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don't force yourself to think, it's rewarding in terms of money and other stuff in future. just take a moment to think about this: which one of those are really fascinating to you and which one of those would you do without any pressure from your family, real life situation and so on and so forth and just the sake of your entertainment?

your writing was too ambiguous and complicated to imagine your situation. but here is the thing: do what you love, what brings the passion into your heart? what subject sets you in the flow state and you'd lose the sense of time when doing the work? that's your life purpose, other things are just nonsensical mind programs forced upon you!

take what you love, not what your parent forcing you to do! of course, you're free to listen to them too but then again it's your free will, if you want a best-quality of life, you should be doing what you love!

for the moment, entrance exam is the most important thing in this life phase of you! thinking about those other stuff are merely deception that exerted upon you by your EGO thinking that by achieving something in spirituality, you'd be performing in God-Mode! yes, you can still apply mindfulness and mindful meditation to your daily life just before starting to study. but beware that thinking obsessively and resisting the self-image of status quo won't change anything! you should gain traction/momentum by studying on a daily basis and whenever you've done enough of work, you'd see that your self-image improves automatically on its own.

you can still be expert but even learn from those courses which are considered for newbies! so don't think that just because you learned one course, you're good to go! (of course, you can be ready to push yourself when you think you're done but never think you're complete in terms of any knowledge)

it's beyond the shadow of the doubt that if you maintain yourself in that long session, your body starts to gain some primal energy to fix things inside!

why won't you let yourself to be a king?

if anything hurts your body from outside like the way you pose, your hunger, external temperature have a direct impact on the quality of your meditation! practice whatever position suits you, that'd be illogical to be in lotus and constantly thinking about the pain and numbness of your legs! there are various kinds of meditation: walking, lying, lotus, etc...

awareness brings syntropy including the numbers of the thing you glance at: hand watch, digital clock!

of course it's hard to do so, but don't give up and start small, don't remember: "many a little makes a mickle"

by not allowing them to enter my mind constantly! and haters and jealous people need love from you on a deeper level, knowing to how increase your vibration up to love is the best practice.

the problem with no fap society is that they thing every fuckin' problems and issues they run into in life is related to their constant wanking. I also am aware that sexual energy can be transmuted to another form of energy like motivation, but where's the motivation when you repress your sexual energy head-on? the no fap community don't want to take a sec to wonder to finally say: enough is enough! why am I blaming my sexual natural behavior this much and not to know otherwise? but still moderation also applies to this!

your outward hygiene reflects the way you are on the inside. if you don't respect yourself to clean and spray some perfume, why the heck would you expect another person do it for you? the more awareness, the more syntropy. the more unconsciousness, the more entropy!

throw away supplements. tell her it's just her belief and indeed a "spiritual-related limiting belief"! her situation is like a penny pincher who's constantly saves money and doesn't spend his money and wonders why he doesn't get wealthier. that also applies to the sexual energy, if you don't want to distribute it, there won't be a flow between you and universe.

that's understandable... and this kind of life situation goes to show you to be"independently happy" and if you could set this state of being for yourself, you'll see that your prospective relationships will grow stronger.

singleness period is the best time frame to fix some faulty mind patterns (just related to this matter) so if you think being single makes you feel like an inferior person, think twice and fix it, don't demand it from a girl.

It's so nice to gain some knowledge about sex itself from the internet (not being closed-minded to think 'I know everything'!), but the thing you mentioned is coming from a place where you have unleashed your inner savage raw masculinity and it's way better than pieces of knowledge on books and tutorials! it's actually so great to have a partner to be able to take you to that place, I mean a personality of the caveman which lies underneath in our primal brain and it waits for the trigger like a loaded firearm!

@VeganAwake the lower self, dude!

Amazing! Just Amazing!

you're forcing yourself to gain money, that won't work!

do your daily tasks but consciously!

well put! EGO can sneak in and hatch in the places that nobody even give a bit of thinking towards it. and that could even be this forum. as a matter of fact, unconsciousness can manifest itself in the form of consciousness. that's why I've never liked the idea of putting the name of "self-actualized person" over me. once that's done, I'd be no longer be able to grow more in terms of consciousness. so you can log into the forum of consciousness actualized but you can find red flags of EGO in every corner of it!

it's said that the current states and circumstances of our life is the overall vibration of the past lives that we've lived so far. so if you can master this life spiritually and materially, that means the next episodes would be easy-peasy lemon squeezy

if you gain enough knowledge and let go of your current life karma and live to as higher vibration as possible, you can easily reincarnate to the next positive person's life, that's all!

to be honest, your text was so lengthy, that's why I'm just answering the title question: the word "numb" maybe carries a bit unsuitable meaning, we can change it with "mastery" > "emotional mastery" Yes, It is quite possible and it's the process of raising your kundalini level by a teacher which is called : Shaktipat afterwards you can see a major transformation in the states of the consciousness that it'd be a hard thing to be emotionally bothered.