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The weird thing is that I got attracted to an Indian girl today and normally I wouldn’t be attracted to them. Should I open a thread about it? She was very feminine and lovely.

@Michael569 thanks. When I’m home I will read your article. I eat like 1 kg of fresh cut red meat per week. Do you think that is too much?

Because why would we want to reinvent the wheel? Obviously if you are at the frontier you can’t depend on second hand exp from others but especially in the beginning the road has already been traveled. So why ask silly questions like who am I? When others have already answered it for you. People who are much smarter than you. Is it not better just to verify second hand exp of others for yourself and in that way making second hand exp first hand exp?

I have a very quick metabolism and a big head. So I need to eat high calorie foods to feed my body and mind. Otherwise I feel malnourished but that it just me. People have different kind of bodies.

Everything has its pro's and its cons. Probably when I'm older like 40+ I will have less need for red meat. The risk for cancer is for - processed - red meat, fresh cut meats aren't that bad when your young. Its benefits outweigh the costs by a lot. The funny thing is that there are tons of people saying the exact opposite thing too: vegan diet causes cancer. Tragicomic thing is that I know zero people who get colon cancer from eating fresh cut meats while I know dozens of people who have gotten colon cancer because of veganism:

Dopamine pleasure is different than higher self pleasure. If you meditate on it you can distinguish ego pleasure versus higher self pleasure.

You need to find a way to cut her out otherwise it will be like cleaning the floor while there is a pig in your living room constantly shitting all over the place. It will drive you crazy and it will be futile. And on top of that she will attack you consciously and unconsciously when she will notice you are trying save yourself from her. Her whole thing is to keep you so traumatized that you can't be an individual and move out. To me your only way out is to make the bold move to move out or find a good husband to move out.

You just don’t provide enough value. If she sees enough value in you she will move heaven and earth to meet up with you. If you don’t have enough value she will find every excuse in the world to not. Girls are very selfish until you get into their meat glove and after that the dynamics change.

@flowboy use your eye’s peripherals when you need to read something from the screen. Use big letters. You can use the buttons on your laptop to change the slides.

It was an interesting astral projection. To make a long story short: You either have to become a dog of god by getting in his favor and becoming god’s best friend just like dogs is man’s best friend, or you don’t and you become a godless stray dog that serves nobody.

This is really good

So what are you motivated by?

Study power (collaboration) versus force (competition). Read the book. Owen from RSD uses it to teach social skills: You have to be the catch. If you don’t believe you are the catch, and she feels you are trying to catch her, what is she going to do? She is going to escape.

I have my notes on my laptop while filming.

She didn’t know this. If trauma is experienced for a long duration, EMDR is not effective from my exp.

This is my experience too. The weird thing is that my therapist didn't know this.

This one is good to let go of insecurities, traumas, and other ego stuff But what I advice is that you are aware in your life from moment to moment, living from a meditative state. To me it sounds (unconscious) thoughts/emotions get a hold over you and you get paralyzed; you lack consciousness. So be mindful/observing of yourself but at the same time relaxed, confident and grounded. When you observe a pattern you break the chains of that ego. It frees up and it can be used for creativity. Socializing is creativity.

When I’m in a deep state I notice that my neck falls to the sides or to the front. It is annoying because it disturbs my deep meditation. Any other people with this problem during meditation?

@flowboy good points. Coffee, cigarettes, or other substances or activities can be used as coping mechanisms by the mind. I allow myself to have 1 coffee per day. As far as I know I don’t have any backlashes from it.

@flowboy you think even one coffee per day is bad?

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Therapy is as effective as you make it. The coach doesn't win the soccer game, the coach only instructs and the team wins/looses. The same counts for the therapist-client relationship. From my experience, most therapists are clueless on how to deal with deep trauma. I have spoken to 10+ therapists so I think I can make a fair assessment. There are some good ones but that is like 10-20% of the therapist population. I'm still happy I've put the time into it because of the power of disillusionment. The only value I saw in therapy is the relationship aspect. A therapists that really cares about you is worth the time and money. Deep connection is necessary for therapy to work so SD blue or green therapists are great while SD orange therapy is not that great. But the thing is that therapists are only human and they can only give so many fucks. It is very draining to care about every one of your clients.

You are thinking too much and you think thinking more will solve the problem while thinking too much is the problem in the first place. Just do some meditations to get out of your head because there is no book for what do you do when she flips her hair or rubs against me. Those other guys are not in their head and just let it happen.

Why do all famous youtubers start to box?

@something_else fair enough. Some guys are trolling and I got carried away.