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Does 5 meo DMT smell? I don’t want my living room to smell shady.

I couldn’t find the powder form at where I’m at. The DIPT variation is the only thing I could find. They basically look the same as LSD tabs but it has 5 meo. Does anyone have any any experience with it? I couldn’t find anything in the search.

@Girzo all other things are easily accessible, besides 5-MeO-DMT.

It is definitely not fake. The 5-MEO-DIPT is from a good source. I also knew it is not the same as the DMT. I’m not able to find it.

Strategy in a nutshell matching your goals to your resources.

I postponed this trip for almost a month to do spirituality work. To watch video's, read the books and do the practices. I watched all of Leo's spirituality videos. Today I took my 200 ug of LSD expecting no ego death or major enlightenment. I knew old shit was going to bubble: mostly childhood trauma. This is the stuff that is killing mood, since forever. It is my main obstacle for not being actualized, and all problems that stem from that such as procrastination, hopelessness, not feeling connected, loneliness and not enjoying life. LSD showed me I need to fix my relationship with my family so I can get some emotional support for fixing my personal and professional life. I know they are understanding and loving people but you really need to be stage yellow to get along with them. I'm kind of "forced" to do this because I don't really have a close group of friends or a girlfriend who can provide me emotional support. Currently doing an university course and trying to find full time job on the side. It is not easy and I need people to support me with my journey. The main lesson I got out of this trip was that I need to get my life fixed. My problem is that I didn't understand myself and what my purpose in this universe is. Main insights I got: All humans are consciousness with various degrees of enlightenment Physical reality does not exist, we are just entities who interact with each other through our senses Every human is just a "seed" of consciousness that blossomed into a thoughts/emotions (identity). A human has no influence on what he or she or it is going to be. It depends where the seed lands. For example: even my access to Actualized org depended on being born in a country with internet connection. Procrastination is highly linked to how you feel: it is the emotion that attracts you or distracts you from doing an activity I got some insights how humankind/the universe has grand overlapping interests, how countries got overlapping interests, how families got overlapping interests and how spiral dynamics got a role in that. Life is just partnering up with people to realize the ultimate goal. I realized that all relationships are a give and take, including a child/parent relationship. I mean I wasn't asked to be put here. They spawned me so to say so I could continue their identity (thought of self) This trip also made clear that I cannot really do deep spiritual work before fixing my life: being self-sustained (having a steady income) and at least have a support group before I can move on into deep spiritual stuff. If I understand it correctly enlightenment is just about aligning yourself with the universe. I don't know how much further mental gymnastics is going to bring me happiness. I don't think I can be happy if I chose not to have a wife and kids and become a zen master instead. I remember Leo saying a person should go for the regular life if that makes him/her happy. In the last couple of months I was in conflict with myself about this. I want to get enlightened but there are all of these things in my life that I want to get done. I can let all of it go for the sake of enlightenment but then what? At this moment I feel like a failed stage orange person (with some other shades). I'm kind of confused right now. Spirituality teachers such as Leo, Sadhuru, and Eckhart Tolle say that all problems solve itself when one becomes enlightened. Does this mean, when one becomes enlightened it will be easier to find a good job/good partner/good friends? Or does it mean when you become enlightened you don't need those things? It would be nice to be enlightened + have the good stuff in life. This trip also made it painfully obvious that I just use enlightenment for personal gain and to get added advantage in the rat race game of life. My expectations for life is no where near the American dream. It is much more humble. Everybody is doing there best in life. Is enlightenment asking to be happy about nothing? I mean you first need to survive so you can't be happy with nothing (no food). And after that there are all the stages of Maslow's pyramid for human needs. To wrap this up: the main lesson I got out of this trip is that enlightenment is about truth seeking but that I'm using enlightenment just as survival gimmick. Everything I'm doing is just for survival. The enlightenment teaching says I need to let everything go but I can't. I don't know how.

Yes, it is basically build around the breathing technique.

His program RSD transformations is highly recommended. It helped me a lot.

I have made similar text books for other video sections.

