. Spiritual / shadow work. What is dangerous about positive emotions to you?

I've had experiences of what felt like divine love to me. It felt more beautiful than anything I've ever experienced. Just totally melts all your walls and defenses, and you're left crying on the floor for thirty minutes in gratitude.

@Onecirrus There are many aspects society that are not ideal, but may be temporarily necessary. Ideally, every country would agree to cut the vast majority of their military spending. But no one will agree to do this, because what if another country goes back on their agreement? They will conquer everybody. So we are collectively stuck in a Win / Lose, non-cooperative game. Also, consider the financial incentives in place. Without the military, we are talking a huge blow to the world economy. Tons of people get paid only because the military and war exist. None of this justifies what is going on. But we must also understand why our situation currently exists as it does. If something exists, it is currently serving a purpose. Once we can see what the purpose is, we can create new systems and new paradigms for doing things. For instance, maybe we decide that having tons of people's paycheck depend on killing other people isn't a good system. Therefore, we institute some sort of Universal Basic Income to help alleviate people from having to rely on those kinds of jobs. Or we create some sort of global institution to manage a collective disarmament. Regardless, we must understand the reason for these unwanted aspects of society.

Then it's probably deeper, having to do with beliefs / emotions. You don't have to stop whatever meds you're taking, but I would consider finding an energy healer near you. They may be able to give you some insight.

@Espaim I would first question the paradigm that food = calories = energy. In my experience with fasting, it is not that simple at all. If you're feeling low energy, I would consider a couple things: 1) What is the quality of food you're eating? If the food you're eating is junk, you can forget about that giving you energy. 2) Do you practice breathing exercises? 3) Do you spend time in nature? All energy is ultimately Source energy. So if you've got low energy, there's a blockage somewhere in your system. Yoga might help you a lot with this.

This is what you need to look at. I eat healthy foods, but it's not something I "make" myself do. My whole being is in alignment with this. So a better question would be, why are you split? Why does a part of you not want to eat healthy? What's the benefit that you get from eating unhealthy?

The root cause of any disease always comes back to your beliefs and emotions. A trained energy healer might be able to help you get to the bottom of it. Otherwise, check your lifestyle. Do you meditate? Do you practice earthing? Do you eat healthy foods? Do you exercise? Do you get sun? All these things and more can make a difference.

Just follow and practice the techniques Leo shares. You're doing great!

So what is stopping you? I'm in a similar situation as you, looking to join an ecovillage. Why do you feel you have to go back?

I had this too when I was coaching people. Totally get it. You may want to consider a sliding pay scale or "pay-what-you-want" model. In other words, let your clients decide how much your service is worth to them. If they want to pay you zero, then it's zero. If they want to pay you a million, it's a million. I found this way of doing things can take some of that pressure off of "now I have to DO something" instead of just following your intuition and treating your client like a human. But you'd have to experiment. It's obviously less guaranteed money and you don't want to tank your business.

No you're actually pretty spot on. Often one of the first things dating coaches for guys will do is get them to realize that they're not bringing anything to that table. It's still a competitive / transactional mindset ("I must out compete the other males with my looks, which I will trade for love"). But at least it gets guys on a path of self-development.

Hey man! Yeah I was a mod awhile back but took a long break from the forum. Told leo to take me off the team. Now I've come back . Basically I spent the last two years really diving inward. It wasn't just the forum, I also stopped making youtube videos, writing blogs and seeing a lot of my old friends. Hasn't been easy but I feel like a completely different person. I really like it. I may just do a Q&A post since several people have now asked me this question lol.

@Megan Alecia I want to be deeply connected with nature. I want to play my role in humanities healing. I want peace and quiet. I want my health. I want family, love and community. And I want to create my art.