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In retrospect this trap totally melted my perception of the world. I’m still a little depressed. I didn’t get the answers I wanted. The trip itself was easy to handle. I got stuck in couple of thought loops and I feel like I didn’t let go. In two weeks I will do another LSD trip but this time 400 ug. I might have build up some tolerance for the substance. It will be the last time I will take LSD for a while. Might switch to 5 meo.

How many grams?

I get enough salt from food. Too much can cause cancer and your body will store liquid if you have too much salt in your system.

Just smoked it like last time. I used the non-extract. It was difficult to inhale. Couple of minutes in, I got couple of enlightenment experiences. At one point I was just repeating "oh, my god". Steve Job's last words came to mind. The trigger was a random thing that happened in my environment. It made me contemplate about death. The chain of things made me realize that I got everything backward. Everything is just an sensory signal from birth on wards was the bottom line of this trip. I'm just consciousness, everything besides that as is just an assumption. It hit me like lightening. Oh, man. This substance is some powerful stuff. I made me feel how it feels to be death, which was great!

Did you finish the book list too?

I doubt you watched all of his video's. For new members I recommend his earlier video's. Enough entertainment to keep you busy, my friend. :))

Stop masturbating.

Nice video but there is definitely some projection going on. When Corona is over people will go back to whatever although the baseline won’t be the same.

Shamanic Breathing Technique + LIVE DEMO This video is Leo's version of shamanic breathing Look into Realms of the Human Unconscious: Observations from LSD Research by Stanislav Grof <https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/196573.Realms_of_the_Human_Unconscious> And: Holotropic Breathwork Van <http://www.holotropic.com/holotropic-breathwork/about-holotropic-breathwork/> Get into breathing. Breath and spirit is linked. It is used in emotional and physco therapeutic healing Breathing is good for entering non-duality, entering alternative realities and it helps with meditation Technique: Clean your nose, and drink some water Set timer for 30 minutes: put on yoga music/tribal trumping Equally breath in and out Surrender into everything, reframe everything into good, remind yourself that it will pass (your baseline of consciousness will be higher, this is neurosis leave your body, expect ego backlash) All kind of unconventional things can happen: be ready for that Get into shadow work. This breathing technique is a supplement to psychedelics and meditation

Emotionally sensitive people were hurt (most likely by their parents).

@Hello from Russia That is funny. I had the same thing with a very simple game called slither io. It is a multiplayer game, in the game you are little snake, and eat food to become bigger. There are other snakes who want to cut you off and kill you so they can feast on your body. One technique you can use is to make a loop (infinity) with the snake’s body so nobody can cut you off. But you can’t stay in that loop for ever because you need food. I think meditation is like doing infinite loop as a snake so the outside environment can’t cut you off. I used this technique to stay concentrated.

I get the general understanding. Already contemplated about it for several hours. Where I get stuck is when I apply sameness/difference to systems. Why do systems exist? The purpose of a system is to differentiate itself from its environment but how can I apply sameness on systems? All systems are connected to each other so is the universe just one big system? If no, this is the point where I’m stuck. If yes, does a system not require it to be rational?

There are requirements to call something a system: 1. Every system has a purpose 2. different sub parts and elements have an inter connection, and move towards a common purpose 3. System operates in a context/external world (which creates duality) and has boundaries So is the universe a system? We can tick of the first two boxes but the last box we can’t tick off. The universe is non-dual. The universe simply doesn’t meet the requirements to be called a system. I mean we still can use systems thinking to make sense of the smaller parts but if we want to integrate every sub part, look at the big picture, the system becomes the context (Environment) and the context becomes the system. I don’t know if you still can call it a system. According to literature that is not a system. It is a loop and that is what the universe is, and what it makes infinite. It means it has no boundaries. I think if we call it a system we do it injustice by creating a duality.

