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Thing about 30 day retreat. It is very long. I don’t have free time in the form of lumped up 30 days.

Is there a guide for the solo retreat? Is only meditation allowed? Is reading books allowed? Etc. edit: I found the video

Though years of meditation one can reach it. I liked your video on this topic of paranormal activity/powers. I’m open minded but skeptical but at the same time I see links between intuition and paranormal abilities. For example how one man called Bobby Fisch beating the Soviet chess master and his whole team pure on intuition. There is truth to it.

I used mushrooms twice. Both instances were before I discovered actualized org. I discovered actualized org one year ago and I watched from time to time, skipping the religious videos but two weeks ago I started watching the “spiritual videos” and it clicked. Recently I watched the paranormal themed video from Leo. And I started my quest for the paranormal and I quickly ended up in the dark corner of the web and movie production: aka paranormal events in households, families being murdered by ghosts, and actors who experience paranormal events while filming. Personally I experienced also some unexplainable things. A lot of it I forgot but recently I’m experiencing dejavu’s (not really crazy) like in those movies. So at some point I want to use mushrooms again. Like I said I used mushrooms twice (both were before my discovering of actualized org). My first time was a pretty good experience. I got off the “train track” really good and it felt good. I won’t go into details because that is not what this topic is about. The second time was a different story. I got off the “train track” but not in a good way. Main issue is that I believed I couldn’t breathe and I felt extremely sleepy, and if I slept I would die because my breathing wasn’t automatic. I had to push myself to breath. I experienced time stopping or going very slow. I felt how death felt like but in a bad way. I’m still trying to figure out if me not able to breath was an illusion or really true. I actually freaked out and I wanted to call the ambulance but my the guy from who I bought the mushrooms stopped me. I also had major hallucinations like spiders on people’s heads and people popping out of the tv screen. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t think. Probably I took too high of a dose. The mistake I made was to take my first usage of mushrooms as a yardstick and expecting the same experience the second time What I’m trying to say is this: how do we know which paranormal activity is real and what paranormal activity is a hoax? Watching these paranormal Hollywood movies were a mistake. Normally I hate that stuff but Leo said go do some research on paranormal activity and you quickly end up in that weird corner. I want to do mushrooms again and i don’t have anybody at the same consciousness level. So I have to go solo if I want to do mushrooms. I’m sure you guys had bad trips. How would you deal with that if you are in a solo retreat?

Einstein said he doesn’t believe in religious dogma. He said and I’m paraphrasing here because I read his biography not in English: “the religion of the future is the religion of the universe.” Now I think about it. All major scientists were religious or mystic in some way:

Love the illusion/dilution. I just became conscious that I fell in the trap of making a mistake of the illusion / not illusion (reality) duality. The illusion is as real as what is not the illusion. That gave me such a peace of mind.

A simpler way of thinking of it that you are a ship (on infinite waters but that is besides the point) and that the instruments you have is your destination(coordinates) you set out and the motivation (why you want to go there). Basically you can tweak two things: your coordinates (your goal in life) and your motivation why you want to go there (the compass). Sometimes it is not even necessary to change your goal in life. Sometimes the problem is your mental block because you want to reach certain goals for the wrong reasons.

By the way, to hack a phone you need to find a back door. Probably Ramanujan found one of those back doors.

Why is Srinivasa Aaiyangar Ramanujan not included?

Another insight I had was that perception/reality (for humans) is like a carpet, on for example stairs. When you look at the carpet on a stairs it looks 3D but when you detach the carpet from the stairs and pull it from both ends it becomes flat. What the human is is just another chink in the carpet on the stairs. The chink is in resistance to the carpet but eventually one day the pull will dissolve the chink. The thing that this carpet or “fabric” if you will extends infinitely into every direction. It is like a film and currently the film is being played(that is how the human perceives it). In a weird way it is like an actor who plays in a movie, who thinks he has a free will(unscripted role), and that the movie is being captured on film right now while the reality is that the film has already been finished and was already always there. This reminds me of Srinivasa Aaiyangar Ramanujan who was a math genius. We still don’t know how he formulated his findings. He said god told him the math equations and we still don’t know how but we know that his theories are working. This makes me believe if you get truly enlightened you can do science by using mysticism like Srinivasa Aaiyangar Ramanujan did.

To see through the illusion of the four dimensions. That is when I saw infinite space. The last dimension I had to break through (which you did or did not mention in that perception video I can’t remember) was time. I remembered you words “do you think this is all a coincidence?” and I understood it.

They copying Actualized org now.

I get it now. That didn’t take long. Hate isn’t the opposite of love like you said. Hate is too much love (for the self/ego). I just realize that the ego mind is a vacuum of lies. My ego got in my way in understanding it.

Leo says the universe is infinite and thus everything in the universe is infinite and connected to each other but how makes that everything created out of love. Isn’t love as infinite as hate because everything is connected to each other and everything is infinite. For example if you put it in an equation and say everything is 1: ∞ = 1 = 1/1 = 1/0.5+0.5 = 1+99-99 Why is everything 1? why not 2? Ok, let’s try that: ∞ = 2 = 2/2 = 2/0.5+1 = 2+99-99 So, everything is 1 but also 2 but also every other number. I agree with Leo on that: everything is infinite The part I don’t agree on or perhaps don’t understand is why everything is love? Why is everything created out of Love as Leo says? In my opinion everything is everything ∞ = everything = me = you = love = hate = cat down the road

Thank you for the quick response. I will re-listen it.