He is definitely my favorite mod. :))

I just stay away from arguments most of the time. What you focus on becomes your reality. Annoying people are everywhere. Good luck evading them your whole life.

Do you have any advice for my next trip?

In retrospect this trap totally melted my perception of the world. I’m still a little depressed. I didn’t get the answers I wanted. The trip itself was easy to handle. I got stuck in couple of thought loops and I feel like I didn’t let go. In two weeks I will do another LSD trip but this time 400 ug. I might have build up some tolerance for the substance. It will be the last time I will take LSD for a while. Might switch to 5 meo.

How many grams?

I get enough salt from food. Too much can cause cancer and your body will store liquid if you have too much salt in your system.

Just smoked it like last time. I used the non-extract. It was difficult to inhale. Couple of minutes in, I got couple of enlightenment experiences. At one point I was just repeating "oh, my god". Steve Job's last words came to mind. The trigger was a random thing that happened in my environment. It made me contemplate about death. The chain of things made me realize that I got everything backward. Everything is just an sensory signal from birth on wards was the bottom line of this trip. I'm just consciousness, everything besides that as is just an assumption. It hit me like lightening. Oh, man. This substance is some powerful stuff. I made me feel how it feels to be death, which was great!

Did you finish the book list too?

I doubt you watched all of his video's. For new members I recommend his earlier video's. Enough entertainment to keep you busy, my friend. :))

Stop masturbating.

Nice video but there is definitely some projection going on. When Corona is over people will go back to whatever although the baseline won’t be the same.

Shamanic Breathing Technique + LIVE DEMO This video is Leo's version of shamanic breathing Look into Realms of the Human Unconscious: Observations from LSD Research by Stanislav Grof <https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/196573.Realms_of_the_Human_Unconscious> And: Holotropic Breathwork Van <http://www.holotropic.com/holotropic-breathwork/about-holotropic-breathwork/> Get into breathing. Breath and spirit is linked. It is used in emotional and physco therapeutic healing Breathing is good for entering non-duality, entering alternative realities and it helps with meditation Technique: Clean your nose, and drink some water Set timer for 30 minutes: put on yoga music/tribal trumping Equally breath in and out Surrender into everything, reframe everything into good, remind yourself that it will pass (your baseline of consciousness will be higher, this is neurosis leave your body, expect ego backlash) All kind of unconventional things can happen: be ready for that Get into shadow work. This breathing technique is a supplement to psychedelics and meditation

Emotionally sensitive people were hurt (most likely by their parents).

@Hello from Russia That is funny. I had the same thing with a very simple game called slither io. It is a multiplayer game, in the game you are little snake, and eat food to become bigger. There are other snakes who want to cut you off and kill you so they can feast on your body. One technique you can use is to make a loop (infinity) with the snake’s body so nobody can cut you off. But you can’t stay in that loop for ever because you need food. I think meditation is like doing infinite loop as a snake so the outside environment can’t cut you off. I used this technique to stay concentrated.

I get the general understanding. Already contemplated about it for several hours. Where I get stuck is when I apply sameness/difference to systems. Why do systems exist? The purpose of a system is to differentiate itself from its environment but how can I apply sameness on systems? All systems are connected to each other so is the universe just one big system? If no, this is the point where I’m stuck. If yes, does a system not require it to be rational?

There are requirements to call something a system: 1. Every system has a purpose 2. different sub parts and elements have an inter connection, and move towards a common purpose 3. System operates in a context/external world (which creates duality) and has boundaries So is the universe a system? We can tick of the first two boxes but the last box we can’t tick off. The universe is non-dual. The universe simply doesn’t meet the requirements to be called a system. I mean we still can use systems thinking to make sense of the smaller parts but if we want to integrate every sub part, look at the big picture, the system becomes the context (Environment) and the context becomes the system. I don’t know if you still can call it a system. According to literature that is not a system. It is a loop and that is what the universe is, and what it makes infinite. It means it has no boundaries. I think if we call it a system we do it injustice by creating a duality.