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@Strangeloop make a distinction between what is going on in your head and what the reality is. If you stop thinking all your problems will disappear but that is no solution. You need to put your energy towards taking action and if you don't know what action to take you need to figure that out.

It is not meat. Stop calling it meat. Just because you make it look like it doesn't make it meat.

@Leo Gura Erdogan is doing it for internal politics. He is down in the polls and he is trying to consolidate the Muslim vote this way. It is not serious. For outsiders it might seem that way. No way Erdogan can win the elections again. He destroyed the turkish economy. @Gregp

In the first time of my life I did a direct approach in the gym. She asked me a question about a device and I thought that was an invitation. I chatted her up. I was done with my workouts and I thought I would ask her number so we could work together. She had a bf. I don't know if this is true but it really hurt. It was not even the emotional pain but my teary eyes that she could see. It was embarrassing. This is part of pickup. This is emotional labor. This is how one creates anti fragility.

Having a playboy grin is very important in PUA. This is how I would describe the grin This grin is not forced. It is a state of being. It requires complete relaxation. It is a true expression of your being. It is an expression of arrogance but you still have both feet in the ground This grin is not only a physical expression on your face but also a mentality. When your body assumes the grin, your psyche will follow It portrays strong ego, rejection doesn't hurt when having this grin, it doesn't penetrate you The mindset: You are OK with her liking you or not. You couldn't care less. This grin is the physical anchor of this mindset

For people that are not convinced

I'm already doing all the right things; gym, exercise, meditation, concentration exercises... It is just that my resistance is very fragile at certain times. Espcially when I'm down about something. Read the book "Your brain on Porn". It is really a must read if you are doing no fap. My porn addiction is really at the root of all my life problems like I explained in the original post. If your brain being wired to porn instead of flesh and blood women is huge problem for you, you need to go balls to the wall. A lot of motivation is needed. Rally yourself up. Some say my porn addiction is not the cause but the effect of something. I think it is a combination. Watching porn is so easy. With couple of clicks you get the best looking girls so why go out and chat girls right? I did chat up some blonde hottie the other day and she ghosted me right after. I think that was the trigger.

I will be using these sources for my healing

Imagine taking that burden and having that on your conscious..

Which meditation technique do you recommend while doing 2 weeks of hardcore mediation?

I'm set on doing 90 days no pmo. At this point I really have to go hardcore no fap. I'm so pissed off right now. In the past I had ED with girls and it is directly linked to pmo. I really need to fix this shit. I have been postponing it for 5 years.

Good looks gives you the illusion that looks is all you need. For some people it does work out but after a while they get old and lose their looks and their ego just collapses which they can't handle.

@Manusia if shit gets real, it feels like the turbulence in my body gets unmanageable. I go to the gym but I can't go to the gym all the time. I really become fearless so it is good for pickup but I'm too focused on sex which is not good.

I'm really not in the mood to do pickup right now. I went to the city and I noticed that I don't want to go out of my way to approach which means not approaching most of the time. I did one approach. It was a girl with crazy shoes. I did an unusual approach which is a pushpull as an opener: Me: hi, nice shoes She: they are nice aren't they? Me: can you fly with them? She: it would be nice if I could fly with these shoes At the moment we unhooked. She had to go into a store. I notice that when I use different kind of openers I lose my train of thought. Pickup is really about having a train of thought and connecting these train of thoughts to form a skill set called pickup skills. My focus: I really need to stop bitching and put more effort into developing this skill set. At the same time I need to build a better connection with myself. I can't connect with girls if I don't connect with myself. And also don't reject myself when girls reject me. My rejection rates aren't even that high. I'm very picky with approach. I will need go change this. I really need to bulk up on some approach experiences. I'm way into my head which doesn't mean I didn't make leaps in the last two months. So firstly I need to approach more and secondly I need to burn sets to the ground and not bail prematurely like today.

My plan is this: I will take two weeks to read the necessary literature that you provided and after that start taking LSD and 5 MeO, I hope to wrap it up in the next 2-3 months in conjunction with therapy. I have a history of serious psychological and physical abuse. I'm really done with my old ways. I feel like I need to take some radical steps. I already did the necessary prep with therapy and reading. I can't really do more.

Luckily I have therapy though. Last 3 months I studied psychology (while taking therapy). Next 3 months I will dive deep with psychedelics. Wish me luck.

@acidgoofy damn, thank you so much. That is what I was looking for. I know there is a lot of bad info out there. That is why I asked it here. I already took 220 ug of LSD and it was fine. I just missed the guidance for healing. IMHO actualized dot org has to focus on this stuff. Trying to be enlightened while having traumas is a recipe for disaster.

Being good looking or charismatic will get you nothing if you don't have anything to back it up with. If you have things to back up your good looks, then yes, otherwise no! The thread question is too black and white.

John Welwood?

Leo being cold hearted and blunt is very Russian. Like Russia's symbol the bear. It will be difficult to be heart centered if he doesn't see it.

This was my point. Good to know some people got my point.

@Leo Gura in the past I brought up the dangers of mental illnesses/childhood trauma and psychedelics. You shrugged it under the table and you said you give multiple warnings in your videos and people can google and research stuff before taking it. You yourself don't have any mental illnesses so it was hard for you to empathize what I was talking about. I think now you understand my point. In your recent videos you said you give warnings but these were obviously not enough. People are UNCONSCIOUS of their own mental illnesses and childhood trauma so just giving them "warnings" is like telling a blind person to stop at a red light. Perhaps you should make some specific videos on trauma healing with help of psychedelics: that is actually practical for most people and would make their life better. People come here and they think enlightenment is the magic pill while being deeply mentally ill. That is the problem.

Today I approached a lady on the street in an indirect way. Started talking about the traffic and bunch of other stuff. She was married. This was my only approach of today and I got kind of down because of it. I have to keep reminding myself it is a numbers game. I'm trying not to judge myself if I don't do 3-5 streaks. Still it was an interesting approach. I got to practice teasing and frame control. Letting go of control and only controlling frame in broad strokes is kind of difficult. I'm a control freak and this is also my biggest problem. PUA is as much internal as external. Internal I would say is more important since the internal because the external. The girl who's number I got couple of days ago doesn't pick up my phone calls and answers my text. Why did she gave it to me if she was going to ghost me? These women suck.

The expectations you put on Actualized org forum are just your expectations. The majority of the members here don't share your expectations. You already get a lot of freebies and wanting more is kind of ungrateful.

My health insurance covers it so I just go every 2 weeks although it does not really help me with my back problems. I found another one and he is a little better. There are minor improvements. It is not a magic pill.