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@Yoshy After reading everything you've written, I think you'd be wise to at least challenge this belief system you've created. Your perspective on relationships and dating in general is very pessimistic and comes off as jaded to me. So if I were you, I'd question myself.

How else would you describe your true nature?

Just think about it. You do not just "randomly" want a lamborghini. There's a real payoff in your mind to having that. What is it? And be specific, don't just say "it's my ego". For instance, maybe having a lamvorghini would make you feel like a fucking boss. Maybe people would respect you more. Maybe people would see you as someone to admire and who was successful in life. Maybe it would mean financial security. Maybe you think you need it in order to attract those supermodels. Whatever your reason, find it. Those are just examples. Once you've found the reason you want those things, then maybe you can begin letting it go. But you have to understand why you don't want to let it go in the first place and resolve that.

@SamC A lot of people say it's a sign of a vibrational upgrade or download. So if you've been doing a lot of meditation / breathwork I wouldn't be surprised. I'd stick it out for now. If it becomes a problem then maybe see a doctor. But my sense is that you're fine, just ride it out.

I'd take another look inside. If you aren't forcing yourself, then why aren't those things already gone from your life? If you really had no resistance, they'd already be gone and we wouldn't be having this conversation. But they obviously give you something. There is some sort of benefit you're getting from living that lifestyle, which is why you're struggling to give it up. So just be honest. What good is coming from the nightclubs / lamborghinis etc? Even if it seems trivial.

That's an understandable conclusion to draw. And it's okay that you feel that way. I would ask yourself, "when is the first time I felt like something is wrong with me? And why?". See if you can trace it back to the source.

@SS10 You need to find out what benefit you get from procrastinating. How is it serving you?

@krockerman You just need to allow yourself to feel. The emotions are already there.

@bliss54 Well "living with people" is not the same question as "living with your parents". I actually think living close to your parents could be really nice. The problem is, most people have dysfunctional families and all sorts of trauma from growing up. And society is not really set up for that. It's set up mostly for you to get a wife and then get a house / apartment to raise your kids. For you, it sounds like some independence from your parents would be a good thing. What do you like to do? How do you want to spend your life?

It sounds like you're trying to "force" yourself to spiritual. That won't work. Force is just implies more resistance and fragmentation. You want to get your whole being in alignment. Okay, so you want a lamborghini. So what? What's wrong with that? Why is that bad? I had a phase where I was into everything you just listed as well. What if you allowed yourself to have those things?

@xxxx In my Theta Healing training, we were taught how to do future readings for clients. I've also had several readings done for me and the results have been very interesting. My belief is that we can see the future. However, it's not as solid as you might imagine. When I do a future reading, I'm just seeing a possible outcome for the client. That outcome can be changed. So there is value to it but it's not set in stone. Tarot and crystal gazing comes to mind. However, these are just tools to tap into your intuition and aren't actually necessary. The way I personally do it is just ask.

@kras Just do it. It'll be a good learning experience regardless of the outcome. Take a long-term, growth mindset when it comes to dating.

@seeking_brilliance Oh that's beautiful. I will look out for this.

@Alotofquestions Focus on health and strengthening your immune system. Whether it's Covid or a dangerous vaccine you are worried about, don't forget your own power.

@Danioover9000 I can see that being a necessary stepping stone for society. I'd like us to get to a point where self-defense no longer needs to be taught though. Perhaps that's naive but I believe it's possible. How? By solving violence at the root level. People do not just attack or bully other people. If that was the case, that some humans are just crazy animals you have to defend against, then maybe self-defense would be justified. But I don't believe that. I believe violence is the result of trauma and lower spiritual consciousness. If you heal that, then what do you need self-defense for? In Conversations With God, God talks about how violence does not exist in highly evolved societies. And that beings in this society would not defend themselves if they were truly attacked. They don't perceive death or damage as real. Of course, we could say we don't live in such a world. But perhaps the only reason we don't is because we believe we can't. We believe we must defend ourselves, so we create a self-fulfilling prophecy where that becomes true. It's a good question to ask though. I don't think there's any easy answers. Thanks for sharing your perspective.

@Strangeloop If the thought that calmed you down was about being straight rather than gay, then I think it’s pretty obvious what happened. You have a shadow around homosexuality. It doesn’t mean you actually are gay. But see if you can observe all the shame that comes up at the thought that you might be. I never knew I had this shadow until I did psychedelics. I was started feeling a deep sense of love while talking to another guy I was friends with. And it freaked me out BIG. Like wtf, I’m not supposed to feel this way about other men. What does this mean? It made me realize just how much shame there was around this idea for me. I actually feel it’s a common shadow for guys to have too. So much of our identity gets wrapped up in trying to be masculine and good with women that the thought of being gay is really terrifying. Aubrey Marcus once mentioned on a podcast that he wants to make out with a guy just to prove that it’s not a big deal and the world didn’t explode. Sounds funny but I think he has a point. Like who gives a shit who you are attracted to, really.

@Eren Eeager Guru needs to google Wim Hof method

The benefits are that you're actually taking a full breath. If you're just breathing from your chest, you're breathing is extremely shallow. And that is going to subconsciously trigger anxiety / fear/ fight or flight response. When your breathing is deep and full, just the opposite occurs. It signals to the subconscious that you are safe. And you enter into a parasympathetic state, which is associated with creativity, intuition, healing, etc. Try Wim Hof Method. I could never go very deep just doing shamanic breathing. But doing Wim Hof breathing, I've been able to do 45 minutes so far. Same effect as far as I can tell.

That's good. But I'd say it's more about the kind of content you're consuming on the internet in terms of your attention span. If you're reading an ebook, you're probably alright. If you're binge watching shock videos on youtube with jumpcuts every 10 seconds, yeah you might cause some damage. Meditation will help. But it's not a substitute for poor habits outside of it. No. Limiting belief for sure. Yes. So do that.

I wouldn't look at it this way at all. Think about it more like distortion. You already are unconditionally loving, generous, compassionate and all those things we seek doing spiritual work. That's who you are. But there's some distortions to actualizing that for most people. Distortions that comes from trauma, societal programming etc. And ultimately, it's just a game God is playing with itself. So no, you don't have to live with inherent selfishness because you are not inherently selfish. No one is inherently selfish. Our goal is to see that and actualize it.

@The Don Hate to say it, but if you're being awkward you're still anxious. The two go hand in hand. Likely what has happened is just that your anxiety has diminished. It's still somewhat there, but it's become more subtle. Which then makes you act it subtle weird ways. Just spend more time socializing with people and doing the spiritual work. Notice any habits or environmental factors that may be contributing to your anxiety. The awkwardness will continue to diminish over time as you become more in alignment. Right now, it's like you're an instrument that's playing out of time with the rest of the orchestra. So you gotta get back into the flow.

Love it. Dude gives no fucks. And that's exactly the attitude you need for improv. If you start getting in your head about it, it ain't gonna work. You just gotta let go, flow and trust. I really feel it's a spiritual experience.

@Fran11 I have left behind several friend groups myself. It's not easy but it can become necessary. The good news is that then you'll have created space for people who are more in alignment with your values to show up.

@Striving for more You start to attract them the more you believe in yourself . More practically, you have to look for them. Entrepreneur masterminds, meetups, charity events, etc. Get creative with it.

@Lyubov You definitely can. But often someone ends up trying to make the situation more than platonic, usually the guy. If you really want to have female friends as a guy, you gotta be okay with letting go of that.