I think it has to do with spiral dynamics and paradigms. If you have higher consciousness you don’t react to it but if you are on the same paradigm you get a paradigm lock. That is why religious people from different sects hate each other for example.

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I did an IQ test for a job application a while back. My IQ is above average for an European. They said I could do a masters. My experience with myself is that I’m a slow learner. I have a motivation/self discipline problem. I’m trying to let go of that identity but my experience says otherwise. Usually I get stuck in the monkey mind who reminds me of my failures while learning. I’m kind of struggling how to deal with this. Meditation helped me and I made progress with calming my hyper active brain but what should be my game plan? Just accept who I am as a Buddhist would? That is the first step. Last couple of weeks I suffered emotionally because of my not so good productivity.

@Thought Art I will try that app out. pomodoro is great. It is only thanks to this technique that I get something done. :))

He changed a lot in the past years. I would like to take a seminar with him but it costs an arm and a leg to get in. ?

This video is a gem: I’m kind of confused right now which might a be a good thing. Trying to figure out why I should do something if I’m truly in the now and enlightened. I reached those higher states of the now and I didn’t have intention to do something.

In his last video he gives away a lot about his personal life. At least what is going to do for the coming months.

I think it is key to move forward but if you move so slow that it almost looks like you are not making progress it is not good.

I saw there was no summary of this video How to do it? Self-inquiry is extremely simple (and therefore extremely difficult): Step 1: Sit down in a quiet place Step 2: Create a possibility in your mind that you do not actually know who or what you are. Step 3: Ask yourself, "Who or what am I?" Step 4: Genuinely wonder what you could be other than a body/mind. Probe your direct experience for answers. Discard all verbal or rational answers. Try to burn through all your beliefs, assumptions, and images of who you are. Drop all of them over time. Step 5: Enlightenment spontaneously dawns after tens or hundreds of thousands of times of asking the question. That's basically all there is to it. But of course, in practice, it will feel 1000x more complicated and more challenging. Van <https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/1040-self-enquiry-how-to/> Self inquiry is about looking past your false self and see your true self Self inquiry = Observe observation itself = meditation Satori = breakthrough You do self inquiry because you think you are in your head and you are actually not there. When you see you are not what you think you are, you will break out of your prison The sensor is not you, the sensor is everywhere What you are You are not your hand, your body, your brain. You are the consciousness You are not all those physical things, you are the thing that is aware of that. You think you are the one who perceives things? No, that is the subject self. Not the objective true you. True self has no properties; especially no physical or mental Be aware of Avoid speculation and conceptualization Be aware that observation trumps conceptualization Creating duality instead become aware of form/formless, mundane and divine, and material/immaterial(spiritual) Start separating formless from the form, concentrate on the formless and then merge formless with form Answer you are seeking is not a verbal answer Exercise: find your deepest sense of who you are (inside your psyche) Pre self inquiry = stare at your finger for 5 minutes and then do the actual self inquiry Put your awareness on your hand, then the couch, then put awareness on your consciousness. Do it with your empty mind; feel what it is Put your focus on the emptiness Calm down so clouds go away so you see the stars Separate form from formless so you won't be absorbed by suffering Think of physical/emotional pain: and ask yourself who is experiencing it? Your answer is wrong, that is your false self! First disassociate and then put things together to reintegrate the form and formless. You need to do both self inquiry(finding yourself) and meditation (concentration)

He has some good points here and there but you have to dig through the shit. I mean he is a successful guy for a reason. I find his accent fake but funny at the same time. Nobody talks like that.

I made the edit.

Couple of people from RSD were coached by Leo a while back and that lead to that actualized rant video about pickup. Owen understands his public. If Owen started preaching Leo’s level of content he wouldn’t have a business to run. He is incrementally changing his business model from pickup to self improvement. It is silly to compare RSD to Actualized dot org. They are preaching to a different public. RSD is more hands on and getting stuff like in stage orange/green. People who need practical advice getting stuff done fit in well with RSD teachings.