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Exactly. That is the point of meditation; becoming more conscious. First step is becoming conscious. Second step is treating the emotional wound. Third step is recovery process.

I will pick up that book and literally clean out my closet. Thanks guys.

I think I know what you mean. @ajasatya

I’m taking mushrooms every two weeks. I noticed a clear trend where underlying personal issues pop up every time I take them; such as where I’m going with my life, my life purpose, my insecurities If I can do it and my personal problems like procrastination and laziness. Obviously I’m not ignoring these and I’m addressing these. Is this stage normal? I would like to hear how others would act in my situation. Obviously there is a lot of personal things I need to sort out before I can even become enlightened and less self absorbed It sometimes I feel like I feel guilty of not being there yet (where more enlightened people are). I don’t know how to deal with that feeling.

@ajasatya probably if I don’t have a choice. Like probably on the edge of being homeless or having no food (without others helping me). I usually really “do” stuff if I’m necessary out of my own unless if I power through without a lot of effort and misery.

I’m 30. I want to act upon them but my motivation doesn’t line up. For example some days I don’t meditate and I feel guilty. I’m planning to read one book very two days then don’t do it. I want to write and contemplate more in my journals but I rarely do. My Unconscious is sabotaging. I have the time and the ability to do it but there is a part who doesn’t. Most of the time he gets his way.

He is on 3k per months with 560 donators. That is 5 bucks per person on average. The same people who pay 10-13 bucks per month to Netflix.

Leo has some videos on it on his YouTube channel.

Keep going. Don’t get stuck in the nihilism. I was in that spot too

I have this problem of over intellectualizing I think. Thanks for the heads up.

Any books on the book list on this topic?

I’m going to a seminar of RSD soon. The inner game stuff can be used on relationships on general.

I have been practicing the letting go technique. It is an interesting exercise. I have noticed that my personality changed for the good and the bad. For example my relationships have gotten better. So that is all good. Now the bad part. I have been making stupid decisions too such as putting a too large of an order of supplies for my webshop. It is all good. I can return that and I can learn from it. But what really gets to me with the letting go technique is getting things done. If I have the urge to read a book and it is kind of a boring book but necessary for my self development I have a hard time starting to read and keeping reading without fear or desire. I would like to read how other people deal with this.

If you fully understand you are going to die one day, you will feel the heat under your ass but that isn’t a guarantee you will do work though. Procrastination is a multi pronged problem. I have problems with it too. Don’t underestimate diet though. Find out on what foods your body works best on. For example I added bunch of green vegetables and fish (and fish eggs) and that took away my low energy. Too masturbation could be a problem too. Just don’t masturbate for a month to three months and see what kind of beast you become. Too much masturbation decrease dopamine and that lowers your incentives to do stuff.

@The Blind Sage generally yes unless you numb your brain so much that your dopamine receptors get less sensitive.

Edit: Never mind

@The Blind Sage you brain doesn’t care about one hit or two hits. It cares about the dopamine release. One week ago I smoked a joint after laying off for 4 weeks and I got high off of it before finishing half of it. I was completely zoned out and I could barely walk. I see people smoke multiple joints and not even getting close as high as me. It has to do with your dopamine levels adapting. But then again I never smoked a bong. Perhaps it is different. I can’t tell for sure.

I really liked the video about the 10 ox herding pictures. A video about the Sufi roadmap to enlightenment would be a great contrast.

Takes about 3-4 weeks for dopamine levels to return to normal.

@The Blind Sage how I see it was like a phase. I’m still phasing out of weed use. Unlike mushrooms, weed can have some big negatives on your health. Moderation is key so you strike the right balance to gain sizable benefits without too much damage to your health. It is a fine balance. If you do it too much you obviously damage your health more but that doesn’t mean you get more benefits. Your system just adjusts to the THC and you need more and more to get the same high.

I made a topic about this a while back and I can confirm what you say. It can have healing effects. It changed my personality. One thing you shouldn’t forget though: every positive has a negative. One shouldn’t downsize the negatives of weed just for the positives.

I came into contact with a wild bear. They were more afraid of me than I was of them. Not all bears are equal.

Buda doesn’t have an ego so when you become one, it seems having a life purpose doesn’t jive that. Having a life purpose entails having egoistic ideals. I’m I missing something here?

@Leo Gura ok. I get it now. Is it right to say that life purpose isn’t a choice but a discovery?

That is what I thought but if that is thé case why half ass it? If you don’t half ass it you wouldn’t fear to die and die soon after by car crash or something.