Elham

Obviously a change for better

Cycling an uphill road and in the way back I was speeding around 60 km/h ?

Because I like change

I have studied English up to Master degree and I defended my thesis last year ?‍?... Through this 6-7 years I always knew this field never excites me. I was doing my thesis and I was thinking oh God I don't care how the results of this study will turn out! Obviously this should not be the feelings of a person who goes into research! I chose to study English because of peer pressure and the most unfair test in the world that held before college and tell you what field and which university you can study. The only reason I went on this long was to apply for ph.D and fulfill my childhood dream to get OUT of Iran! But now that I am a little wiser I'm thinking yes I want to get out of here BUT I want to enjoy what I do as well. Since I LOVE science and research, I have decided to start studying Biology. This decision is twisting my life and I am close this much ? to go crazy ● Some say you are so stupid to ignore 6-7 years of your life and start fresh... ● Others say how can you do this while you can apply next year. Just ignore this and continue study English. FINISH WHAT YOU HAVE STARTED DAMN GIRL This decision will keep me inside the country at least for another 4 years ... ● Some people KINDLY say do it but you will be regretful... However there are some people around me who understand and show me different ways to do it... up to now I have been offered with three ways; 1. Go back to college and start studying basic Biology up to Bachelor's degree and apply and leave for Master's. 2. Forget about college. Take GRE general, GRE subject, IELTS and TOFEL tests then apply for PhD of Biology with your English degrees (I have send many emails to different universities and professors to see whether it's technically possible or not but I have recieved no answer so far). 3. Apply for English PhD and then when you leave the country quit it and start studying Biology abroad! (I don't feel it's a right option since in this process I have to deceive a professor to support me financially and then quit on everything). It's about two month I am analyzing different aspects of this decision. I would be super honored if your could share your perspectives and opinions since I really have few people around me to consult with. Thank you ❤

First it seems you do all these things to get to somewhere, to achieve a goal or reach to a destination. I believe it doesn't work like that. If you believe you are eating healthy and doing things you are good at and read books, so OK that should make you happy as you are doing them. It should be the PATH that satisfies you. Where do you want to get with your healthy eating, book reading and meditation?? That's it. You already got there! Second, no worries if you made a busy life by these habits. If you are not used to all these changes it's ok. Just try to go on with this messy mind. You will get to equilibrium through disequilibrium.

What do you consider to be your worst habit? Are you working on it? How did you become conscious about it?

@Marinus there are many opinions from people who have quit social media in this forum. They may be helpful

@Aeris you have very nice perspective toward it ? You know my uncle was a computer addicted. Since I was a child I qas always careful not to get attached to computer so much. Although I know people who are in computer are in a different world and I understand how attractive it can be and I would be addicted due to my love for virtual world, I just saw my uncle on a chair stiring on a screen for hours. And that's what look like from outside!

I thought you mean what is expected of you from others. Sorry ?

@Jamison My feelings seems not to be stable in some cases. For some time I am so energetic, productive, eating healthy and doing exercise regularly but after few month I get down for days. I am not saying it's normal to be like this but I want to say when I am in those days I let myself be how it feels to be. I am not strict to myself and I let myself go through those down days because I know I WILL get myself together again and go back to normal. Don't worry if you are in your down days. Even if it took so long. Maybe you needed it. Just start by little things to go back to normal.

@hyruga Have you watched this video? https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://m.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3Darj7oStGLkU&ved=0ahUKEwiBg9iP6cjjAhVQ46QKHUB9B9cQo7QBCCUwAA&usg=AOvVaw2QroItRHTiH6dazt5JDPfT

@hamedsf then it's not our fault ... it's the culture @Gladius a good one!

@JustThinkingAloud I would occupy a position which could go to a person who really deserved it!

Eye contact

@DrewNows you mean you consider other people's opinion?? @Leo Gura sorry I did... it goes in my notebook @Keyhole I overcame that many times but again Iet myself go... each time I addict to something new in internet.. each time it gets more healthier I think... I deleted my Facebook and Instagram account last year. Same for many of us ? That's REALLY great man ???? @Sahil Pandit the same problem with me as well... Sorry but I think it was a waste of time ? but what do I know. I am judgmetal... go on ?

@Surfingthewave it seems the a good way Thank you

My worst habit was being too judgmental and laughing at people... it was years ago. I became conscious about it when I got to know some people who I judged alot and I realized I would exactly be same if I was them. I started to carry a notebook with me everywhere and wrote every judge came to my mind about anyone. Then I could help myself to reduce it. Still working on it though!

@hamedsf well I see you have the same passion to LEAVE as I do ?

Yup... not impossible

@Elisabeth part time teaching. Things are a little different here. Finding an international job, applying, getting visa, our currency value and other things are not the same for us due to international sanctions that have been applied against us!

@JustThinkingAloud ya I have it rapped up in a box I have studied a basic book on biology to make sure it's what I want

@Elisabeth it is possible but due to political and economical issues it is harder than any other option!

East?! East is a big big place. You need to be more specific. But speaking about my country the principles can and cannot be the same. Here city to city, even region to region, values differ enormously. In one family girls can go to party or invite their boyfriends to their home and introduce them to their parents and in another family this is an unspeakable sin! It may result in abandonment of the girl from her home.

@abrakamowse It was like I was afraid to wake up because I was not in deep sleep. I was afraid if I took control and changed everything around me I may suddenly woke up!!!!

I LOVE the show... I think Rick is in a stage that does not exist in spiral dynamic It's Rick stage @RendHeaven if you think Rick is orange, watch Bojack Horseman... that's the best example of stage orange.