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@universe If someone saw me in person they would not think im apathetic, its just something i feel deep inside sometimes. But my mood shifts a lot so iam not in apathy for long periods. Maybe sometimes i feel that i dont living up to my full potential, would be a better way to describe me than apathetic

I am a male who have a hard time to balance out the harsh, sometimes brutal reality of dating /seduction with my longing for higher consciousness and spirituality. They seem like total opposites. I act very shallow and egotistical in dating and I have found out that womans often do that too. Its like dating and my feelings towards the opposite sex in dating drags me down inside.. Internally I know Leo is into both pickup and heavy consciousness work and thats is kind of an interesting combination. I would like to learn that.

@vladorion No not at all. I would say that i was in fact better with women before i started my spiritual journey because i was out partying more and mostly lived my life by SD stage orange norms. Then i couldnt stand that lifestyle anymore and hit a low point in my life. Spirituality has been like a coping mechanism ever since. But i feel that i have more practial issues i need to solve in my life and relationsships is only one of them.

@Regan Seems legit! I will definitely check that book/channel! Thanks!

@universe I definitely need to work on my emotions because i have lots of apathy and low self esteem because of ADHD and failed attempts to medicate this diagnosis.

@Emerald I have been diving into pickup material recently, something i have never done earlier in my life. Mostly because of that i feel that i still have insecurites about the opposite sex, despite having had girlfriends and what else for long periods in my adult life. I went heavily into spirituality but i now feel that mostly it was escapism from my more "real" struggles with career path and also relationships/dating. Those pickup guys have really open my mind because its so different from my view of dating. Still i think something is missing and thats the superficial mode they put me in. At least RSD promotes Eckhart Tolle and meditation, thats why i decided to learn from them. @JonasVE12

@Kalki Avatar Thanks for the long input, appreciate that! Kind of how i experience this area of life.

@Leo Gura This is what i thought of. But then there are monks who awaken in celibacy and most of them has not gone through the process of seduction and pickup/dating. In fact they view sexualiy as something thats takes focus from God or meditation. I feel that dating and seduction is very ego and survival driven and most of the times i went for dates im falling in to a lower vibe. In contrast to when i walk in the forest by myself and doing it with mindfulness, dating seems superficial. But i also love intimacy, its just the process i dont really care about.

I would like to just have a nice fulfilling relationship with a partner that i am attracted to. All my previous partners and flings i got into without knowing a lot about pickups. I just get out a lot and partying in nightclubs and use tinder. Now i feel that as I get older (34) i cant rely only on alcohol and being a "cute boy" anymore to get girls. I bought the Hot Seat at Home from RSD and it opened my mind but its not really how i feel i naturally operate with the opposite sex.

As a man i could say that its most likely had nothing to do with your looks, its called performance anxiety. It could even be physical reasons for it.

Great read! Gonna share this.

I ate on McDonald's today, couldnt even meditate afterwards.

In my experience, those type of communities very easily become cult-like. Very few people are really actually awake or developed it those places. They just come together because they cant fit in normal society.

Yes Im swedish. Where do you live?

I think he has aged well.

As the topic say. Could someone add english subtitles to the four recent videos because its easier for non native speakers to understand the concepts. Auto generated will do just fine. Thanks.

So you want to start a cult? ?

So i was diagnosed with ADD when i was 15, now I'm 33. Started medication at 23, had to quit last year because of side effects and escalated abuse of the medications. It's impossible for me to continue rely on stimulants for the rest of my life. I want to finish my college education but i have so low self esteem and believe i can't focus on anything because of my condition. Earlier this year i did a cognitive test which went pretty well and that surprised me. I'm also into spirituality but i feel it doesn't help me in this particular area of my life. Any advice for me? ?

You have said before that DPT and some other chemical is even more potent than 5-MeO, did you change your mind?

I would suggest cardiovascular exercise for 45 minutes five times a week as it increases dopamine and other neurochemicals that are crucial for optimal brain health.

The devil is in the details.

https://youtu.be/h8OVXG2GhpQ

Thats not fair When i watched his debate with Jordan Peterson i clearly noticed Sams masculine traits. But then again, maybe it was in contrast with the other guy on the stage ?

I'm extremely conscious of how is I'm extremely conscious of how reasonably attractive she is Well Sam is one hunk of a man too so kind of expected that ?

Still a lot deeper than 99% of society i presume. Most people i know don't even care about this topic, let alone know something about it. (Stage orange materialists)