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All these enlightenment exercises unleashed a change in my personality. Before I would never give things away. I would prefer to throw it away instead of doing the hassle to find out if somebody needs it. Now I’m the exact opposite. I started giving stuff away that I don’t need. Help people such as helping somebody with a broken bicycle. Giving stuff away like giving a lighter to somebody and let him keep it. Forgiving family members with whom I had some issues with. Helping homeless people out. Doing favors to friends and family. I almost start to feel like Santa Claus. At least I’m understanding how Santa Claus felt when giving things away for free. Do you guys had similar experiences?

I had a little nap in my dream I saw somebody (I’m not sure who) throw a bucket with a substance. It is hard to explain what the substance was but when it was thrown everything it touched became eyes which I could see through. At the same time I realized other people couldn’t see what I just witnessed because the substance splashed the surrounding and disappeared but the effect I explained above remained. What does this dream mean?

That is good advice. Thanks a bunch. One technique is use is the following mindfulness technique: whenever I’m about to slack off I start to focus on my watch until I gain enough energy to continue my productive task at hand. That is gold. Thank you a lot. Last time I took magic truffles the exact thing you described about the rejected child surfaced. I wasn’t prepared for that but it is obviously a thing I need to work on, probably have to read some books on this and go to a therapist.

4 days ago I finished the course. It was definitely transformational. I’m happy I took the course. It definitely feels like I changed. Previously I would get bored of self help books very quickly. Now I can actually shred multiple chapters of a self help book within a short time so I’m happy about that part. There has also been some downsides of the last couple of day. I’m not able to keep up with my schedule. I’m always planning one week ahead and when it is morning it feels like time is slipping out of my hands. It is going so fast. I’m worried that if I go like this I’m not able to reach my month goal and not reach my life purpose at all. I want to become a programmer so I decided to put more hours into it but at the same time I have also other things to do. It feels like my being is not ready to juggle that many circus balls. I’m aware of setting expectations but this is purely a logistical and productivity problem. Any advice is appreciated.

I did. I want to share them. Probably will create a journal thread somewhere on this forum. What is abv? Haze seems the best.

There was a podcast about direct experience and imagination. For example our concept of the world being round versus our direct experience in the now. That podcast was very helpful but I forget which podcast that was. Could you help me remember?

Is there a way to record these moments? They are truly above words. Perhaps not only to share them but also to recreate them. It seems they come and go and I even forget them until I have them again.

How?

I understood all the concepts discussed and there is nothing I disagree with but this video made me very uncomfortable. Now I’m curious about the subject. Are there any recommended books or resources about spiritual relativism which will put things into perspective? I feel like the carpet has been pulled away from under me.

@Anton_Pierre what is the highest stage?

Realization that loving yourself and everything around you is key for enlightenment and to reach the turquoise stage. At the same time we have to also wage jihad against the lower conscious self to become more enlightenment. Isn’t this a paradox or am I understanding it wrong? We must love our lower conscious self who is responsible for addiction, suffering and pain and at the same time we have to wage a jihad against it “to kill” the ego and lower conscious self. How does this jive? Last couple of days I have been thinking about it and it kind of left me in a crux.

Isn’t it super natural you are here?

@Commodent ego is the manifestation of the universe. Without ego humans wouldn’t exist. It is literally responsible for the me versus everything else paradigm and to survive that is needed. I think turquoise stage doesn’t clash with the ego. I think the turquoise person looks at the world both from the ego perspective, non ego perspective plus everything else.

Human’s goal is to reach highest phase of enlightenment. I think even Leo said something in this direction. He also said that humans are consciousness probes in the universe exploring itself. If you do research and see the big picture this is what you see. Some people don’t see that and that is ok. They aren’t meant to see it. But deep inside everybody wants to know why we are here on this earth. Most people live their entire life without finding out. The ego is basically “god” itself who denies it is god, as Leo puts it. It is basically a battle between consciousness and unconsciousness. The key is to look third person to this battle. I think that is the bottom line but I could be wrong.

@Commodent for the ego it feels like “the old self” is dying. That is why there is a backlash when we are trying to change. I think your comment about changing one’s relationship to the experience hit the spot though. That insight breaks the ego paradigm that is holding personal change on a leash.

@Truth Addict ok. I understand now.

I become a different person too. I’m still struggling to keep long streaks. Something I have to work on.

Every person’s life purpose is different but I agree there are overarching principles and concepts, those ones he discusses, for example he makes videos on the following topics: mastery, strategy, creativity, responsibility and so on. Your job is to take these general topics and apply it to your own life. He is still busy with covering wide range of topics. I agree the specific instructions for every life purpose isn’t covered. That is why it is important to not only depend on him but to look for other sources: finding books for your own life purpose, specific seminars, finding life coach and so on. Are there any topics you want Leo to cover? I’m curious what they are. You can actually do requests in one of the sub forums.

Leo focuses on big topics so you can see the big picture. You have to connect the dots to make the big concepts, that are too general, to small day to day concepts. And you are right that Leo doesn’t do that because it is your job to do that. Every person’s “maze” is different. It is your belief that the maze Leo is in is different than yours and you are probably right.

Only thing you can do wrong is not talk about it. Find therapist or start recording your own personal podcasts and listen them back and take notes.

I’m taking psychedelics once a week and I already discovered I’m still very egoistic, instead of being like a force of nature (which you trying to explain if I understand you correctly). I just finished the life purpose course so I just started. I need to make a schedule I think. So much to remember to do everyday like meditating with all the different techniques, journaling/contemplating, and so on.

I just discovered one of my limited beliefs is that “I have started 0-10 in the game of life.” Obviously this is special snowflake behavior. There are people who are much and much worse than me. I’m 30 and I recently discovered I chose a wrong career path. If I find my life purpose this time (at age 30). I will be luckier than a lot of people who don’t find their life purpose at all.. so it is a question if the glass is half full or empty. Even after this realization. I’m still being drawn into this paradigm time after time. Am I missing something?

@DivineSoda I actually want to go in IT. Do you mind me asking what moved you away from IT to another sector? Perhaps I could learn from your process.

Do I have another option than letting go? It slips away. It almost feels like soap.

Is there a way to record these moments? They are truly above words. Perhaps not only to share them but also to recreate them. It seems they come and go and I even forget them until I have them again.